back~

I'm back from bay of islands (: my report is, it was ok, 3 days of stress ==; and all in all 3 days wasted |: this is going to be a picture spam, then I might do a rant on what I'm feeling atm.

on the 2nd day we went up to cape reinga (signpost above) and on the way we stopped for icecream. the pictures below show SINGLE SCOOP ice creams btw. I also have a nice one of a car that drove onto one that dropped onto the ground. ahahahaha straight on the wheel =P the above is my brother & his lime one, and below is my cousin with his chocolate. faces censored for obvious reasons ==;



look at this awesome shot I got of the seagulls:

and I have plenty more where that came from. the sky was really blue that day despite weather reports predicting rain. well we did get some rain in the beginning but it eased up by noon, revealing the awesome sky u see above (:

ok rant timmeeee. this must be so overdone but come on.. parents ==; won't let me go to newmarket with a guy. wtf? its not even a date, just with a friend. and when I tried to tell my dad this he was like "yeahh that's what YOU say..." such lack of trust D: then he goes "u shouldnt be dating at ur age" and im like WTFFF ITS NOT A DATEEE. plus I'm 15 already >>; it's like I grow and shrink as they prefer "you're 15, you're old enough to have all these responsibilities, do the dishes, clean the car, vacuum the house, clean the windows, help ur brother with his homework, tell ur brother to stop watching tv, no i cant take u there, take the bus, use the train, go earn ur own money, get a job... ==; then all of a sudden no you can't go out you're too young, stay home more. O_o

man I wish he'd use his brain. if I wanted to date someone, I know that he wouldn't approve anyway, so I would immediately lie and use someone else as a cover up right. ==; it's like he trusts me to not lie but doesnt trust me to tell the truth about going out with a guy who he suspects is a date. geeee... and if you're reading this dad hey yeah, this is how I think, plz regard what I say |: and ur obliviousness isn't helping, the irony of the situation is getting wayy out of hand. u wont let me be alone with a guy friend, yet you have no complaints about me being alone with family friend's son whos hitting on me every chance he can get. wtf?

I'm not as pure and stupid as you think, sure I'm innocent compared to a lot of other people but I'm not stupid. If I want to disobey you I can do it without you knowing, yet the fact that I'm willing to tell you that I'm going to newmarket with this guy is completely ignored |: I'm definitely more obedient than other kids my age, and they take it for granted. Of course I guess they assume that I always tell the truth and the whole truth. but omg come on we're teenagers you should know what we're capable of, unless you were a teenager who had no life back then ==;

he wants me to find someone else to come. I offered that he come, but obviously he's not going to be around. see even he can't carry thru with his own condemnations. being a teenager i could just go alone and say i found someone else to come. or i could just be an ass and not bring anything up, and then after he comes back be like 'yeah we went alone |: what's it to you? can't change anything now...
/ENDrant for now... dont want to depress u guys any more lol

on a slightly better note, my other pair of converses came today (: yaaay~

they're sexy. (: also with them came a top, jeans and a jacket which I got in china so yaay I have moar clothes now =P

fjasdlfajwdlksf I'm still pissed off. gonna go and play some games ==;

[EDIT] O YEAH AND BEFORE I FORGET. happy new year (: cherish the last few hours of 2008, and cherish that last EXTRA SECOND =P official timekeepers, pshh.

random meme

I got bored, heres a blog meme.

1) Answer the questions and type into google image search

2) Post pictures from first results page


1. age at next birthday

2. place you'd like to travel to

3. favorite place

4. favorite object

5. favorite food

6. favorite animal

7. favorite color

8. place you were born

9. place where you live

10. name of a past pet

11. best friends nickname

12. your screen name/nickname

13. your first name

14. your middle name (no, I don't know either.)

15. your last name

16. a bad habit of yours (I'll do it tomorrow.)

17. your first job

18. grandmother's name

19. college major

20. favorite holiday


about no 12... that's actually my avatar on livejournal LOL SKILL I'm the only zmallet on the internet.

well that killed some of my time. aunt and cousin came over from america. HES SO CUTE <3333 lik 6 year old with squeaky lil-kid voice bouncing off the walls X33 anyway we're going up to bay of islands next 3 days so that's why I won't be around. txt me tho =P

btw Britney Spears - Circus = good song. no I lie, I'm obsessed atm. yes, I have it on repeat. -shame-

would you?

a man has been with his first girlfriend for 5 years and is happy. however, he is curious as he has never been in another relationship. does he break up with his current girlfriend to seek a different one just for the experience and possibility of greater happiness?

many people will say no! think about the girlfriend! you're a terrible boyfriend, she deserves better.

a man is a successful businessman. he is happy with his job and position. however, he is curious as he has always been in this business. he is fascinated in something else, lets say cars. does he quit his job and become a mechanic and possibility of greater happiness?

many people will say no! you are already successful, just be happy with what you have now, don't take the risk.

what if the businessman's passion is cars and only became a businessman because of a coincidence? eg, made a bet with his friend to start buying stocks, whoever earned more by the end of ___ won...

what if the man got with his current girlfriend just because she was there at the time and is in fact currently in love with another woman who he knows will guarantee him greater happiness if he is successful?

life is full of complicated decisions. [except maybe the relationship one isn't good example because it involves someone else's feelings.]

do you give up what you have, the safe option, for an option with greater rewards but instability?

do you give up what you have for something that you really believe in?

do you give up what you have for something you know will bring more hardships, but know that in the end it is what you really want?

would you give it up, if you don't know if your other option is in fact what you really want at all?

I think it depends on the individual case. But I'm thinking of taking the risk. You only have one shot at life, might as well make it count. I'm planning to help change the world, rather than going forward with my previous plans of becoming an architect or designer, something artsy.. what is the purpose? other than entertainment of others. People will say I'm too ambitious. But I want to make my life count. This decision isn't final, obviously. I'm only 15. But whatever I choose in the end... I'm going to make it count. I'm going to the top =P you can all lol at me when I fail. but you know that I'm just gonna get off my ass and try again til I get it.

So the point of this blog post was.. DONATE TO SCIENCE. I MIGHT BE NEEDING IT.

1week into holidays general update

7 days since last update. nothing much happened since then leg healed a bit (ha ha.)

thursday I went up to one tree hill to stitch pigs and ended up with amazing tanlines and sunburn. (: but thats allgood cuz the tanlines are gone now.

friday I sewed for the whole day trying to get all the pigs done before laina's party

saturday was hectic, speed sketched laina's present and then had to rush off to chinese on bus. there was an asian couple there who asked some questions about bus and they made me realise a lot of stereotypes... asian looking people are probably chinese |: since there are so many the chance of it being chinese is high I guess. no 2, chinese people who speak mandarin all come from beijing. false. ==; the old guy was like "你是北京人？" and I was like “哈哈，不是，我是广州的。” --; also, they started asking about if I go to school here as if I'm like an exchange student. when I told them that I came here like more than 10 years they asked about my parents, and I said they lived here too. which leads me to no 4: they asked 他们在这边开中餐馆？ which is like... do they own a chinese restaurant here? XDDDD I actually loled and said no. mannnnn chinese stereotypes. but cuz I provided such lovely conversation they gave me a beijing olympics souvenir pin (:

chinese class was actually really fun, there was only me and angie there. we watched like 45 mins of chinese martial arts movie and then read little stories haha. funnnn. our class is so crap tho there's like noone there, so next term I might go and join the sunday class after art although it's the book lower than ours. apparently there are heaps of guys in that class (:

laina's party was fun lol and a nice break from all that frantic sketching and sewing. some photos and videos will never be released to the public |: man I want to see photos from the party D: we all know what happened with those empty bottles in the pantry anyway....... watched love actually. btw that girl singing actually has an active youtube page and is now 16. she's a good singer (:

sunday went SP and got free frozen yoghurt and watched quantum of solace. apparently wasn't as good as CR but I didn't watch it so eh yeah. was pretty good for me anyway, first 007 movie I watched lol.

