HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

TWENTY-TEN (not two thousand and ten, or two zero one zero, or two zero ten, or any of that retarded long winded crap) has arrived at last!!!

I have not slept for 37 hours starting from 7am Thursday 31st December 2009.

Woke up at 7am due to my crap old sony ericsson's alarm, and had to get to the bbq area in cornwall park at 9am to 'hog bbqs' with chen. I guess David didn't anticipate that everyone would want to use the gas bbqs and we were left with 5 free bbqs all to ourselves. During waiting, Chen and I witnessed a white guy drive his car into the parking lot, get out, look around conspicuously and then TAKE HALF THE FIREWOOD FROM ONE OF THE BBQS LOL. After loading it all into his boot, he just gets back in his car and drives away. Chen's thoughts: "That was SO ASIAN. and the guy was WHITE!?!?!!?"

mm, well when people finally arrived we had a bbq of course, took ages just to get the fire ready and had to go around finding something to start the fire ("a flint..?" "wait wtf. it's called a splint chen.") and had to go around and find an AXE... jono showed up in his like nissan 300ZX super decked out with huge speakers that u can see vibrate in the back and removable sunroofs, and we used that to annoy the hell out of everyone else in the park hahaha (which included, as we later found out, some of yujie's family friends). it was okay, the food was good, and after eating food there was a nissan march with a shark fin which was a kelly tarlton's car that pulled up in the lot and gave everyone free like... hat things? lmao, and u fold them around and one side is a shark and one side is a penguin. I was a penguin. kim was a shark. =P

jono's friends showed up in this beautiful nissan skyline. it was like. so shiny |: I only remember the driver was some buff asian dude in a tight yellow tshirt. I didn't care so much for him as his car omfggggg .... And then we did some random stuff cuz we got bored such as play a fail capture the flag, and then jeremy and david stuck yunbin's phone into a tree on the lower branch, and we all managed to convince him that it was up high, and he was looking up the entire time...

"SEE THAT LEAF? IT'S LIKE. RIGHT NEXT TO IT."

yunbin: "WHAT LEAF?!?!?!!"

"...you know, that green one!"

umm, that turned into just sitting in circles and talking, which resulted in games of snap and pulse hahaha. and then we just decided to leave~ The weather was beautifulllll, but it was a little cold.

After arriving at jamie's, I went to watch them practise with their band, ended up holding up davids folder and turning pages for him while he played his flute lol. they sounded really good! esp chen's singing, very impressive :] then they just gave up and chen started making dinner, and we all went down to the flat where gabby was embarrassed by her ex in the ags chronicle or something lol... I don't know, but there was a big chase during which jamie's yearbook was dented =P not to mention rose had drawn all over it in pen to label specific people... we had dinner, which was v nice. ty to chen and jamie's awesome parents :]

at 9.30pm, david set free the lantern that he worked so hard onn~~ and I helped with the calligraphy haha ^^ it was a surprise and it was good that it actually went up a bit, even if it fell down into the neighbour's house after it rose... it's okay, we got a few pictures and the neighbour's house was not set on fire. that's good enough I reckon. you can't think of it like your wishes going up and then crashing back down, you have to think of it like, you're sending your wishes up and the heavens are giving them back to you, ie. they will be granted :]

So, let's take a break in narration here to do some New Year's Resolutions!!

2009 resolutions:

1) stop slacking when it comes to your education - KIND OF. I have started studying for the SATs and am taking calc tutorials every monday with kim...

2) don't get distracted by stupid things - ??? still do this all the time =/

3) try new things - signed up for dragon boating next year, did debating & mediation

4) get better at old things - got better at badminton. (then got worse, but let's not go there)

5) take risks - TAKING ART AND NCEA. MIGHT NOT GET INTO AMERICAN UNI. D:

6) make new friends - lots and lots!!! tick ^^

7) get to know old acquaintances - same here~~~ tick

8) get hardout. im serious |: no more playing around, tiem to get serial about life. - ....I actually think I got more lax about life ):

So, this years NYRS???:

1) Do well on your SATs. I expect at least a 2200. Retake as many times as necessary.

2) Concentrate on school!

3) Don't ignore your friends and social life either!

4) Make the most of all the opportunities you've got in 6th form

5) Mature!!! Know when and how to handle different situations well etc.

6) Get more fit hahahaa

7) Be more independent :]

8) GET ENOUGH SLEEP

Yup I think that's a pretty good list for this year, I guess I'll review this next year this time then. Back to the narrative...

I got drunk (apparently). I still don't believe it, but I'm not one to judge since I don't know what it's meant to feel like >> I basically had like 1/4 cup of baileys mixed with milk, and I kept adding milk as I finished drinking. Anyway I ended up with a really red face and when hillie told me to get up and walk in a straight line I fell back on my chair >___> I still think that was my general lack of coordination though, but ofc people like to say that I was drunk... I could still see everything that was going on, still remember it lol and I could txt normally? Just, it felt really realy hot and like my heart was in my brain and my whole head was pulsing, and it felt like birds were flying around in my head. I drank 2L of water after that, and after a few trips to the toilet I was normal colour again and had a massive headache, so I had to have a panadol... in other words, I had like the LEAST amount of alcohol out of everyone who drank, and I had one of the most violent reactions. peanut had the same reaction as me, except she drank 1/2 cup baileys, like double the amount I had... I think that if I'd had as much as her, I would've seriously just been gone. verdict: winnie's alcohol tolerance is 0 and she will never drink again. >>

the rest of the night was a mix of GIRL TALK (with GIRLS, including will and david. =P) ie DMCs, playing singstarrr (funny story actually, I had 'never gonna give you up' stuck in my head all day today; it was like being rickrolled by myself...), and lol, eating? XD I don't really remember how all those hours passed by so quickly to be honest.

