pot luck # 5

Not sure why I haven't blogged in so long, but it's probably healthy for me to now. Haven't said anything for over a month, and the new blogger layout is so different (even the post screen is different!! How do I use this...?), and I had very little to say and yet at the same time so much to say that I didn't bother saying anything at all.

I guess I will have to make this a pot luck entry because I haven't updated in so long.
... I just had to go back to see what number pot luck I am up to haha!

1. There is this window in my bathroom. It is small, and in the morning if you get up around the same time as the sun rises, you can see the light spilling into the room through that tiny window. Even if you have the lights on, the light from the window seems to chase all artificial light away. You can see a bit of the sky, and on different days it shows different emotions. On rainy or overcast days all you see is a sheet of white. Other mornings it is bright sky blue without any clouds. But I like it best when it is like above -- orange and pink hues mixing with the blue, the purple hazed horizon and the sunrise warming the whole image. It is like, I am in my own life and in my own house but something so small as a window can lead me into what life is really about -- all this beauty, all these experiences that are so close to me and all around which I may sometimes forget about. I like how that window reminds me of that. La vie est vraiment belle si on l'apprecie.

2. THIS is awesome:



I am listening to this on repeat while writing this post.

3. UNI IS SO BIPOLAR!!! Some days I feel somewhat overwhelmed with all the projects/tests/assignments due but then after a certain 'block' of these everything is so calm and I'm like omg i'm so bored and calm and stuff, nothing to do, but like 2 DAYS LATER MAX it picks up again. @___@ somewhat unhealthy lifestyle. I can't be like those people who can't sleep ): I'm getting forehead pimples and stuff like that just from the weird stress.

4. I feel like blogging provides some kind of weird catharsis of emotions that I haven't had much of and thus have been feeling somewhat bottled up lately. I think it's good to talk to an indiscriminate audience, to 'no one' as yunbin has correctly pointed out that I have spelled wrong in the description to the right (but idc actually, I fail with irony, making the point that I can do stuff how I like and there's nothing you can do about it, so I'm going to leave the grammatical/spelling error as is -hipster glasses flash-). But yeah, I feel like I'm weirdly overemotional lately and it's not cool. It's not the healthy kind of emotional its the obsessive wtf kind.  The kind I haven't experienced for years, so it's distantly familiar and a sick part of it is so attractive that I like being overemotional and dumb but I'd rather stop lollll. It will pass.

5. I am leaving in 3 months and feel like I have a lot of loose ends to tie up with objects and people. But 3 months still feels like a long time and I keep wanting to start new stuff but I remember that I'll have to leave more stuff behind and it's irritating and a pity and I hate it. Why can't things just be teleportable or something? It's weird that I'm finishing this semester and people are starting to talk about next semester and I'm not gonna be here for most of it. I've met a lot of people I'd like to get to know better and am majorly frustrated that I won't be able to.

I definitely have other stuff to say. I don't feel properly cleansed yet, but I can't think of anything specific right now...... so I will leave it at that. :D Promise to blog more often. Curse you uni and my own laziness!

pot luck #4

It's been a long time since I've updated properly and there's been a lot of stuff that's happened that I wanna talk about and blog about but just didn't get the time/motivation to actually do it, so I guess this is gonna be a pot luck post.

for any new readers of my blog POT LUCK is the series of random posts I do from time to time with little things that I think of that aren't big enough to warrant their own posts, + anything else random that may come up at the time.

Well firstly, last night was grammar ball :) I had a pretty good time, although time seemed to go by quite fast and I can't even remember what I actually did to pass so much time because we weren't dancing for long lol... slept at 9.30 this morning, woke up at 1.30 in the afternoon. ughhh so fucked. almost lost all of my voice, sore throat, blocked nose..... omg so sick ):

hehehe love you yujie.

I have also recently learnt a lot about people? or something like that. Anyway on Friday morning I was reading an old email from an old friend and it made me realise something -- the odd thing is, I'm not exactly sure what I realised, but it made me feel good. Then more recently I was just thinking and I realised some more things, of which I am also not sure of the specifics. I guess it's like, thinking about why people do the things they do, and how their emotions really do dictate their actions. But then, many people hide their feelings really well. I'm someone who wants to know what people are thinking, and most of the time I think I can get pretty close on the superficial level, but for the deeper emotions it's harder to understand; there are lots of people I see where I just can't get what's happening in their heads when they do the things they do. It may be to do with a lack of consistency (but all humans exhibit all actions to some extent anyway), but I'm starting to question whether on the fundamental level everyone is the same.