today went newmarket with tian jamie and ming again and played pool for 4 hours. I'm getting better (: fluked a lot. had korean food for lunch and left like $5 worth of food on the table cuz there was so damn much. saw laina, had her stand next to tian and loled. (imagine 158cm next to nearly 190cm lol). just found out that ming waited at the wrong bus stop for an hour for the bus aleksdfjaklsdf HAHAHAHAHAAH. ok ignore me.

yeah that's all so far. today was a pretty fun day tho (: enjoying my holidayssss. but then I have to tidy my room and everything before the 27th when auntie and family come... siiiigh. i think ill just dump everything in drawers and never open them to make it LOOK clean at least. and then never use my room again. @_@ I found out that william lives like 3 streets down from me, I can go trash his place instead |:

btw happy birthday mum if you happen to see this (doubtful)

I've actually lost 3kgs already this week. I think it's the lack of steph food and sleep. I'm averaging about 6-7 hours of sleep every night lol. but hey, not necessarily a bad thing. and tian's ano or something, around 188cm and 63kg |: that's that lighter than I was at the beginning of the holidays T___T; what a stick.

that's all for now I think. still have heaps to do before I can relax. sdfklawjsflas ughhh. it's kind of good to have nothing to do steph. or you can come to my house and tidy my room for me, if you want. (:

mm, pus.

look at that =P hahahaha I'm so clumsy. cuz tian made a stupid as shot and I was high, I rofled literally by tripping over my pool cue and skidding my left knee along the carpet. I'm so cool -.-

so I had a great time in the shower today. yeah. but after a while you kinda get used to the pain... it's still pusing atm tho.

not gonna go over yesterday since ppl who read my blog already know what happened (walked around, looked at phone, window shopped, spent like an hour in supre looking at specials, got the phone, maybe walked around some more...) I forgot. but the drink was nice.

this morning I woke up, thot 'huh, I got up pretty early this morning.' thinking it was about 6am, slowly getting out of bed, looked at clock OMFG ITS 7.48. so I had to rush everything and basically ran to the bus stop to catch the bus on time. saw ming's cousin's twin on the bus (I swear, he looked just like him.) and then got off at city, forgot where the library was, txted tian and then suddenly remembered, and quickly txted a 'nevermind' to him only to get the mocking 'LOL.' txt in return. =.=

I recognised ming by his trademark slouch + vacuumed mohawk.

then we went to the pool place and found out that it didn't open until 11. so we wasted 2 hours by buying mrs higgin's cookies and sitting down for a while, then going to arcade where we watched jamie fail at rhythm games and eventually left again to go to somewhere else which I have forgotten about at the moment sry.

then finally when it was 11 we went to pool and had the most lol-worthy time (: man my breaking is awesome. jump the white ball OVER the rest of them and then have it fly off the table by hitting it with the stick while in mid air. ahhh geez, good times. ming and I still won 3-2 tho. (: yaaay.

went to lunch at some jap restaurant where I spent 15 bucks on a lunch box. ming didn't know what sashimi was ahahahaha =D too much time spent at home on dota.

after that we were gonna go see movie but the only good thing was quarantine which is R16 and ming and I are still too young. so we ended up going to the netcafe and I ended up watching those 3 play dota, because I fail.

then we came home. yaaaay home. .....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

nothing else to talk about. I need to go and stitch pigs...
omfg kumon tomorrow lolll def. not gonna finish K this year.

Sungha Jung

this guy is amazing. prodigy (: ahhh koreans and their music. he started guitar when he was 9 and is 13 at the moment. I think this video was taken when he was about 10-11. The piece they're playing is a cover of Canon D on guitar arranged by Trace Bundy (the guy on the left) so as you can see he got to meet his role model (: awww an inspirational story for us all.

youtube page: http://www.youtube.com/user/jwcfree feel free to visit. support him cuz he will be HUGE in the future 8D

apart from this, I can also talk about school etc but you know what I cbs atm so I'll do it later. maybe after I go out today (:

SUMMAR. &teeth?

OMFG i just realised that 1 year ago today I was in wellington 8D ahhh geez I was smart back then. now im just useless.. and HAHA I just read it. man I just remembered that hot guy on the plane ;D

it's summmmerrr. the weather is really hot >> today I remembered to go to my dentist appointment. It took like 45 mins to do whatever they did (not sure what, but I can feel the dif). It was quite interesting. Didn't feel like 45 mins at all. The nurse assistant lady was telling a story about his son who I gathered was about y7 or 8. Apparently the other day when he was at his friend Liam's house and his mum picked him up he was like "Mummm can I go to Liam's house on Friday as well?" and mum said 'No. There's not point I get off work early on Fridays.' "Pleaaaaaaassssseeeeeeeeeeee?!?!"
'No! Why do you want to go so bad?'
"Liam has sky tv and I want to watch a programme."
'That's ridiculous you're not going just to watch tv'
"Okay then, can I go to Max's?"
'No! Can we stop talking about this?'
So the mum was curious about why he really wanted to go so bad (because her motherly intuition told her that tv programmes couldnt be THAT interesting). And she found that in fact the 3 boys had arranged to meet some girls down the road for a triple date. LOL so much effort to cover up a date. You would expect it from an asian kid. But the mother let him go in the end =P so cute.

Now see if that had been an asian family the mother would've killed the kid and moved him to a single sex school. Yet then later when he turns out gay the mother will cry and be angry even tho it was her who inflicted it on him. (generalisations, yes. but really, so many asian mothers are anti-gay it's ridiculous. yet they don't want their sons to have a social life either. so hypocritical..)

yeah. that was my retelling of a story for the day. anyway, during my procedure my mum txted me going 'are you home yet?' so I replied with 'No I'm at dentist right now.' Then I started to walk home. On my way back, my mum txted me going 'Ok dad will pick you up.' So I'm thinking, alright... better go back to the dentist then. And then when I do my mum txts me again going 'Start walking home he'll meet you on the way back.' @____@ geez. I walked in a complete circle. and it was sooo hotttt...

But that's okay. Being out of infatuation is good, you notice all the good things in other guys as well (: I saw a cute guy doing painting on one of the houses as I walked past and choked my spit. LOL. I'm a retard, sorry. He was white. Aren't you proud laina? =P but still later on I saw this other asian guy doing some work on rebecca's house (unless they moved) and he was ok-looking but he kept staring at me which was... iono o.o weird lol. I thot I had stuff on my face >< maybe I'll walk home that way again some time to see the cute painting guy ~~

bleh it's too hot to type any more, I'll post again either later or another day.

BRUISE. + random little mini rants about nothing in particular

The above is the result of me KICKING MYSELF in PE this morning. omfg how noob can you get? + there's a blister UNDER the foot ahahah school shoes are so uncomfortable.

yeah life's been boring. I'm so tired from badminton today. But it's good when you're tired, it distracts you. (: good way to pass time. 这样就不需要想到〈他〉的事了。was driving me up the wall yesterday. but now it's ok... im not going to think about it anymore. waste of my time.

everyone is having so much drama in their life... lately... ok probably not. but still, makes life a bit more interesting. maybe having something to think over will help the next 2 weeks pass by faster. everyone moves on... time won't stop flowing. sometime's its just a matter of it flowing too fast when you want things to last, and flowing too slowly when you want things to pass. (hey it rhymes haha)

yes, I'm trying to think of something to type. this way I can put off doing those ab exercises for another few mins (gahhhh my flab hurtsss)

haha I just read laina's recent blog entries. do you know, I have a sock tan and underneath it I have a sandal tan developing. Also, I have a shorts tan above my knees hahahaha I'm so pasty above the knees XD

oh and fyi steph im not being emo about there being 2 weeks of school left D: I just wish it would go already cuz it seems like im wasting time. Like, I feel like I could be at home achieving so much more >>; like those pigs... and those sketches... pshhh. （一说到画我又想到他了。 很烦。。。）

captain underpants and the preposterous plight of the purple potty people are pretty cool. /end 'rant'

oh yeah. finished watching 10 things I hate about you in Eng today. don't you find how the cutest couples always start off hating each other =D waaahh so perfect for each other. honestly whenever I watch a tv series/drama I always notice the male and female who have tension between them, and I think "they'd make a good couple." and you know what? it usually happens. pretty skilled. apart from the whole draco hermione thing. but w/e I refuse to accept jk's mary sue generic fanfic style ending.