in the morning, everyone pretty much slept... I slept only for like 15 mins cuz jono was playing his weird sound clips on max volume next to my ear, apparently I slept through the lion king theme and the random mozzie sound, while david who was sleeping like 2m away was like twitching and could hear it hahahahaha... I sleep like a log..? but yeah I got woken up. it was pretty energizing for a 15 min nap though. the next 2 or so hours were spent harassing sleeping people basically. then we just had breakfast and bummed around for half a day, everyone half dead... couldn't get to sleep though for some reason. Played a few games of mahjong, won 2 lost 1, yea thats right beginner's luck every time I play cuz I forget how to play every time and have to be retaught hahaha =P so technically still a beginner..

after that, we decided to go down to the park to play basketball~! cleo got rejected by a little girl on the swing, and it was david, me & lucy against jono/jeremy/peanut or yb/wenzin/jamie which was uhh. a little unfair? david's advice: "JUST SLAP HIM!" I ended up doing that |: I'm sorry jono...

My grandpa got admitted to hospital last night because he was having breathing difficulties, he has too much liquid in his system and it's been sitting for a longer time than usual cuz dialysis is delayed due to public holidays =/ hope he turns out okay, that's not a very good way to start the new year...

Although, I can't believe today is new years. it just feels like a really long day for me lol... like, last night felt like new years cuz we were doing all the celebrations, but today is just like, "OMG. IM TIREDDDDD. CAN I SLEEP?"

...I have not slept for 38 hours starting from 7am Thursday 31st December 2009. I actually feel pretty okay in terms of energy levels, not too tired hahaha but i think my eyes are like a panda's... I guess I should actually get to sleep soon lol.

I'd like to say a massive THANK YOU to all my friends for being there for me this year, it's been great, I hope to go through BIGGER AND BETTER times with all of you in 2010!!! :] you've been there for me when I'm down to make me smile, sometimes when I've smiled you've come to make me sad, but then I try to convert some of my smile to you as well. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't, but we have to try since we're friends right? YOU'RE ALL AWESOME, I love you all equally ♥

ANYWAY, HAPPY NEW YEARS TO EVERYONE! hope you had an awesome first decade of the 21st century and let's all join together to make the decades in the future even more memorable!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS :]

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I hope everyone had a good Christmas :] The beach was gorgeous, and the sand was uh. scorchingly memorable. =P like you could seriously see the heatwaves... i still have a gradient tan on my legs tho ): As you can see, we built an awesome couch out of sand and made our names with shells on the back like asians hahaha

On Christmas eve, I was supposed to go to sleep at 10.30 cuz I was gonna wake up at 6.30 the next morning, but ended up getting into a philosophical debate with karl so didn't get into bed til like 11.30. Then, as I was drifting off to sleep at last, it turned to midnight and I got MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! txts DDDD: so I was pretty tireddd... but last night was meannnn :] lucy came back!!! and I played guitar hero for the first time in my life. Easy mode is too easy, medium mode is too hard >>; figures. And we played snap, for the first time in my life i didn't end up losing, althought I do have a bruise on my hand haha. Loser of each round has to drink from a mix of juice and vinegar. makes your stomach hurt man... and then played singstar and hsm singalong haahaha got owned by chen for high school musical. too pro >>;

today? not so much... I woke up at 6.30 out of habit or something from yesterday. totally owned the whole day, had to clean windows for half the day and then go out to north shore where we tried to look for boxing day deals but there wasn't really anything that was worth it and that we actually needed =/ went to dinner with family friends and the adults as usual talked for ages so I was sitting there silently sigh. Their son is like 3 years older than me, 2nd year uni. We kinda used to be friends when we were all young and juvenile like 5 and 8 etc, but now looks like the maturity gap is too big haha =P

well, this has still been one of the best christmases I've ever had though. :] hope everyone's holidays are going good and everyone had an enjoyable noel!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY BOXING DAY 2009

roll on new years...

retail therapy

man, I was so bored today that I decided to go to newmarket and spend money. =P

it's the first time I've gone shopping in agesssssssss. feels good~ a lot of stores were having big sales for xmas. I managed to find a few tops at valleygirl and a dress at orange gal (seriously, what is it with incorporating some form of the word 'girl' into shop names)~ here's the dress ^^

went down from $99 to $39 *___* totally asian thrift shopping here lol. I wanted to find a nice pair of flats since I don't own any but is it just me or are all the flats on sale right now either ridiculously expensive or hideous looking? =_=

apart from that I couldn't find anything else worth it... spent $72.50 in total including bus fares and a nice ice coffee from michel's patisserie :]

maybe there'll be more sales for boxing day? :D

MY HOLIDAYS.