I'm just going to take the example of sexual attraction here. When you're little, you tend to like 1 person and tease them or however primary school kids show that they like someone else. When people find out, they will tease you about that person all the time. But sexual attraction is not limited to 1 person at a time; it's more common that you will like more than one person at once. This I know is universal. But what differs from person to person is what they choose to do with these separate attractions I think... that's what I find interesting to observe. You get the players that just try to go for everything they want at once, or those who choose to ignore some of their attractions and just go for the one they like the most (although sometimes this isn't possible because you can't choose), or those who keep oscillating or those who decide to not do anything at all. Actually I'm not sure if many people even realise that they subconsciously are attracted to so many people... well I for one am willing to admit it at least :/

Another reason I find this point interesting is the question of what's worse -- cheating emotionally vs cheating physically. Personally I think that cheating emotionally is 'worse' in the sense that it hurts more, but I also find it more understandable, because it's natural to like someone else and you can't really control your emotions, and if you cheat physically it's like you don't respect the other person enough to actively go out of your way to cheat on them, so that's 'worse' in the sense that the person who does it is a douche. actually after I asked this question on formspring, most people didn't give a definitive answer because both are bad. interesting.

And that also made me question, what makes people like people more and more? Something I still haven't answered. But if feelings are so ubiquitous and spontaneous as they seem, then maybe nothing means anything. But I'm sure that some people's feelings must be stronger than that... deep love must have some kind of foundation... mmmm well I'm currently falling in love with a certain amazing guy (: and I'm finding as time goes on the more I forget about the instinctive attractions... so i'd like to know that there's some meaning in that at least.

and wow it's been like 2 hours and I still haven't written that much hahahaha fail... keep getting distracted by msn facebook and google+ and testing chen's program for photo uploading onto it. it actually works pretty well, chen's amazing.

did you guys ever realise that the economy is restaurant city is retarded? there's a barter system where every ingredient is apparently worth the same amount (eg. water is the worth the same as lobster)which is like, 4000-7000 bucks on the ingredient market, apparently the same cost as half a roof and several tables and chairs. then again, dishes last infinite time so you could say a lifetime's supply of those ingredients would be on average 10x4000=40000 gold (levelling the dish to level 10) -- but each dish sold is only worth 2 gold, so that means a lifetime's supply of ingredients = 40000/2 = 20000 = 20000 dishes must be sold to earn back what you spent on that dish. HOWEVER, I guess it's true that you do get a free ingredient every day... which also makes no sense because in life nothing is free apart from the air we breathe :/ I also can't believe that a table is worth 1200 gold in this game. that's 600x more expensive than a dish of food. I mean the average meal I eat is 10 bucks, so that's like saying a table should be worth 600x10=6000 dollars in real life. NOOO WAYYY..... ok rant over lol, this game's economy makes no sense.

watch this!!!! it's so cool :)

pot luck #3

Pot luck number 3 -- for any new readers of my blog POT LUCK is the series of random posts I do from time to time with little things that I think of that aren't big enough to warrant their own posts, + anything else random that may come up at the time.

LOOK HOW KOREAN I CAN BE! :P k I was just bored..

So today I helped this french guy find his way to this house (I think he was looking for roommates or something, not sure). It actually feels so nice when you can help someone out :) Since he was catching the same bus as me and he was looking for a house on Will's street, I figured I might as well help him out since I live like 2 streets away and he looked so clueless lol. Turns out he only just came here yesterday, aiming to spend the next year improving his english and traveling, maybe getting a job. I told him that I was going to Paris next month and he was like :O look out for the time difference... it's 4pm here when it's 4am there... fml I didn't know it was 12 hours... But yeah he was a pretty cool guy. It was only after I got home that I realised I never actually found out his name. Life's weird like that eh, it's so strange to think you meet these people randomly and never see them again.