laina and steph want me to rant about them.. ok =P wellllll, where to start. u two fill my life with randomness and in steph's case extreme sarcasm that I don't always get (or at least misinterpret, because I am deaf). I'm pretty sure you guys have changed who I am or at least how I think about things. You guys make the best cookies. I make the best mess in the kitchen by tipping cocoa over my socks. ...We make a great team. I can say that our meeting was all by pure coincidence. If laina didn't have a last name starting with Y we might not even have met. (science class was ordered alphabetically by last name) and even now I would have no idea what E=MC^2 means. ....actually I can't remember, something to do with speed of light. and steph, if she hadn't been at that ICT place at the same time as me, or hadn't been sitting next to me when they told us to introduce ourselves, we would never have met either. well we would've but I would have felt no obligation to talk to you since I hadn't met you before. It's amazing how much of our lives and relationships are run by pure coincidence. this is why the religion i feel most inclined towards is taoism. but there are still things I disagree about. I don't like the idea of limiting yourself to 1 religion. blinding yourself from other possibilities that may exist. hm. (OK GOT REALLY OFF TOPIC THERE SRRY GUYS). back onto the 'rant'... errr nothing else to say really. ilyguys (:

thats all. yay I balanced my blog out.
....time for ab exercises.

1 year anniversary

ok so it's been 1 whollleee year since I started using this blog. 366 days omfg. can't believe I actually stuck with it for this whole time.

ugh today was so tiring. no idea even if it was fun or not. just listened to girls bitch about their friends behind their backs all day. >> so depressing. for their confidentiality I won't name names or give details but... man, girls are vicious. so, so vicious |:

pool was ok. not many people joined in. pretty sad. but it was still better than sitting at home by myself all afternoon. it takes about 1 hour to walk from my house to newmarket. so tired right now my brain can't think of anything to write about.

I had a photo of a pasta dish my grandma made to show that she can asianify everything, but my memory card is PMSing again so I can't get it onto the computer.

holidays in 2 weeks wooooot. there's gonna be nothing to do. far out sometimes I just want to go across the road to one tree hill and lie there in the sun all day and sleep. maybe I will do that one of the days in the holidays. so far haven't planned much:
13-14 tramp, 16th pool with jamie tian and ming, 20 laina's party, 28-29 bay of islands maybe. really want to try to get to know people I know but don't... know these holidays. dunno if that's gonna happen, feels real weird asking someone to go on an outing when you don't talk haha.

anyway that's all for now, nothing big's happened, more maths exam omfgness tomorrow form time, need to revise...

time to enjoy life guys (: summer's coming in 6 hours~~~~

random stuff really

gawww that's someones lunch. isnt it cute (: so asian, even making food pretty. now where have we encountered this before...? -thinks about eunji's lunch-

there was no reason for the above picture, I just thot it was cute. I'm not going to be ranting about lunch boxes etc. =p but you have admit that it's cute. If I wasn't so noob with food handling I'd try to do this haha

I had a thought today as I was passing the car selling places on great south road. when it rains and the cars get all wet... who cleans them? o.o or are they left like that..? When do they clean it? in the mornings? If it's a day like this, and they clean it tomorrow morning... and yet they know it will rain tomorrow afternoon as well, do they bother cleaning it or skip a day until they know it will be nice weather? And also, when you take vehicles out for test drives... after 1 person test drives it, the car is still new. after 2 people test drive it, the car is still new. but after a lot of people test drive it, and the car gradually racks up kms travelled, and noone buys the car... can the car still be considered as a 'new car'? or will it have to be sold labelled as 'second hand'?

yes I really think about this kind of weird stuff in my spare time LOL. sometimes it's real random things like this, and they enter my brain as I'm just travelling thru somehwere and I just think more and more about it... other times it's more serious stuff as you've probably read in prev entries but blah I haven't thought about a lot of serious things lately. Ooo a police car just drove past our house with lights flashing but no siren (completely off topic) I don't have a lot of serious stuff happening in my life at the moment. I'm enjoying the simplicity... but still aware that I have heaps of stuff to do before the end of the year.

What is this, you ask? why isn't winnie being all hormonal about a certain person etc etc? =P isn't this new lol he's the first guy I've liked who I don't think about 24/7. it's pretty good. or maybe I just don't like him at all haha... yeah I'm weird. someone told me that he thinks I'm cute/pretty this week. it's the first time hahahaha. but it felt good to get a compliment like that in any case, even tho it's from someone I don't really know (I say this but we've been going to the same chinese class for 8 years, and this is one of the first things he tells me lollll...)

What about you guys? anything interesting happening in your life? I know bernie is having trouble with 'dude' and 2 other guys or something. >>; I wish she would just forgive him. he even apologised today. mannn hell hath no fury like a bernie scorned haha

yeah... nothing else to talk about after all this. maybe I'll think of something really super special and awesomesauce and end up updating again later. doubt it.

oh yeah my 1 year blogspot.com anniversary is coming up. (: my first entry on this account was nov 30 2007. I wonder how much I've changed since then. well I'm sure I'll update on sunday, since I'm going out to play pool with lucy & yunbin and co (I organised it but... I don't even know who's coming anymore lolll)

OH. one last thing. green tea frappuccino is the best (:

boredom

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zzzzzzzzzzzzz. time to kill. Made half of 3/god knows how many pigs. still need to find stuff to stuff them with. felt is so much easier to sew than this fabric stuff I bought ><

ah my life is a mess right now. why do guys have to be so retarded ): and why am I so affected by them. farrrr out. I find it so ironic how my parents are always like 'don't date until you finish uni because you'll get distracted', but they fail to see how even if I'm not dating I still get distracted by guys. It's inevitable ok I'm a teenage girl D:

exams ended up ok except for science. sigh. need to work a lot harder next year. (I say this but it never happens... have to reinforce it so it's natural so I don't have to try, it just happens...) yeah right lol.

other than that nothing really interesting is happening in my life atm. badminton's been fun. piano's been ok... kumon has been, well, normal. speaking of which, I need to get ready for that y11 exam. feel so guilty for not doing anything about it so far lol. I think I really will fail if I don't look over everything though.

sigh maybe i'm starting to lose myself in the midst of all this business tho. xmas is here soon. I have to make 10+ pigs, 2 full sketches for steph n laina, organise duke of ed tramp, study y11 maths....

ughhhhh. and yet all I do is sit around blogging. i'm so useless.

GIRLS ARE LIKE POKEMOIN

BEST COMPARISON EVER LOL I'm surprised how well everything fits XD

erghhh mediocre days

past few days have been mediocre.

exams are...
...exams.

nothing much to say. english exam = major failage ): just put down some random stuff that sounded like it might possibly be right, definitely not E standard my goal is ...down the drain T_T

sst and french tomorrow. don't ask me why I'm not studying. PARCE QUE. JE SUIS. /excuses

..blahhhh stresssss ><; I wish information would diffuse into my brain. but noooo God created the world to be difficult for winnie ): I realised tonight that I dislike meat in asian soup. I guess I already knew this but tasting it today really made it sink in. IT HAS NO TASTE. what good is meat without taste? and the texture is so dry next to the soup. ewwww meat in soup. >>;

yeah that's all the important stuff I had to say. nothing much... my brain is blocked up I'm not in the mood to do anythingggg..

guitar...

my guitar arrived today (got it off trademe). it's extremely cheap and low quality, the sound quality is crap and the material feels so light. but then again it was $67 so can't really expect much.