this is what it looks like right now. the red stuff is days im busy. lollllllll I'm SO BUSY. also the 20th IS meant to be crossed out for vicky's party. i just suck and forgot about it when i was doing this chart >>

today, I went to newmarket with timmy and his friends. he failed cuz it was meant to be yesterday and out of the 20 people invited, 4 people turned up. we sat around waiting to see if anyone else was gonna come for like an hour, and then walked around trying to find food cuz some people didnt have breakfast... and ended up in 277 where they ate, and then we went to smiggle and whitcoulls for like another hour. it was very carefree, and i liked it haha. like, we were standing in whitcoulls and someone asked "...weren't we gonna see a movie today?" "oh yeah at 12!" "it's 1.30 already.." hahahaah xD we ended up wating 2012. it exceeded my expectations and somehow kept me alert for 3 hours so I guess it's a success in my book. wish I coulda stayed longer but then i had to get picked up haha. also, the warehouse is having a perfume sale on selected perfumes. elizabeth arden's provocative woman 50ml is 35 bucks, in case laina's interested. we ended up buying a CK in2u lol. it smells okay i guess

monday's calculus class was quite fun. I learnt a lot, but I still don't know how to do some of my homework ): it's harddddd. and according to kim "trig is one of the easier topics" lololol. o well I think we're moving on to another topic next week so hopefully that'll be better >> but kim is a very good teacher! very patient and hardworking haha I think she spent more effort on the notes than I spent actually learning D:

mm xmas party was quite fun, you can read yj's blog about it haha, since I cbs repeating everything she said. I met a lot of people :] it was good. but now im pretty tired lol since I haven't had my 'rest day'. I have to have a day in between social outings to recharge and have some alone time >> I hope the orthodontist doesn't talk to me too much tomorrow.

xmas in the parkk && others

the fireworks were awesome!! here's a video taken by tony. I think there was actually another bit after that which was even bigger but he missed it cuz it felt like it was actually over. kind of like in a music piece when people start clapping after the end of a movement when the piece is actually not finished haha.

OH WAIT. here's the second part

all in all a pretty good day. I went to dymocks beforehand to get my prize book hahaha (yes, after prizegiving). I found that marcus chown wrote another book similar to "quantum theory will not hurt you" called "we need to talk about kelvin". So far he does not disappoint :] $5 well spent I think.

After that, I went to galaxy net cafe to watch tony/yb/david/jamie play what has to be the most intense game of dota I have ever watched. I think the game flipped like 3 times, at first david was owning and then the other team destroyed all their towers and invaded their town but somehow they turned it around again and ended up winning after 2 of the players of the other team ragequit and their throne was about to be destroyed when yb just yelled RUSHH AND DESTROY THEIR THRONEEE. and they ended up winning. close game :] it was actually pretty good to watch, like watching a movie.

then was dinner where I didn't buy anything and just scabbed off everyone else. I actually ended up pretty full. Feel kinda bad for tian but tony actually couldn't finish so I don't feel any guilt about eating his food... even tho he was pretty much "omfg gtfo"ing at me haha

there were lots of people at xmas in the park. we couldn't really see the stage but it's not like we were watching anyway hahaha I think the others played king while will, tony, hillie, tian and I were listing disney movies... and then we did some other random stuff after that that I don't remember. I saw hao and william from china camp again!! and then I stole william's glow stick but he came back for it half an hour later. XD

we almost got lost coming back but it was allll g. david drove me home and I had to lie about taking the bus that i'm pretty sure my dad didn't believe since he was standing in front of the gate the whole time and didn't see a bus lololol... my parents were trying to call me the whole night but due to crap reception and lots of people ended up in a bit of stress. oh well I don't care about that much, even though my mum kept going "come home now its too late" I wasn't gonna miss the fireworks for her D:

IT WAS WORTH IT IN THE END. LOOK HOW PRETTY THEY ARE.

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I also realised that I missed my blog's second birthday hahaha but yeah, my blog is now 2 years old! :] It's been a really long time since the days of bernie's emoing and my efforts to counter them haha but somehow these blogs continued to live on ^^

and my 11th year of school life has ended abruptly with an emotional prizegiving. I have to say it was the best prizegiving I've been to thus far (is it just me or did mrs robertson make more jokes in her speeches than she usually does?). let's hope our last days at school can be equally as awesome when we get there in 2 years' time!

ITS GONNA BE A HOT SUMMER GUYS. better make the most of it yeaahhhhh ^^ I'm gonna enjoy my summer, with the calc and sat classes. seriously though in between those im gonna try to party hard and make sure its a summer i dont regret. when new years rolls around it's time to make new years resolutions again and review the ones i made for this year... which btw I actually don't even remember anymore ):

life is more about discovery than learning

QUOTE:

"My advice to a high school student interested in science as a career would be to forget all the stuff they tell you in the textbooks about the answers. My advice to a high school sophomore or junior considering a career in science would be to close the science textbook for a minute and forget all the answers that their texts purport to be telling them.

What you should steep yourself in is the ignorance, in what we don't know.

What is fascinating about science is to define the questions.

When we teach science in the high schools we try to teach people all the answers. Well, that's the answers to old dusty questions.

What we should be teaching people is how to ask good new questions. It is a tremendous art to ask good questions. To look at a situation and see that there is something going on and articulate clearly what is it that you want to know about that. To be willing to risk and to explore.

I'm sorry in a way that we don't capture it in the high school textbooks, high school curriculum, because we have to impart knowledge. But in fact it is ignorance that drives us. If we had knowledge about everything there would be no point in going into science.

And so what we have to do is convey our tremendous excitement about our ignorance, the wonderful potential of ignorance, and then we have to teach people how it is that you take raw ignorance and turn it into processed ignorance, and processed ignorance, well-defined ignorance, well-asked questions that we don't know the answer to, that's the root of experiment. It is processed ignorance, carefully constructed ignorance, and apply it to the situations.

I think kids interested in science should look around the world and start asking questions. And don't worry so much about all the facts that are in the books. Ask questions."

- Professor Eric Lander, Professor of 7.012 (Introductory Biology), Director of the Broad Institute, Co-Chair of Obama's President's Council on Science and Technology.

I think the above quote is very relevant to our generation. It's important to remember that exams aren't everything, and that life is truly about discovery rather than learning... not just in science but in all other aspects as well, I think :] anyway good luck to everyone for their exams

study leave

I think I make very good use of my study leave. =P chikorita! paper pokedoll ^^ took me like the whole day, no joke. probably because I used printer paper instead of thicker nicer paper, and my printer is black and white so I had to colour pencil the whole thing. The leaf is gonna fall off >__< oh well not too bad for a first attempt?