Also today billy and I went into town, watched Due Date (pretty funny movie, by the same guy who did the hangover, Alan is in it, once again playing the serious but stupid guy. that actor is really good at that role... and Robert Downey Jr. is in it too :) So it's nice on the eyes), and played ULTIMATE jenga... also played 3d connect 4. you really have to think eh :O

you know, the more I think about it, I think I prefer life being simple. But at the same time, I appreciate the messiness in the world, the beautiful chaos. Just... not in my life. :P I find it real bothersome to plan stuff you know, it's like... just do whatever you want at the time that you want @@ and I don't understand how people create so much drama in their lives. I don't know, a lot of it just seems really petty and unnecessary. Many of the reasons I find people dislike each other are, in my opinion, really stupid and unfounded. Forgiving someone for past actions or ignoring them completely if you really can't stand them seems like a better course of action than trying to pretend to be friends with them when you actually can't stand them. Idk, like why would you bother? Simplicity and straightforwardness is the best way for me... I think for me this is one of the reasons I don't really like social etiquette either. I mean I abide by it cuz I don't wanna get beaten up, but the whole idea of it seems really unnecessary to me. Who really cares if you put your elbows on the table at dinner, or eat the last piece of food on a plate? Saying please and thank you, not chewing with your mouth open I understand, but some of the more traditional etiquette I really don't understand the use of.

Also, the other day, I got this email from myself in the past :O This is what it said:

well, some retarded thing just caused my entire email to get deleted ): but yeah, I think I'll just continue my train of thought. how did you find picking your subjects for year 13? how many new friends have you made? hmmmm for some reason I can't stop thinking about david and what he said about going to uni. they should have graduated already right? wow, how time flies... it's a melancholy thing to think about the future. the past is always bittersweet, the future unsure. I guess the best thing will always be the present, but it lasts for a millisecond and then turns into the past. it's important to cherish every millisecond before you have to look back on it bittersweetly!!! don't forget that! when you get this email, make sure to send another one to your year 13 self :] I guess year 13 will be a lot different from year 12 and year 11, especially with all the guys off to uni. I wonder what decisions you've made about will?? or has he betrayed your trust already? or maybe you're bored already? just as he said yesterday... =/

ANYWAYY i can't stay for long, I'd like to write more but since the retarded thing stuffed up the other part of my email, I can't be bothered regurgitating it so yeah. well, i hope you're happy with 2010, worked hard on calc schol and SATs... :]
SEE YOU IN A YEARS TIME haha

I think I wrote this sometime in november last year? When shuhua had it as her msn pm. I should probably write one again to myself in the future... but I'm so lazy. It's kind of depressing to read this actually haha. It's interesting how things turned out :P If you want to do the same, the url is www.futureme.org

and for anyone who has not yet seen this, DO IT... it'll take up 35 minutes of your life but I think you'll enjoy it :)

I love wongfu productions :)

pot luck #2

Yay another pot luck entry ^^ where I put random thoughts I've had over the past few days that aren't big enough to make into entries of their own, + any other random things that happen to come up.

Kay well holidays are almost over, I haven't done the work I was meant to have done, instead wasted too much time going out with friends and bumming around at home doing nothing == but will try to make up for it in the next few days? ha, gl with that winnie, andrew's party tomorrow and work on sunday... orz

Today in the car I was just thinking and I realised that society is really quite interesting. Although we live our own lives, we have laws and human rights etc to protect our people. Like, if you get fined for bad driving, it's not because the police want your cash, but it's meant to be a deterrent so you don't drive unsafely (cuz you don't want to pay money), so the people's lives on the road aren't endangered. I thought that was interesting since our laws take care of the people as a whole, yet individually we pretty much live our own lives.

Which brings me to my next thought, that people all have completely different experiences and range of abilities. Like, most of us are pretty average at everything (meaning of the word 'average' lol), but there are families of people who are like really involved in music etc, and those guys who are obsessed with classic cars, or who have a guitar collection which has 10x more worth than the walls of the 1 bedroom apartment on which it occupies... there are some people who are really really into that one thing. I think that's really great, kinda wish I was like that haha. But nah, I'm just a regular old person who doesn't have that thing I'm like SUPER PASSIONATE about... But I do think it makes for interesting characters. I guess that's how it's possible for everyone to be different in the world of 7 BILLION :]

You know, having an 'away' status on msn when you are not actually away is a lot like running away from your responsibilities. Kinda like taking some down time while you think about what to do next? Idk, when I have status on 'away' I feel like I have no obligation to reply to people who say hi or ask for stuff because they wouldn't know the difference between if I were really there or not. I don't know if that's a bad thing; maybe it's a sign that I should stop ignoring my responsibilities...