I miss my uncle's guitar |: it was beautiful. Something like 3000rmb, yamaha. I can't upload it cuz its on my phone's memory. (not on the memory card)

siiigh. this will give me motivation to quickly become better so then I can get a better guitar.

my blog is lonely because steph and bernie are both hardcore studying for exams ): when you come back comment on ALL THE ENTRIES YOU MISSED, OK? D:

time to study.......

a nice day.. PARTYYYY.

today was a reallyyyy nice day. I overcame my extreme fear of deep water (with flippers, but still) and was pretty much on a high for the rest of the day... I even decided to walk alll the way home even though I could've taken the bus, because the weather was so nice. I got wasted at badminton and pulled a muscle but no matter it was fun and I was high, so I actually enjoyed it. I'm so tired now but... it's a happy kind of tired. For no reason I'm happy. Maybe it's really the small things that matter. Happiness is strange but I'm not going to complain...

I wanted to organise a fireworks thing for everyone but I found out that it's illegal to set them off anywhere when it's not guy fawkes and guy fawkes is this wednesday and next week is exams so we don't have time. ):

but Laina decided to throw a party for her birthday with alcohol. =P sleepover time... I don't even know why I'm so happy about this. usually I'd be against this type of thing but I really can't remember what it tastes like even though I know it tasted bad the last time I tasted it lolol I can't help but be curious about what it tastes like really (what kind of bad is it...) dw everyone there will be soft drinks =P i hope anyway. time to get hammered and then have hangover the next day. good thing it's a sleepover otherwise I think my parents will really kill me. right now the date is 19-20 december. we'll talk about it more as it comes I guess. AND. just to make me happy, she said that we'll have sparklers (: yaay kiddy fireworks~

uuuuuuuuuggghhhh. exams. why am I procrastinating study again. must be because it was such a good day that I didn't want to ruin it by studying.

...maybe tomorrow.

(winnae's willpower is so weak)

nostalgia

It's fun when you go back to your old days eh. (: I hope that one day I can be like these guys and have heaps of random stuff to whip out and read and laugh about. (dw steph no swearing in this vid) wongfu productions are the best |: subscribe to them. nao.

ok i had a weird dream last night again (it's becoming so common one could regard it as normal now?).

went to one tree hill to study this afternoon after art cuz house has too many distractions. I memorised my french speech which is presented on wednesday, but I cbs doing vocab and I got distracted by the playground. wow I'm such a kid. got a few weird looks when I started balancing on the rails (getting better ><)... xmas pig list getting bigger, will start after exams. thinking about getting a sewing machine for xmas this year (thinking about starting fashion design |: just see if it suits me.) im going to be y11 next year, so i figured that I should try everything so that I can make the best choices for me and my future >< style="font-style: italic;">"Graduation dinner was really good. I got a silly award for that back-scatterball throwing thingie. ---- from my lcass also got one for bumping into Mrs ----- while walking in a line. y'kno, at the end I nearly cried ... nearly ... I caught myself just in time. I saw ----'s parents, his mum, who I've never seen before (wtf did I write this it makes no sense), ---- told me his parents were divorced so I've only seen his dad before. And now he's asking if he can have my runescape account ... I'll prolly give it to him, I'm going to be in intermediate next year, don't really have enough time for this kind of thing anymore."

(names are censored in case you can't notice haha. and LOL runescape, good times.)

entry 2 - 9th dec 2004
"Hi! today we packed everything to home, and --- gave me this cool pen! (I was writing with it at the time) My swedish penpal got her letter and sent it back to me. Anyways, as we were packing, ---- gave me his stamp thing, (it was this art project we did, we used pastels and designed a stamp A3 size) that kiwi in a suit, now it's hanging in room. it's nearly as cute as he is! (OMFG DYING OF EMBARRASSMENT HERE). LOL. Tomorrow's the big assembly. I have a feeling I'm gonna get something... (psh wow winnie, real modest)

Yes, I was a tard. I'm sorry friends. I have let you down )):

entry 3 - 19th dec 2004

"This has no doubt been the worst summer this century. It has been hailing, raining, there was even a thunder and lightning storm last night. anyway, I have found a few peeps for my aisha to RP with, and they are really cool. Just wondering for the war -- should I kill my money on codestones for training or just give up the whole thing. ANDD, do you like this flashy new ink that I'm writing with, and do you approve my new handwriting? It's neater... easier to fit things in."

This entry will make no sense to anyone who didn't play neopets. And my handwriting was ugly ):

entry 4 - 19th jan 2005

"I made a quiz on quizurfriends, and ----'s like "I can't believe ---- knows most about you" (the ---- mentioned in this quote is the same guy who gave me his stamp) noone except ---- got my best friend question right... whomever is orthy enough to be called my friend is worthy enough to be called my best friend~"

I was a loser. a loserloserloserloserloserloserlsoer gah shoot me now.

SKIPPING FORWARD A FEW MONTHS/YEARS.... -flip flip flip-

HAHAH OMFG I HAVE TO SHOW THIS. MY DREAMS WERE RANDOM WHEN I WAS A KID TOO!

entry 6 - 13th july 2006
"*yawn* just woke up.. had another weird dream with ---- in it dreamt that we were back in MRPS or something, but it was y8s as well lol. And this y3 girl argued with me, saying that a pizza's crust was made from bacteria... and I was high. Then it switched from that to me going on camp and I forgot my togs and my dad gave me $50. Started out on the bus and then we ended up walking with kings boys who were wearing st kents uniforms. and then we got lost in the forest, --- commited suicide cuz she was angry and then I woke up."

PAHAHAHA. don't even ask.

-headdesk- I just found out that karl is looking up runescape fanfics on ff.net. omfg we really haven't gotten any more mature have we.

I think that's enough for now.. errrr don't want to expose me TOO much |: maybe next time.

I know, I'll let you guys request lolol pick a random number in ur comment and ill put that entry in each blog haha.

general update

general update...

I spilt my milk on the carpet today cuz my brother jumped out at me from behind the door while I was carrying it. so annoying. especially since he doesn't even say sorry all he says is 'it's your fault!!!' of course it's never his fault. he always finds some way or another to blame someone else for things he did. even when he doesn't do his homework, he blames it on me saying that i didn't stop him from watching tv. wtf? geez. one day he'll understand and i won't have to deal with this.

armageddon was quite fun, although i didn't say for very long. spent less than last year, bought 4 more markers, a haruhi figure (less than half price $15 - $6 i only bought it cuz it was cheap lolol), 3 mangas (slam dunk vol1, eureka seven vol1 and the complete samurai champloo) and a $10 bleach wallscroll for dirt cheap imported from asia (crap quality, you can see fingerprints probably from some poor sweatshop worker on it but oh well it's a nice wallscroll) and a $10 death note poster for lex.

yesterday mufti day was interesting as well... camera hoar jimin rofl
can you see it? the M O L L Y <3 lol. and of course it's steph behind the camera.

hm exams soon. should really get to work sometime soon.... need to do french speech by tomorrow and theory uggghhhhhhh. why couldn't i have been educated in china and come to nz when im like 16 and be all smart and engrish like.

not in the mood for a big philosophical talk atm.
WE ARE IN THE MATRIX

ok that's all cya. dunno if i'll update before exams again.

normality

nor⋅mal /ˈnɔrməl/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [nawr-muhl]

–adjective

1.	conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.

The world male:female population ratio is 3,360,742,758 males to 3,310,483,706 females, approximately 50 million more males than females.

In this case, the more 'common type' would be male. Therefore, using definition of 'normal', being male is normal and being female is... abnormal?

This just begins to show how retarded the concept of normality is.

If a guy says 'Step out of the norm, be your own person, be unique,' using what I have just worked out above, could be translated to 'Be a girl.'

I'm not just twisting definitions here, if you think about it it actually makes a lot of sense. Normality is a stupid concept, people who look down on people because they're not 'normal' have no argument at all.