Adults are human too

As we grow up, we start to realise that everybody is human, everybody is equal. People who we thought were all-knowing, the teachers, our parents, the adults of the world, seem so much less significant. We understand that they are nothing special anymore, that they are just as uncertain as we are, that there was never any safety net for us to fall onto even though we felt so secure with their decisions before.

When we were younger, their word was law. If a grown up told us that 2+2=5, then it must be true. We never resisted, they knew more than us. We succumbed, because we thought everything they said was correct.

As we grow up, we realise that the world is not painted in black and white. There is no right or wrong. A million shades of grey flash before our confused eyes every day, and nobody knows what to do about it. There are people who try to make sense of it all, to perhaps categorise the greys into darker and lighter, and eventually into black and white. But others, like me, believe that it just can't be done. grey is grey, no matter how you look at it...

But that's a scary thought. Adults aren't all knowing. So where does that leave us? We don't have anything to fall back on anymore. It's up to us to create our own morals, decisions. We can't turn to them to make our decisions for us anymore. They know as much as we do and, in certain cases, perhaps less. It certainly makes me feel extremely insecure in my decision making to know that even my parents aren't sure about what they want for me, about what I should have for myself.

Or sometimes, the flipside occurs and they make decisions for you that you don't want. You know that they've made a mistake, a common human error, since they're as human as you are... but they are adults. We are merely teenagers; they still hold power over us in this world. What then?

I always thought that my parents were pretty perfect. I always thought they had the perfect morals, their word was law, everything in the world was exactly as they said. But lately I think I'm realising that they are human too, and the corruptions of humanity affects them as well. ...Adults are no saints. Lately I realised just how much some of my parents ideals and morals go against my own. But what can I do? I'm just a kid in their eyes.

I won't complain about them. Whenever I do, people agree with me and I get pissed off because I think, what right do you have to critisize my parents? But then again I brought it upon myself I suppose. It seems like a lot of parents are this way though. Humans eh? I still love my parents. But that's why it bothers me so much... something that I can't control. Aaah I feel so useless.

It's a paradox, they want me to do something, but for all the wrong reasons... so do I do it? I want to do it too, but for myself, not for them. I don't want to do it so they can fulfill their reasons for wanting me to do it... but why would I sacrifice myself for them? Yet, if I do succeed, I'll be happy but at the same time it's cancelled out because they won as well. ...Looks like it's always gonna be lose-lose for us kids.

I guess we just have to wait our turn.

yujie made me.

THREE WAYS I AM STILL A KID:
1. I play pokemon (yeah play as in present tense)
2. I love lego :D
3. I still watch cartoons and animated pixar disney films.

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:
1. I'm 16. Old enough.
2. EXAMS IN 14 DAYS
3. I'm old enough to not be able to get childs fares and kids packs when I go on flights ):

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO:
1. Be young forever (I think 17 or 18 seems like an optimal age) and be IMMORTAL HAHAHAHA.
2. Make pancakes
3. GO TO MIT. omg.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY"
1. My room is so messy that my parents refer to me as a boy =_=
2. I know the lyrics to taylor swift songs. Yes, this is in the right section
3. I like having short hair.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL"
1. I have two X alleles
2. I like pretty things and cute things (:
3. Taylor Lautner is hot.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Driving by myself >> maybe if I get my restricted...
2. Calc schol. Yes I am going to die.
3. STUDYING :D

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I suck so much at certain things that it's actually entertaining to other people to see my fail. Whatever makes your day (:
2. I'm not stupid. Sometimes.
3. I am extremely, extremely lucky. Well I think so. (:

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I tend to be arrogant haha
2. I'm stupid. A lot of the time.
3. I don't work hard enough ><

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Born in GZ, like 234092843 other people
2. came to NZ when I was 3
3. - ...i have a boring heritage

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Being alone
2. Dying
3. Solar powered lamps at night

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Food and water
2. Oxygen
3. Clothing

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Lick my elbow
2. Read people's minds
3. Like fruits

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Science/engineering
2. Architecture
3. Assassin/ninja

TEN things you wish you could say to ten people right now: (no specific order)
this section got deleted when my post failed and i cbs doing it again

EIGHT ways to win my heart
1. Understand
2. Accept things as they are
3. Be honest
4. Make me laugh
5. Teach me things
6. Intelligence
7. Being goodlooking and tall never hurt anyone
8. Or rich... -gold digger-

ELEVEN people who mean a lot to you (In no order):
1. Family
2. Mollies
3. Friends who are not mollies
4. People I have heard of
5. Strangers I see on the street
7. Everybody else in the world
8. Aliens
9. Extra-universal aliens
10. The creator of the universe
11. Max and mariel. (they made me)

FIVE things that cross your mind a lot
1. That ____ is _____
2. I'm bored. what should I be doing...
3. When's lunch
4. I'm tired
5. I wonder ______ (insert random thought here. I solved the mule cloning thing btw.)

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Charge my phone
2. Turn off the lights
3. Take off my glasses
4. Mental check list of everything that I need to do the next day when I wake up.

THREE songs that mean something to you:
1. I'm yours, Jason Mraz
2. Light Surrounding You, Evermore
3. Bai se feng che, Jay Chou

TWO confessions:
1. I am actually a man.
2. That was a lie.

ONE thing you're thinking about right now:
1. What did Mr. Chemistry just say? (totally studying atm)

Do you have a busy weekend coming up?
studystudystudystudy...