There's a difference between sounding sophisticated and sounding pretentious. I don't know how you avoid sounding pretentious and sophisticated instead, but it's definitely something you can pick out from someone's writing. I'm not what it is about the style, but there's just something about the writing that makes me think, "wow this writer's a snob," as opposed to, "wow this guy knows what he's talking about." I think there's a certain elegance to sophisticated writing, but pretentiousness is just annoying... unfortunately I'm pretty sure sometimes my writing turns out pretentious when I'm meaning to sound sophisticated :l I read over it sometime after writing it and think, "wow, I'm such a douchebag."

I have this issue with things being 'fair'. Some days I think it would be so nice if life was fair and so I try to make everything as 'fair' as possible, but others I just accept that life isn't fair so it makes no difference what I do either. But actually the more I think about it, fairness needs to be defined. Because if everything were truly fair, everyone would look the same and do the same things all the time. It would be like the return of the clones :l That's not an interesting world at all in my opinion. So strangely enough I actually see merit in embracing the injustice in our world a bit, cuz it's not all bad. ...I'm either terribly optimistic, or today's just one of those days when I don't give a toss about the state of the world...

Actually it's probably the latter, cuz today in the radio they were talking about the 2nd generation of the rich family businesses etc, and how they're having some trouble in China since none of it is formally legally sorted out and some of the 2nd generation are just wasting their parents money while the businesses fail. To be honest, I didn't get why they were telling us about it over the radio because a) it doesn't affect us since we live in NZ and b) it's really not my problem. But apparently it's quite a big problem in China atm. Well, I guess it's interesting to hear about?

Which brings me to my next point, I really hate those kids of rich parents who waste their parents' money while they themselves have no 本事 (I can't think of the english word... like, ability? but I think it's a bit more than that ==) of their own to earn their own money, just living from their family's riches. I kinda feel sorry for their kids cuz when they grow up they'll have no money left because their spoilt parents spent it all and they don't know what to do because their spoilt parents never taught them anything either. Geez it pisses me off when the original first generation don't discipline their kids properly and spoil them just because they can... It's then that you get people like our family friend who imo loves his son too much, and lets him bum around at home after dropping out of high school, stealing his bank statements to borrow money, buying a car without asking him, and then crashing it into a pole... all this before his 20th birthday. Man, what a spoilt asshole. But of course he can get away with it all cuz his family is rich as. =_= I almost want to see him fail in life after his parents aren't around anymore and see what he does...

Oh geez I think I rambled on too much hahahaha. Thoughts just lead to thoughts @__@ Well, I guess to finish off, let's do a random meme :]

Girls Do The Top Part
Guys Do The Bottom Half.
since this is my blog and I do whatever the hell I want, I'm going to do both parts, based on what I might like if I were a guy hahaha. I'm not bi tho so it's probably off XD

MAKES YOU LIKE MORE = YES
MAKES YOU LIKE LESS = NO
YOU DONT CARE = DC
YOU DONT KNOW= DK

IF YOU'RE A GIRL
Is shorter than you: no
Taller than you: yes
Wears a grill: no
Dresses Gangsta: dc
Dresses Skater: dc
Dresses Athletic: yes unless he's fat then no... but if he's got athletic build it's more like YES PLEASE =P
Has green eyes: yes
Has brown eyes: dc
Has hazel eyes: yes
Has blue eyes: dc
Smokes cigarettes: no
Smokes weed: no
Drinks alcohol: dc
Plays sports: yes
Can skate: dc
Writes lyrics: dc
Smiles a lot: yes
Has bad manners in front of you: no
Has blonde hair: dc
Has brown hair: yes
Has black hair: dc
Has red hair: dc
Has spikey hair: dc
Has no hair: no
Has long hair: no
Has curly hair: dc
Has wavey-ish hair: yes
Good dancer: yes
Wears jewelry: dc
Piercings: 1 or 2 dc, >2 no
Tattoos: if it's cool, dc but if it looks bad then no
Muscles: yes as long as not like a bodybuilder
Six pack: ditto
Laid back: yes
Plays guitar: yes
Raps: dc
Can draw: yes
Has a tongue ring: no
Nipples pierce: LOL no
Hugs you: yes
Hugs from behind: yes
Creative: yes
Calls you just to hear your voice: who would say no to this..?
Goes to church: dc
Cusses a lot: dk
Is funny: yes
Kisses you out of no where: yes