If a guy tells you that you're not normal, you can say 'that's right, I'm a girl. =P'
If a girl tells you that you're not normal, you can say 'Just like you, right?'

heh. I thought of this randomly today, but you have to admit that it raises discussion on 'normality'. If normality gives us the right to prevent gay marriage, it also gives us the right to put down females and humans (humans are a minority in terms of animals on earth, eg. ants would be superior in terms of normality).

The funny thing is, in the past when the whole world was sexist towards females, I'm sure that the female:male ratio was something like 52:48. backwards reasoning much?

So to anyone who opposes 'abnormal' people, gay marriage, certain races, animals, certain gender, your logic is completely flawed. Why can't anyone else see this ==;

discuss.

XMAS PIGS

XMAS PIGS

Larger picture of above can be found HERE

For christmas, I'm making my friends xmas pigs. That's why, you need to choose a patter from the above so I can make a pig that you like =D

If you don't, I'll take a random one and make one for you lolol. (only applies for friends who I see regularly or very very close friends who I was going to give pigs anyway. this means that if we're not close and you want a pig this xmas you have to actually come and ask for one specifically >>)

Choose a pattern from the above and either COMMENT ON THIS BLOG ENTRY, MSN, EMAIL, dA or BEBO me.

unclear colours cuz of crap camera so...
A: light purple, lilac
B: yellow
C: brown and white
D: brown and yellow
E: grey black and red
F: green red and black/white
G: brown and pink/red
H: brown and darker brown
I: marroon and white
J: marroon and white
K: green and white
L: red and blue
M: red and green, white, brown.

If you want to see any of these patterns up close ask me and I'll take photos for you

each pig will look like a crap version of this :and will have your name stitched into its ass.

may or may not come with a ribbon tied around the waist, depending on if I go and get some.

The earlier you order the better cuz then I can start making them haha...

as of now G is unavailable unless u want a munted pig because I'm not sure if the fabric is thick enough kk thx, sorry for inconveniences. and IM SORRY IF YOU DON'T LIKE ANY OF THE PATTERNS LOL these were the cheap ones |:

names stitched on asses must be 8 letters or under, if your name is longer than this be prepared to give me a nickname or something

FIRST COME FIRST SERVE. if too many people order the same material the people who ordered first will have priority. please state 2nd or 3rd choice when ordering if you can

Orders: (~ = being made, hasn't been stuffed or otherwise. small text = FINISHED)
Jee: A
YJ: red&white felt
Laina: red felt
Steph: B
Kim: B
Sharon: C or B
Bernie: in order G,B
Roger: G
Karl: white felt
Lucee: black felt
Tonto (aka William): black felt

EunJi: A
Neeshah: orange felt
Shuhua: orange felt

:D PART... 3?!?!?!!?

oh yeah look at this cute pen rui got me from japan. i know you're jealous. especially steph. (see, theres my inner ass). although, the pencil part of it doesnt work lol sad ):

ok, what to blog about.. currently everyone is bored. I know this because currently there are 51 people online on msn. and i know I said that I wouldn't say I was bored anymore but...

GAHHHH IM BORED.

this is probably obvious cuz I've updated THREE times today. I'm not crazy lololol. I should really edit instead, but Iono, they are 3 dif sections after all. maybe today was such a good day that right now just pales in comparison.

ok you know what, I admit it, I just updated to show my pen. LOL. Honestly, I'll edit this later if I get even more bored. but right now I really have nothing else to talk about hahahaha k bye.

:D part 2

The sky was beautiful today.

Went to bernie's house this afternoon and did nothing, saw steph come online and ignored her while playing speed lololol.

later on we went sylvia park and met yj, and she forced us to eat ice cream. I wanted a single scoop vanilla ice cream but apparently it was too 'boring' so she forced me to get a strawberry cream soda which I died over because it was huge and I couldn't finish it and gave the remainder to her to drink. I bet she gave me a size large on purpose so that she could have some. LOL jk.

basically ran around the whole time cuz she was being spastic and trying to hide from terence and tess. then, we walked allllll the way to paknsave and bought moro gold. and walked allllllll the way back to the warehouse. on opposite sides of the mall hahahaha.

the guy who works at crystal mountain ice cream is cute. |: -shot- didn't either of you notice that. his smile is so cute~

ok um... so we went warehouse and yj was trying to find felt (the material, not the pen) and we couldn't find any except for a make a monkey thingie diy craft kit and yj was like omfg someone buy this for steph. except none of us had money hahahah. btw I remember a few years ago bernie was always like omfg stpeh ur so hard to buy a present for!!! except today when we went we were always seeing these random things and being like OMFG PERFECT FOR STEPH!! I think that sometimes when you're looking too hard you blind yourself to what's already there...

remind me to stitch a pig for karl for xmas. in fact, remind me to go and get materials >>;

we started reading those horoscope books in the warehouse and apparently I was supposed to take matters into my own hand, but in certain cases would be better to go with the flow and let others influence my decision. just like how yj forced that cream soda on me ): then after we finished reading that we just read world records. we misread 'longest living dog' as LONGEST LIVING dog instead of LONGEST living dog. we were like wtf it doesn't say how old he is. why are there so many measurements?

hm then bernies mum called and we went back to her house, she hacked my bebo and msn, the end. and I came home and had dinner.

yeah that's all. nothing exciting happened today, really. but it was also one of the best days I've had in a long time. maybe the simple things in life really are the best.

art was good though. yj will know what I mean ;D

:D

I'm so happy.

hm.. late night blog.

hahaha I love being a dork. (: ty laina and yujie~

anyway im not sure what I'm doing updating right now since its like 11.42pm and i updated yesterday already... hm.

just seems like im my worse enemy or something. like the hardest things i have to overcome is because of something i did in the first place... eh.

btw shut up laina&steph i finally got out of my denial about me liking that guy from art ok it's true I admit it now I like him and theres nothing I can do about it. T_T once again, setting myself up for failure. I'm not going to try pull anything on him. But after seeing how he can express himself on paper... I don't know. I'm really touched by the way he writes. This is so corny. Before, I told myself that I would go for him with everything that I've got, but now that I can see who he really is, I'm beginning to go back to how I was before, scared of rejection. I thought that it didn't matter, I was only interested in him, so even if he rejected me I wouldn't be losing that much. but I can see now that every person is more than just a flat screen. I think that now I'll try and be friends first. >>; I HATE HORMONES. WHY DO MINE ALWAYS MAKE ME GO FOR THE MOST UNATTAINABLE GUYS EVER.

I got told I was annoying the other day. not doing too well with my self-esteem here you know.

I figured out what I meant when I said that I have low self-confidence on solo at kahu. I realised that I always try to be the nice girl who everyone likes, and basically I always have to fit the expectations of everyone and be how they expect me to be. I feel dejected and sad, embarrassed even, when I fail to do this or I make someone unhappy. I'm always so cautious about people and how they feel, esp. religion wise, I always feel kind of upset when I slip out something that may be offensive to them. Without their approval of me filling their expectation, I have low self confidence. I feel like I'm nothing if noone likes me. what am I going to do about it? I have no idea. maybe in a month I'll know. Maybe a year, maybe it will take my whole life... but I know that I'll have to change. Even though making everyone happy makes me happy too, sometimes I end up doing things that I don't want to, just to make someone else happy. It's one huge paradox of confusions but maybe one day I'll figure it out.

And I realise that I've been acting like an ass towards certain people at certain times including steph so I'm sorry steph ok. I realised this a long time ago haha and i've been trying to stop but I still notice my inner ass coming out sometimes (OK, THAT SOUNDED REALLY REALLY WRONG AND GROSS LOL BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) so i'm realllyyyy sorry >_<

ok i think that will be all for tonight. I do need my sleep you know, unlike eunji haha ^^; good night bloggers

things i learnt in china

things I learnt in china and things I started thinking about:

1) omfg my relatives are so damn rich. my uncle owns 3 apartments, one of which is a penthouse. in addition to this he drives a $500 000 and his daughter aka my cousin monica is one of the top dancers of her age in the country D: shes 10 btw. my other uncle just bought an apartment (cuz he's younger) and he stays up til 1am every night playing world of warcraft (im not kidding, the guy's like 40 and he still plays WoW like a kid. He even showed me lolll.) they're both so immature haha.