Does it make you mad when people stare?
Nope. A bit unnerving though.

How did you get your last bruise?
I walked into an iron bar

What are you doing Thursday?:
Going to school and then I have a dentist's appointment (:

Who is your last text message from?:
Billy

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Nah it's alllg (: I say hi back. maybe we can be friends.

What do you find most beautiful?
Life is beautiful, if you appreciate it.

I am manly.

cosplaying morinozuka takashi from ouran high school host club, armageddon 09 sunday. I have glasses in this photo cuz im blind, but I think during the day I took them off for photos and stuff (: IM MANLIER THAN YOU. overall it was an awesome experience. A lot of people just came up to me and asked for hugs or photos. I felt very approachable ^^ But... I got mistaken for Sherry 3 times during the day.. it was quite flattering hahaha she's way prettier than me @_@

most frequently said phrases said during the day include 1) "This is not my real hair" 2) "I'm not Sherry" and 3) "I'm not really this tall!!!" Tammy made me wear her 10cm high platforms cuz the real mori is supposed to be like 6 foot hahaha

Watched the cosplay chess, ran into ming and jaever, then went to have photoshoot in the stands (: got blinded by the huge light reflector.. gahhh it was so hot. Then I left the cosplay group to walk around and went to hang out with allan and tony and their friends. Will walked past me 3 times looking for me. Apparently he couldn't recognise me. TOO MANLY. Watched allan's friends play magic.. went to buy slushies which sufficed for lunch, and then left them to rejoin the ouran group and hold panel.

Totally had to wing the panel cuz nobody told me I would be doing it... but it's okay, mori is silent so all I had to do was sit there being silent. quiet characters ftw!!

After panel, Tony'd left and I thought everyone else had left too... so I walked around for a while and went around with some Y8s from st cuths and kelly, who spilt ketchup over my blazer hahaha thank god that was AFTER panel :D she wouldn't stop apologising but oh well.. accidents happen. Then I left them and walked around cuz I wanted to look around cuz I had no idea where anything was (new layout is confusing...) and saw ming (kim's brother's friend) at the pokemon stand. I asked if I could have a poster. He said no. ):

Then allan and his friends ran into me while I was watching pokemon game... and basically spent the whole afternoon playing rockband/band hero and running around trying to find free stuff and getting tired, collapsing in chair and watching them play magic the gathering and finally going home.

OMG WHAT A TIRING DAY. but it was fun. way better than last year (: looking forward to next year.

this blog entry

...is a good indication of how I am (not) studying for exams. nonetheless, I can't resist showing this kumon english answer that my dear brother has crafted:

note how he started writing 'hardcore' but then stopped for a better word... 'godmode'. I loled so hard when I was marking this.

other than the small things in life that make me oh-so-entertained, exams start tomorrow @__@ and I have PSATs on saturday. SATurday, as steph wisely noticed. I will never look at saturdays in the same way again ):

now that the bus lockout/strike is over, I am slightly happier (: but, the weather compensated and it poured down today. The weather report says that it will be sunny tomorrow, which is good. I will be happy when doing my french exam (: I really should study the vocab and structures for it but alas, I am tired and it feels like friday...

ms binedell wants me to do that uni maths thing that kim had today )))): IM GOING TO FAIL AND DIE. it's like no matter what I do maths is going to come and eat me. if I do ncea, I have to do this uni thing. and if I do ib, HL maths is going to tear me apart T__T AAAAAA

okay seriously I'm going to get off now. because I totally need to study >>;
-goes on msn-

2 weeks in the past...

Hm. Well, as many of you know, I got back from the USA this morning (ie. the past, 20 hours behind us). Kinda sucks though, we missed the mid-autumn festival and went straight from friday --> sunday. no mooncake ):

All in all it was a pretty fun trip. We moved around every 2 days or so cuz my parents were resolute that we would visit as many of their friends and famous universities as possible. Thus, this is a very broad overview of what happened:
Saturday: flew to Los Angeles. Arrived Saturday (US) around midday.
Saturday (in US): flew to Chicago. Arrived at night
Sunday: Went to see university of chicago, went around the city, had sushi for dinner. :D
Monday: Northwestern university, flew to Boston in the afternoon.
Tuesday: Harvard in the morning, MIT in the afternoon (I'm in love with this place, will expand later. xP)
Wednesday: My crazy father decided that he could rent a car and drive to New York (traffic laws in USA are VERY different). Stopped off at Brown and Yale on the way.
Thursday: Walked around NYC like the whole day without a purpose
Friday: Ditto.
Saturday: flew to San Francisco. Visited Stanford. Didn't get much out of it because it's closed on weekends and it was 103 degrees (38-39 celcius) so I didn't really care for walking around campus as much as finding a room with air con.
Sunday: Took one of those double decker open top tour buses around SF, went across golden gate bridge woooooooo it's so windy it feels like a theme park ride.
Monday: Flew to Las Vegas. Even hotter than San Francisco was that day. Stayed in hotel for remainder of the afternoon and went out on the strip at night.
Tuesday: Tour trip to grand canyon. Was carsick and disappointed after 5 hours drive.
Wednesday: Dad drove down to Los Angeles. Hotel had free internet :D
Thursday: Universal studios! It was very hot that day as well. not sure on actual numbers but I recall it was 90s-100 (30 degrees upwards) I have a very prominent sock tan to prove it.
Friday: Caltech and UCLA during the day, and then flew back to NZ~ and now I'm here.

Hm, in terms of schools, as mentioned above, I really liked MIT. it's mainly encased in a huge mazelike building but ehhh, the nerd culture that seems to radiate off the walls of that place is like a magnet to me ): It will be a sad day when I get rejected because it's too elite for me. 3500 international students applying ---> 100 accepted. gahhhh no chance at all.