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IF YOU'RE A GUY

Has a nice butt: yes
Plays musical instrument: yes
Is taller than you: no
Is shorter than you: yes
Has green eyes: dk
Has blue eyes: dk
Has brown eyes: dk
Has hazel eyes: dk
Has long hair: yes
Has med. hair: dc
Has short hair: dc
Drinks alcohol: no
Smokes cig's: no
Has blonde hair: dc
Has brown hair: yes
Has black hair: dc
Has red hair: dc
Calls you just to say hi: yes
Creative: yes
Compliments you: yes
Shaves her legs: yes
Wears jewelry: dc
Has bigger feet then you: LOL, either dc or no...
Belly piercings: yes
Doesn't party: no
Does party: yes
Likes to party: yes
Laughs a lot: yes
Happy: yes
Funny: yes
Skinny: yes
Anorexic: no
Rides a street bike: dc
Tattoos: yes if it looks good, no if it doesn't
Honest: yes
Open: yes
Shy and quiet: no
Huge chest: no, average is good.
Licks lips: dc
Lightly bites bottom lip: ...yes? i guess it could be cute
Talks dirty: yes
Leaves you random comments: no. clingy ==
Competes with you: yes

I reckon I'd make an okay guy. =P hahaha anyway that's all for today, I think I'm blogging quite a lot lately (doesn't seem like anyone else is.... steph when was the last time you blogged??). Either I have a lot on my mind or real life is not stimulating enough to keep my attention so I come on my computer and talk to myself on blogspot. Yes I lead quite a sad life ):

pot luck

yup, POT LUCK -- a collection of otherwise random and unrelated things that I feel the need to blog about because I have nothing better to do and am exercising procrastination.

well, yesterday after we finished our dragon boating practice and came ashore, the dio girls were getting ready to go on the water and there were these two hot SHIRTLESS guys just standing there looking hot (as they like to do) amongst a sea of girls. Not that I'm complaining. Later, I found out they were the coaches for the dio teams. WTF! WHY CAN'T WE HAVE COACHES LIKE THAT ): I suppose they may prove as a distraction but it might also be motivation for some? siiigh, dio has finally beaten us at something...

Milo cereal tastes great not only with maple and walnut ice cream but with vanilla as well. I was actually really looking forward to coming home and having some vanilla ice cream with milo flakes but some douchebag finished the tub ): so now I am sad ):

Hmmm, what is happening in my life? Nothing really. It's been pretty stress free lately I reckon. Day after day after day after day~~ cruising along... our time is running out sigh. we're really lucky to be able to live so calmly and peacefully like this though.

today, I found out that the little tabs on top of cans are actually meant to be used to open the can, and then you're meant to twist it around over the hole and put your straw into that hole, to stop it from moving around. I never knew that!! Apparently that's what the tab is actually designed to do... printmaking sure is educational :P speaking of those tabs on the cans, they're apparently also really valuable, because they're made of almost pure tin, whereas the rest of the can is aluminium, which is why often in garbage cans the tabs have been removed because people go around taking them off the cans. If you trade in like 200 of those you can get $100 from the junkyard or something. Every time I throw away a can without taking off the tabs now I feel like I'm throwing way part of that $100...

Rachmaninov's Rhapsody On A Theme Of Paganini Op. 43 Var. 18 sounds really nice~~ it's so calming and mellow :]

Today, there were only 5 people in my physics class because everyone was on the bio trip. Fortunately this meant that we got to toast marshmallows using a concave mirror and the sun. as Mr Olsson says, If one is ever trapped on a desert island with a packet of marshmallows and a giant mirror, one now knows how to make a delicious meal :D they were really nice. Although, we only had time to do 3 because the stupid sun kept going behind a cloud. we burnt a lot of paper while trying to find the focus point though. pity that toasted paper doesn't really taste that nice.

that's all for now I suppose~ updates from my mundane life haha. maybe more pot luck updates will occur in the future, if you guys like reading about random events in my life...

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who am I kidding, I'd make entries like this even if you don't like them =P