2) taxis in china are all volkswagon. every single one of them, except for 1 i saw in shenzhen but im sure that was an imposter anyway.

3) being an east-west immigrant. perceptions of things are distorted. chicken feet are delicacy in china, gross in nz. why is this? I notice that everyone was spazzing over how much I tanned in china because in the east, the paler you are, the more beautiful. Probably because it means you don't do a hard labour job in the sun all day. However, in the west it's the opposite. The tanner the better, cuz it means you have time to go on holiday. could apply in east as well? no chance, they get like no holiday time a year so... eh. this cultural difference is really annoying for me. I actually quite like being pale but living in nz somehow makes this socially unacceptable, or not unfashionable, or something. well screw your fashions ok I'll go in the sun and tan whenever i want to. which is probably... never!

4) why asian guys are so useless at asking girls out. I did some research and it is blatantly obvious to me that caucasian guys have more testosterone than asian ones. I thought that, maybe in nz, where there are more caucasian guys, the asians are more low in terms of masculinity and therefore act more like girls, which is uncertain about love and relationships and always waiting for the other person to make the first move. I also thought about if this is why there are so many metro guys and why the asian guy's fashion sense is better than a white guy's, having the whole 'asian fashion' thing going on recently.

5) couples that look alike. studies have shown that you are attracted to people like your parents. eg, if you're a girl you're attracted to people who are like your dad and if you're a guy you're attracted to people like your mum. since they're your parents you have the same genes, and if you're attracted to people like your parents, they may end up looking like your parents and therefore like you as well. that is how i explan couples that look alike. (:

6) the one child policy in china is completely defunct if you have octuplets.

7) school in china is actually really cool. I dunno why but I can't help but wonder what I would've turned out like if i was in china since I was born. know the workload is huge, but I think that since you do it regularly you will eventually become used to it...

8) the reason why people think the years go by faster when they're older may be because their brain is aging, but I don't see how this is so because when you're 15 your brain is still developing yet you feel like the years are flying by compared to when you were 5. I have a theory that it's because a year takes up a smaller part of your life each year. think about it, when you were 5, a year is 1/5, 20% of your life. However, by the time you're 15, a year is only 1/15, 6.7% of your life. Because it is smaller, it seems like it is a shorter time and it passes by much faster. A year is nothing to a 60 year old, as they have lived through 60 of them already, but it is the world to a 2 year old. Maybe this has some educational basis, probably not, but I just found it interesting...

ok i think there was more but thats all i can think of at this late hour.

Being there made me think a lot actually. I decided that I was gonna give everything a good go and try to enjoy life as much as I can. Even when I feel bored or life is boring, or something isn't going right, I'm going to try and do something about it. Instead of saying 'I'm bored' I realised that it would be much more productive and logical to actually do something that isn't boring (wow, I can't believe it took me 15 years to come to this conclusion).

Also, I can't help but wonder what's happened to everyone I've ever met. What they're doing now, what kind of life they lead. Even people you see for just an instant, or people you talk to once. From now on I'll always think of what other people are feeling, or think about where they might be, what they might be doing and what they might be thinking. Because, even if it's the cute guy on the subway who made eye contact with me for 2 seconds or the waiter at the restaurant who complimented my art and I'll never see again, or even that creepy shopkeeper (PEDO) at the mall who kept trying to flirt with me, they've all made an impression on my life, no matter how tiny. Even the people I walk past on the street and never take notice of, if they hadn't been there, my life would have been different at that very moment. There will always be people who, you realise, would never have been in your life if not for one moment, one coincidence. It's a scary thought. What would my life have turned out like if ___ had not happened, etc. I think that i'm starting to appreciate others and how they have shaped me now. Without them, I'm nothing. Without you, I'm nothing.

china china china

hm well I'm in china now (obviously). rather than bore you with recollections of the past 2 weeks I'll just write whats on my mind.

I had a surprisingly good day today. I was expecting to be bored all day cuz we were going to visit my great aunt and my parents' university where I was born and grew up for 3 years. But, it turned out to be a worthwhile visit cuz it's quite interesting to see and hear all the weird stuff you did when you were little. I took a few photos in the exact same places where I took photos 12 years ago, and I saw the place where I learnt to walk haha. Man I was such a cute kid, wtf happened in these 12 years @_@

Afterwards, we went to my mum's friend's place and basically I got lectured on how her daughter (who's like 2 years older than me) just sat her SATs and is studying upstairs, so hardworking etcetc and talented cuz she's got grade 8 piano already (PRO.) so I decided that I'll have to try my hardest as well. (: she seems to have everything organised and knows exactly what she wants to do and where she wants to go for uni (even had arguments with her mum about which state has the best universities in america).

We had dinner in a restaurant across the road. I was mindlessly drawing since my brother used all the battery in my ds. One of the waiters saw me and was all like 'hey your art is pretty good...' I was actually really touched cuz he told me how he used to be really into art as well but he was always too messy so he used pencil and eraser instead of straight on pen (which is what I was doing, because I like the feel of pen rofl). My mum showed him a picture of yujie's cat which she took with her phone camera and he was impressed, started going on about my future hahaha and how I should eat at the restaurant again so that they can be famous and say 'we served this famous person here' when I'm famous. Thinking about that future made me think about what I really want to do with my life. I started wondering why he became a waiter if he liked drawing so much...

anyway, I still haven't thought it through completely yet, but hopefully I can continue to use my ugly, hairy and stubby-pinkied hands to create more and more beautiful things (:

wood or lino is better than carpet

Wood or lino > carpet.

this is because of several reasons:

1) wood or lino does not require a vacuum cleaner to clean. not only does this mean less electricity use and is thus better for the environment but it also means that you don't have to invest in an expensive vacuum cleaner and use your money elsewhere.
2) wood or lino gives you a bruise if you skid along it whereas carpet gives you a flesh wound which will hurt in the shower
3) wood or lino does not stain from food etc
4) wood or lino looks more modern
5) wood or lino does not have risk of ticks or fleas
6) wood or lino doesn't catch dust etc and trigger allergic reactions
7) if you want carpet because it's more comfortable to walk on or something you can purchase a rug. there is no such thing as a lino or wooden rug. if you have wood or lino floors you also have the option of purchasing a carpet rug but not the other way around!
8) wood or lino is easy to mop and clean. you need to purchase a carpet cleaner or hire a professional to wash your carpet.
9) wood or lino will not get dust tan lines over the years (you'll know what I mean if you have a carpet floor and have had a sofa sitting on it for a long time. when you move the sofa you see a 'dust tan line' where the carpet that was covered by the sofa is lighter than the carpet that wasn't.
10) wood or lino does not dent when you put something heavy on it and leave an unattractive mark for the next person using your room
11) wood or lino is less expensive to install

For these above reasons I don't see why anyone would want to have carpet floors in their house. In addition to being more practical and cheap, it is also better for the environment and our health. Of course there will be controversy over which is more aesthetically pleasing but the fact remains that in the other areas wood or lino flooring is a much better choice for your home as opposed to carpet.

And no, I'm not just saying this because I had to vacuum the whole house this morning, whatever gave you that idea?

On a side note, I have a flight tonight at 11pm to shanghai so I won't be around for a while. enjoy your lives without me haha~

kahuwut.

Standing on Old Girls' porch
We thought that it would last forever
And if we had a choice
Yeah, you know we'd all wanna stay here
This was the best month of my life

50 mosquito bites
7 sisters
5 lost socks
1 pair of lost long johns
2 guitars
1 river
2 tramps
1 freezing night in the bush
1 sea kayak
23 girls
8 instructors
28 days

There's my recount of my camp. It was life-changing and unforgettable. I don't think I can recount about it will do it justice, so I won't even try.