Apart from that, Caltech also has a similar nerd culture (dipping pumpkins in liquid nitrogen at halloween and throwing them off their 10 storey high library to try to reenact the oil drip experiment, etc etc..), and I liked UCLA/Northwestern as well. The ivy leagues didn't really make much of an impression on me. Maybe it was because I joined the wrong tour on Yale and ended up following a college art history class around the campus =__= I kept wondering why he kept going on about the 'neo-gothic architecture in contrast to the neo-classical and modernist styles of other buildings' but ehhhh it was educational I suppose. Til he kicked me out hahaha :D well he could've told me earlier.

now most of these universities have an average of 700-800 in each part of the SAT. (the max is 800) I tried to do a practice exam on the plane (I know, very cool) and I got 710 in writing, 670 in math and 580 in critical reading DDD: THERE ARE SUCH LONG WORDS! I don't know what most of them mean. my vocabulary is so bad =__= I must utilise roxy's word of the day from now on.

I have gotten used to the american accent! in fact, when I got on the plane last night (er, or 2 nights ago, however you want to look at it) and the pilot had such a strong NZ accent it actually sounded strange to me D: blehh I don't like the NZ accent.

My parents. We come out to a different country and you know what we have for dinner every night? chinese. Yuppp... =__= and when there were no good chinese restaurants around, no worries! instead of going to have nice food at an italian or japanese etc restaurant (both of which they do eat), we'll just go to a bad chinese takeaway with white people rice! D:

One night in a restaurant the swan lake theme (composed by tchaikovsky) started playing. I could hear the 20-somethings on the table next to us...
"omg what's this song? I've heard it somewhere"
"it sounds like harry potter"
"I think it's star wars."
"WHAT? hahahaha that's not star wars."
....
I think they should make a star wars musical. It would be cool. Luuuu-u-u-u-ke~ I am your faaaaaaa... aaaaaaaaaa.. THEEERRRRRRR!! (doo doo)

Let's talk about fancy hotels!! I guess the one that takes the cake here is the Trump that we stayed in in Las Vegas. It's so posh and 5-star that it doesn't have rooms with 2 beds. So, my brother dibbed the bed that was several 10 times bigger than him and instead I got to slept on the sofa bed. Even that was quite comfortable. If that's not enough, the bathroom there was about the size of my garage, and it had a TV SCREEN IN THE MIRROR. Heck, yes. there was also a hot tub that I never had time to take full advantage of but gahhhh so posh!! I wouldn't mind living there =P I wonder what their penthouse suite looks like...

hmmm we also did a lot of shopping because stuff is a lot cheaper and nicer in USA. At one stage my mum bought so many pairs of shoes and made me carry them that a lady came up to me and asked me a question assuming that I worked at the shop @___@


sigh, tbh it's kinda boring to be back. The weather here is so cloudy. It didn't rain any of the days I was there. NOT ONCE. Then I come back here and hear about some tsunami and earthquake and how it's been hailing and raining for the last 2 weeks. ):

OH YEAH. I managed to get my craft knife on internation flight from auckland to LA, from LA to Chicago, Chicago to Boston, New York to San Francisco just fine, and have it confiscated when we were flying LA back to Auckland. WHAT? Lapse in continuity of austerity of procedures much?

ugh. I guess that's it. 6 plane rides, 6 cities, 8 universities, a broken camera, many hours lost and gained overcoming jetlag later, I'm back home and I guess that's what matters =P
happy studying for exams everyone~

might somehow get some photos up after I get the memory card of that broken camera @_@

UGH

Why am I so arrogant?
Why is it so hard to say a simple 'sorry'?!

life is full of colour

Life can't be divided into black and white... it's a blend of infinite shades of grey and infinite hues of colour...
Sometimes you get a strange mixture of colours that you may not like
Or sometimes you can choose what colours you want in your life
but unlike if it was black and white, if you chose white then black could be tossed aside, when you choose your colour in life, the other colours are still there, co-existing.

I cried tonight. It was a mixture of sadness, or happiness, I don't know. Sometimes laughing made me cry, but in a sad way. Why do choices always mean that we can only choose to go one way? We will never know what would have happened if we walked the other path, if things would have turned out better, or worse, or made no difference in the long run. And just because we choose A over B, doesn't mean that B is not important at all... it's as if you are made to choose between losing your foot or losing your hand. Either way it's gonna be painful for you, right?

But I think that this is one of things that makes life beautiful as well... It could be 'better', more 'happy' if we didn't have to make choices like these... but it's good to experience a little pain as well. it's useless to tell somebody to 'stop crying, just be happy' when they are crying. just let everyone cry a little. cry away all the bad things, so you are left happy. it's bad to hold things in. what is happiness if we have never experienced sadness? it's not bad to feel sad. It may feel awful, but I think it's important to relish the feeling one gets when they are sad, to fully experience life and all that it offers. Why fight something natural? There is nothing wrong about crying... why does it make people so uncomfortable? Holding it in is going to be more painful in the long run...

Keep track of the not so distant future. Things that you are sad about now may sometime in the near future make you happy again. It's important to look forward to these times and fully enjoy them as much as you can, no holding back... Well, that's what I hope my future to turn out like anyway.

a september springtime~

winter of 2009 is over at last~ I have to say, today I had a really good day, it was pretty much one of those perfect days where nothing that happens can make you sad. Spring actually came pretty early this year, the picture above was taken about 2 weeks ago, beautiful spring bloom~ but now all those flowers have actually fallen and now all that's there are weird looking green leaves but ANYWAY, I am totally not a loser for taking a picture and saving it for 2 weeks, waiting for the right occasion...