I don't think I've cried so much in my life. I don't know what it was, after hugging Mr W and him telling me 'Good luck with your future'... I had this sudden revelation that in my future, for the rest of my life, I would never again see any of these people who had changed it. They'd never see the results of their work and inspiration for me. I just broke down. As I walked back to the house to get my last few belongings I wasn't sure if I was crying or laughing. I was choking, kept getting air stuck in my windpipe. I hugged Gina and left. Because I was crying and I couldn't see straight I went to the right down the driveway and into the car instead of going straight and receiving my steph hug so I'm sorry steph. Seems like I'll never get one. Just bad coincidences. it's not meant to be ): I'll never get a steph hug.

I also forgot to pick up my confiscated goods worth $11 in cash. Thankfully kim got it for me. I'm glad someone remembered me.

I know everyone will forget me. That's ok. I think from now on I'm just going to try my best for myself.

Thank you and goodnight. Maybe I will do a recount later, maybe not. I don't feel like it right now.

social social social

we didn't even take any pics this year steph =P

anyway it was awesome X3 way more people than last year (not that steph would know the difference) and the insane staff put the heaters in the hall on. We were cooking alive I tell you, it was terrible. And they ran out of water lololol i bet that was their plan all along to make people pay for it...

aside from that it was way better than last years. there was like 1 slow song and the rest were just for jumping hahah. i overheard someone say 'this social is like for jumping not for dancing' true true. good for me who can't dance but knows how to jump (:

omfg i saw tony from china camp but i didnt recognise him cuz hes so tall now >< what happened to midget tony?! i feel bad cuz he remembers me but i didnt recognise him D: lots of dancing between james' friends and yuj ji and eunji (:

so anyway, if u missed it ur an ass and im going to ignore you from now on |: (maybe not but u get the picture. i am actually very upset. but we made it fun without you guys ok D< but im still mad at you. expect me to be emo when u bring it up)

last social til ball~ y10 is like last year of anything... no qualifications, mathex, socials... im feeling old now. realistically theres only 1 term left til we're all y11....

cant wait for china. last official post for a month when im at camp~ write to me ^^
cyu~

mathex + stuff

today was mathex~~ like the last mathex ever D: I'm so sad right now lol i'll probably never go asb stadium again.

...moment of silence...

lol im gonna miss it ): its so fun. i think tonight was like the funnest time i've had for a long time... I still feel like a pedo tho siiiigh. Why do y9 guys have to be so cute. it's like when they grow up they get uglier or something D: unless they turn out hot. buut asD:FJASKD:LFJASDd STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT

I saw some ok-looking ones tho ^^~

Karl's just sad to me lol i waved to him while we were down in the comp thing after it ended but he didn't see me. but thats ok cuz I saw lots of other people as well~ like catherine and nina and ella =P and I met lingling who doesn't even remember me even though I went to her primary school... sigh I'm just too stealthy haha xP

And then, when I came home, I had to finish my english essay. geez teachers have no mercy... even tho so much stuff was this week and we're going camp on sunday. aaaaaaaaaaa.

well apart from me being emo over never going to mathex and pedo-ing over y9s again, we went to rainbows end yesterday~~~ it was my first time (yeah everyone was like wtf) so I ran around with shuhua everywhere going on all the rides.

I was so scared that the safety thing was gonna come off in the power surge. geez I don't think my head has been that sdlkfajq29awpeisdgjsfd in a long time.

roller coaster was awesome. went on it twice~ sucks for everyone who missed it though (they have spastic timetables I swear).

I'm so tired. but I figured that I might as well update now otherwise I'll forget to later and then it'll look like I died again or something since I'm going camp on sunday.

IF U SEE THIS WRITE TO ME. I doubt it lol steph and bernie are the only ones who read this.

kk thats all. im gonna miss mathex. ):
night bloggers~

dammit must remember to transfer steelies to yujie's account on ms

my tabletennis adventure + olympics~

ok so tonight I actually didn't have a badminton game but I went anyway cuz I was GONNA get silk road from erike (except she forgot it... again D:) and since I didn't have to play I planned to go to the tabletennis hall to see karl and clark who i haven't seen in agesss (: & so I went~

the first thing I noticed was how everything was so BRIGHT. there are like 3 times the amount of lights in the tabletennis hall compared in the badminton hall. and it was bigger than I thought it would be~ it's definitely bigger than it looks on the outside. Then I noticed the actual tabletennis tables. they're sectioned off with huge space around the tables (you need to go to actually get what I mean). so like I sat down and started to watch what i later found out were the 'pros'.

geez I never knew tabletennis could be played like that. even the serves look complicated and pro~~ whenever I thought of tabletennis before I always got this vision of old people hitting it with a rhythm like tock, tock, tock... it's not the case. the player runs far back and all around the table to receive the ball, it's fast and furious =P and some of the players have this habit of lunging to get the ball so every 2 secs you hear this huge STOMP as they put all their weight on one foot. at first I had so much trouble keeping up >< it's so addicting to watch...

so then I ran into karl and clark and yeah I tried to be educated a little into tabletennis which helped me understand what was going on a bit better. (I'm so noob.) karl's still not taller than me (:

and then I followed them to the place where the uhh.. non-pros play? rofl not that I could tell the difference but the 'pros' definitely had more elegance in their play. (it's like badminton, you can tell who's good cuz of the stances etc.)

I got scolded twice for not picking up the ball when it bounced towards me (NOT MY FAULT ok i tried to stop it but it ended up rolling further cuz I only changed the direction) by the same guy ==; I'm sure that like 1/2 the energy of players is used to chase after the ball. It's so tiny and light and goddamn bouncy it's hard to control it (but I saw most people handle them with such professionalism. like it's on the floor and they smack it with their bat and it bounces up and they get it with their bat again and then catch it). there was this one guy who was running around cuz he lost a ball. haha I laughed.

so yeah that was my tabletennis experience. well, it was fun for me to see karl and clark again but I think I also gained a new respect for a sport I didn't know anything about before ^^ but I still don't know much about it so I'll learn more gradually I guess.

on a side note, happy 8/8/08 and olympics opening~ I'm gonna get my dad to record the badminton if I'm at camp. neeshah is obsessed with roger federer. wonder who'll win the olympics this time. probably like usa or china I guess. |: only cuz china is gonna try hardcore to get all the gold since it's in our country and all. but the usa athletes are like pro as so... not sure ^^ what do you all think? anyway that's all for now I guess I can't be bothered writing more. pretty tired after today...

when I was young and stupid (er)

Eunji's present is just too pretty ): too bad it's food so I have to eat it.

Well yesterday was my birthday, and I'm officially 15 now. So I can legally start driving and kill myself lolol. >: ok maybe not.

It's like 11pm but I really felt like updating closer to my bday haha >< today I'm gonna share some stories of when i was young and stupid (don't you guys love these stories)

ok... well once, I was in like y1 and we were making mothers day cards or something. And I got this orange piece of paper, and my friend had this blue piece. being the snobby 5 year old ass I was, I snidely said (probably in an uppity voice) "Haha shame look I got a girl's colour and you got a boy's colour~~" and then my friend did the whole grass thing and went up to the teacher and was like "ms ____, are there such things as girl colours and boy colours?" and the teacher was like "no there aren't, all colours are just colours." and then my friend stuck out her tongue at me ): thats why I don't have a favourite colour anymore lolol. I don't want to be biased and turn back into my stupid 5 year old self.

in y2, me and this boy were like pushing lego bricks under one of the folding walls in the classroom and giggling really loudly and then the teacher was like "winnieeeeee............" in her whole disapproving stare tone thing. and back then I was like so shy D: so I was so embarrassed and felt bad about it for like 2 weeks after that occurred.... also in y2, we had a reliever and we were doing something with paper, and I couldn't like cut it or something, so I went to the teacher and asked her to do it for me... and I didn't say 'please' or something, so she gave me this whole big lecture and I burst into tears ): I hate that reliever. she was the bitch that called me a little boy.

in y3, I remember in chinese school I had to write my birthdate and I couldn't remember what year I was born, but I knew it had like 1 9 and 3. so I took a wild guess and wrote down 30 July 1339.

in y4, I was made to dance with this creepy korean boy in my class (because I was too tall lol...) and the teacher was like "ok now hold hands" and we were both liek "rafjdslkjawefsklsflaskadsf. nooooo." and the teacher was like "are you going to do this or not? if you don't want to I can get you to clean the classroom or something..." DDD: I WAS MORTIFIED OK I was such a goodie goodie omfg lol I was scared of her for like the whole term.

in y5 I wrote many retarded stories about neopets. Don't make me retype them please lolol...