Springtime represents a lot of things, including new beginnings and the end of some arduous months. I hope that my springtime can be like this too (: Well, I think I experience some mild form of SAD anyway (seasonal affectedness disorder, when you don't get enough seratonin from the sun so the brain itself its not stimulated enough, causing a dreary, depressed feeling) and I find that every winter I get wayyy more depressed than I do in the summer. So, for another half a year hopefully that doesn't happen and I can enjoy life~

This year has actually gone pretty fast. You know, this time last year I was down at Kahunui in 2nd week of hell (2nd week is the week where our house had all the emotional breakdowns due to food)... mannnn it feels like yesterday... kinda miss it but don't at the same time. Certainly an unforgettable experience in any case D: wonder how Maria's doing down there right now... but T___T I MISS CHINA.. almost been a year now wahhh time goes by so fast. Have I really changed that much in this year? I feel like I've matured a lot and yet not at all. Sigh == why must growing up be so hard... no other species has a teenager stage of their life cycle. (yes I was reading new scientist again, so sue me.)

Oh yeah, today after dinner I felt like eating fried eggs. So, I fried some eggs. It turned out to be a success I suppose... well, I ate them and they were delicious and I'm still all right, but I somewhat fail at flipping them over =/ it was originally gonna be one huge fried egg with 3 eggs so it looks like 2 eyes and a mouth, BUTTT since I'm fail and cooking it all disintegrated ): oh well, still tasty. Now that I think about it I should've made them sunny side up, if only to also have some kind of obscure hidden message about the coming of more days of sunlight 8D -totally not a nerd for bringing in hidden messages to fried eggs-

My mood today was pretty much all due to the sun being so nice and out, and the clouds not really covering it up... The sun really does bring about a lot of cheeriness doesn't it? let's all enjoy the coming of the summer sun together :D

English is a crazy language

English is a crazy language
by Charlie Indelicato

Let's face it -- English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant
nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins
weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are
candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is
neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't
groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the
plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index,
2 indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend, that you
comb through annals of history but not a single annal? If you have a bunch
of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preacher praught? If a vegetarian eats
vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps
you bote your tongue?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum
for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and
play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that
run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and
wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while
quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be hot as hell
one day and cold as hell another.

Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are
absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a
sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who
was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those
people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house
can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out
and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the
creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a race at all). That
is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are
out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but
when I wind up this essay, I end it.

jamie / yb/ tians party

it was a fun day c:
sucks that its monday tomorrow

im so tired D:

as I begin this blog...

...I have nothing in mind to write about whatsoever. well... I'm feeling somewhat melancholy. had a pretty good dmc on msn a few minutes ago... Life is going really fast. Next year we will be 6th formers already. It's been over a decade since we started school as 5 year olds. I feel like a big chunk of my childhood is already missing somehow. When we look back to our childhoods and we feel the nostalgia, I somehow feel like I thought it would last forever. but it didn't; it's over now. I thought I told myself to stop thinking about the past and look to the future instead, but it's too hard because every minute that I spend thinking about the future becomes the past and it's another 60 seconds disappeared that I will never have again... even if it's something little, it makes me feel so, so sad. After all the future is full of uncertainties. If we spend our time thinking about what could be, we would never stop thinking, since there are too many possibilities. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life away... but yet at the same time I have nothing else I want to be doing instead of this life I feel like I'm wasting... maybe I just don't want to grow up, don't want to move forward? I want to be able to enjoy myself forever like this. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind freezing time, if it means I would stay forever in this world. I don't think I could ever get bored of life. My biggest regret when I die will be not being able to live to see the world move on... I'm going to feel like I'm missing so much. Like a movie that you leave in the middle of and never watch again, you will never stop wondering what happened. But we'll be dead, you say... we'll never know what became of the world we departed. But that doesn't change my feelings about how I would feel after my death if I was still conscious before I die... (did that make sense? I think I will have lost everybody by now...)

human emotions are so complex. the above sounds so emotional, so depressed but it's the truth about what I feel. It will never change. Yet I can still live on my life and not think about it, remaining rather content, but when it comes up, my mood changes immediately. but should I ignore what makes me sad even if it's part of who I am? is it better to be ignorant after all? there seems to be pros and cons for everything... making choices is getting harder and harder.

but in spite of all this some things are just heartwarming no matter what. (:

boredom = makeup?

some things I learnt today in my boredom...
a) one should not try to wash off eye makeup without makeup remover, especially with soap. yes I am obviously a genius
b) mascara and eyeliner sucks to wash off
c) weenie fails at makeup

tbh I think i look better with my glasses on =.= notice dark rings around eyes less.. but you can hardly see the dif if I uploaded one with glasses since I'm still too scared to play around with blue/green eyeshadow lol so I stick to browns/reds/pinks

in addition to that >>; I'd like to ask peoples opinion about this dress:
it's a paula ryan long skirt that strunk in the wash so my mum gave it to me and I somehow got enough creativity to make it into this dress.. tbh I haven't done anything to it lol just pulled it up and added a belt. I'd have to add some padding for boobs (lmao) if I was going to make this and stretch it a bit cuz the lining is coming out the bottom (which you can't really tell in this picture) but I dunno... i kinda like how it hangs out but it's not really a good look if you know it's lining lol. if you don't know it's lining it just looks like 2 layer dress? what do you guys think =/ I might replace the belt with ribbon or whatever, something nice. the belt I'm using the photo above is a brown leather buckle one.

also my laptop battery is nearing the end of its life ): so I'm taking this opportunity to build a new computer. well, I hope so at least. this will also make me keep my desk tidy so all attention will be directed towards the shiny sexy looking new computer that I'm gonna build =P it'll be leet if I actually end up doing it. my dad agreed to help fund it for me IF I keep my room tidy lmao... talk about motivation

I'm not gonna think about ib or ncea til the summer holdiays I think. I need to get through my ncea exams without distractions so I can use the summer holidays to think things through clearly. right now I'll just go with the flow with doing ib and if I change my mind later I hope I'll still be able to at the beginning of next year when everyone's switching subjects and stuff.