IN Y6. I WAS A PERFECT RESPONSIBLE SMART AND AWESOME MEMBER OF THE CLASSROOM AND I DID NOTHING STUPID. IT WAS THE BEST YEAR EVER. |:

see, at least not all my years in primary were idiotic. lol well anyway this has been a recap of the first few years of my 15 years I can remember, of the stupid things I did. So dw I'm not a super brain or anything, I'm probably more stupid than most people lol XD

looking forward to the future~

pic of a sketch I'm working on right now lol fasdklfjaskl I THOUGHT it looked ok but she just looks angus lol T_T this one killed my 4b... actually. it's dead now. it's this short |-------------| <- life size but I can't finish it this week cuz we have CHAPEL. ga --- I MEAN. STRAIGHT. DDD:

well nothing's happened out of the ordinary. I dunno why I'm even updating I just felt like it I guess.

OMFG don't you get freaked out when people stare at you. I get self conscious lol D: I was at baddy today and this guy at our club kept staring at me. i was like aSDFJ:KAWRSJDF:KSAFJK:Ds STOP STARING YOU HO IS IT CUZ I HAVE A PIMPLE ON MY FACE TODAY?!?!!? D< It wasn't so bad at first cuz I thought he was gonna actually say something to me (USUALLY when you stare at someone you're gonna talk to them right?) but he DIDN'T. he just kept staring DDDD<

So, if anyone reading this is someone who stares at people for no reason continuously, I hate you. You and your eyes. ): and if you're someone who does that as well as play electric guitar, I doubly hate you so GTFO my page.

lol no im jk I love you all (: keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer....

ugh life is so boring right now. I feel like all I'm doing is waiting for laina yj and ji to get back and spend an awesome week together before going to camp. you know what's in that changeover week? mathex, physics trip and social (: why am I looking forward to mathex more than the social oh god there must be something wrong with me.

I can't wait to get back to china as well X3 screw camp, it's just a stop I have to go through before the ULTIMATE PRIZE... CHINURRR =D yaaaay cheap stuff~~~~~ man I can't wait. most ppl are like 'omfg kahunui in 27 days ahurrrrr i can't waiiit' and i'm like 'omfg china in 27 days + a month ahurrrrrrr i can't waiiiit X3'

lol this page is gonna show up on google radar now that i typed the name of our camp ):

hi random googlers (:

kk i have nothing else to rant about lol cyu bloggers... for now.

DOUJIN OVERLOAD.

posters... bottom left:renji (triggermann)

bottom right: ichigo vs ryuk (jerry)

top right: 'big enough for both of us' (emila) so cutee~~

bookmarks and business cards lool. by tammy, jerry, sherry, steven from nexus vii did the soul eater bookmark and canidae did the awesome penguin on bear bookmark which I now love =D and a print of one of kaze-hime's arts but that's old lol :|

Artbooks... clockwise from top left: in a few words by hiyaku studio, engage by hiyaku studio, anthology by amanda and kaylee, biohazard by claire and Jpac by jerry (aka jpac rofl)

I also got 2 pins of neku (From amanda) and ichigo (from kaylee) but I forgot to take a photo so yeah :) anyway it was super fun ^^ even though I was a customer and I was only there for about 2 hours with rui. I might be selling next year so everyone should come ^^ and since I'm so nice, I'm going to provide everyone with bags to store their goods and provide rubber bands for bigger posters. Do you know why? because today, I had to run around asking all the exhibitors for a plastic bag until I finally got one for free from the nice guy at the manga stand. and then I found that rui's poster was getting crushed cuz it wasn't rolled up, so we walked all the way to westfield and then they said they don't sell rubber bandssssss. So I had to spend 2 bucks on a pack of hairties which I can never use since my hair is short. sigh... it was a good experience to run around anyway ^^ made everything more fun for me lol is that normal?



I felt so sorry for some of the artists who weren't being crowded around though. this was this one poor guy who I looked through the folder of and he was like 'thank you~' with this begging look in his eyes as if to say 'support me~ buy something~ i'm poor~ feel sorry for me~' ):



I spent over 50 dollars today. T_T my poor wallet. I even paid for lunch so that didn't really help... sigh. another incentive to go sell next year so I can use my profits to buy other's arts. or print-swap :D lool as if my art is even worth any money.



so anyway~ ty to all the exhibitors who were nice to me and stuff you to all the exhibitors who were mean to me (no i'm jk all the exhibitors were nice XD) especially to that nice guy that was managing j-pac's stand who gave me a discount because someone ran off with my reserved print? ahahaha he was gonna give me extra change (I paid $10 and he was gonna give me $14 change) but since I'm nice and I don't take advantage of people like that I pointed it out :) aren't I nice guys? that's right don't think I'm mean to people all the time (with the exception of steph of course lolol)



kk that's all to report really haha ^^; til next time, cyu bloggers~

sleepover update zzz

yup so yujie's sleepover was last night and we still got 7 hours of sleep (well, I did.) so not too bad eh. we ended up talking about stupid stuff cuz we never have anything to talk about orz.

ty for the duck (vanilla latte) and the necklace ^^

titanic is a good movie. my heart will go on is a good song. especially when played like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxpvDjDOgsQ
D: i hate this person like i hate electric guitar players. I'm listening to it right now and it's making me so depressed and thoughtful because of the godly way in which it's played.. like it's pulling my feelings out of my heart D: ew don't touch my heart plzzzz.

GUH TOO LATE I FEEL ALL HORMONAL NOW.

even if I feel hormonal I can't find a way to express the way I feel... i'm so inadequate. sigh I don't even have anything to be hormonal over, apart from the fact that I'm a teenager. I would be venting out my hormonal feelings on the guy I like normally, but hey guess what I don't like anyone :D woop de doo dah. It feels really strange. And I feel susceptible to start liking some random any minute. Actually it's not that I don't like anyone it's that I like more than one person, and the feelings I have for them are really miniscule and insignificant. Thus can be described as nonexistent. I really wish I had someone tho. just to annoy them, I don't even want a bf, just someone who I feel that strongly about who I can talk to.

god, I'm such a hormonal teenage girl =P

ELECTRIC GUITARS NUMNUMNUM

Good god I hate these guys. -jealousyjealousy-


I wish I could play electric guitar. D: nosrsly man lol piano is such a mainstream instrument (ok I know some piano songs are so beautiful they can make ur ears bleed but that's besides the case). And these guys' skillz make my ears bleed too. not to mention there are only a handful of girls who can play electric guitar (YUI~~~) andI WANNA LEARNNNNN =3= sigh I hate those guys in bands who play electric guitar with godly skills ): and I want their guitar too. except if it's ugly.

so it's friday...
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not that long til the holidays end already 1/2way thru wtf man laina you wasted all my holiday time by inviting me out ):

I haven't started shading kim's dog
I haven't started sketching lucy's dog
haven't thought of an idea for english speech (cue steph's OMFG I FORGOT here)
haven't started kumon
haven't practised piano... orz no willpower

but

I managed to finish yujie's cat in one day
make a youtube video (something ive always wanted to do lolol)
watched kungfu panda (movie of awesomeness, pun intended)
TIDIED MY DESK OMFG
I levelled my sin to 39 on maplestory ok call me a nerd shut up
mailed present & letter to melody

haha I really need to do a lot of stuff |: oh well.

cyu bloggers, will report on yujie's party on.. tues/wed if i can