I guess life's going okay actually =/ other than the huge amounts of homework lately (there hasn't been a single evening this term when I haven't had homework. it's insane.) sigh, term 3 sure is hectic.

my life is boring so I have nothing else to say hahahahahahaah.
zzz
=.=

DOUJIN OVERLOAD 2009

above: angela and the band, performing "god knows" from melancholy of haruhi suzumiya, although it's not like you can tell the dif between songs in a photo but still. she's really good at singing~~ i had it stuck in my head all day lolol

it was even more epic than last year. probably because I was actually exhibiting this year =D it was so much fun, thanks to everyone who stopped by to look at my stuff or buy it ^^~ I was next to kera-doll (nicole) who was really nice and simply awesome to be beside (: her keychains were so cute~~ anyway, so I got there at 7.30am, almost got lost but then a worker took us there by elevator (fancyyyy) and I set up, halfway through I realised that I didn't have enough table space for my A3 posters... so I went to ask them if I could use the other half and to my surprise it was actually mine for use since rocky couldn't make it... but o well thanks to her not being there I had enough table space har har har =D actually I didn't take any pictures of my own table LOL, I hope someone else has pictures.

I saw a lot of people who came to support, eg. steph and tash, julia and her 'little brother' LMAO, rui, will & terry, and yj and jamie. thanks so much (: I also met a lot of new people eg. sam, rex, tyler, annaleisa and her brother jeffery who has an awesome signature that looks like pi because his initials are JT =D thanks for the drawing~ it was awesome to meet you guys (: also met rebecca and michelle who were awesome too~ I want those pictures guys lolol. also of course saw fellow artists eg. rebecca, kaylee and amanda~

I think what made it really awesome for me was just the people and the atmosphere, everyone was so great, esp in the afternoon after lunch when rui, yj, will, terry and jamie were pretty much manning my store with me (yes, 6 people on 3 chairs). when yj and jamie brought me lunch I went outside and sat on the ground like a hobo eating bk. yes I did get a lot of stares but shhhh >> i'm cool

also it's interesting from the vendors point of view because you notice things like the sorts of buyers.. some people stop to look, linger and then carry on, some strike up conversation, and some give you money and take the item without saying anything at all haha. there were 2 girls who fought over the vongola guardians original lineart I had for sale and I didn't know whos money to take @__@ in the end I just took the one with the $10 cuz it meant I didn't have to give change.. aaa I feel bad for the other girl tho.

also there was a guy who wanted to know about DO and similar events and how I knew about them. I dunno why he asked me of all people but I gave him the animenz website address lol XD tbh I hear about it from word of mouth mainly so I wasn't really sure what to tell him...

in terms of profit, I made $6.80. (man that sucks, you say). well I also spent over 100 bucks on pretty things (below) AND I treated terry/will/jamie/yj/rui to dinner afterwards because I'm so nice. it was an EPIC experience so that's all I needed, money wasn't really my aim. I thought I made a deficit actually so it's nice that I actually come out with some extra money hahahaha

well yeah, we had sushi for dinner in a food court, then I treated everyone to dessert lmao. then we went to yifans and did sticker photos and watched terry and will fail at ddr, watch will and terry die from exhaustion and then catch the bus home. yay~

and ofc sometime during this time yj became very happy, but that's not my story to tell =P congrats~

EYECANDIES YOU ASK?


above: new posters: reborn boys by amanda, hitsugaya by pauline, k-on's ritsu and mio by bane (came free with a sketchbook), 2 magnets by pauline, orange original char print by pauline (came free with poster), chrome by yuna
above: clockwise from top left, "The Scrap Book 2009" by bane, "Worlds Apart" by hiyaku studio, "Paper Birds" by kaylee, "Radio On 88.69" by matsuo-lenn (I bought an extra copy for rocky's birthday since she can't be there...), "Superscenic" by collateral damage x tera (beautiful music + beautiful art makes this the most expensive thing I bought.. but it was so, so worth it D:), "Bubble Tea" by rebecca and michelle and "Adolescence" by aiki-ame and marxwyn. in addition to this there is also a byakuya pin that was given free with kaylee and amanda's business card and 5 CUTE PHONE CHARM things from nicole DD: they are seriously adorable, I got luke, klavier, seychelles, trucy and apollo 8D

well theres the conclusion of DO2009. ROLL ON 2010!! It's going to be twice as epic =D

july 12th

=D click to enlarge.
1. will, bear and piggy soft toys (:
2. carmen, a cuteee bear basket filled with lollies~~ can't see it in this photo since it's still unwrapped but it's cute =D
3. eunji - a pair of socks lolol, a hairtie and a wizard of oz notebook (:
4.vicky, a box of roses and a cute eraser and pencil~
5. neeshah, a basket drawer thing EDIT--- found out it's from jacky THANKS (:
10. julia - a little build it yourself cake sculptures X3 I got the chessboard haha it's really cute but I can't work out how to melt the glue to stick on the pieces haha
11. jimin - a piece of brownie wrapped in tinfoil and a palm tree necklace =D
12. steph - 20 bucks and an awesome card TYVM lololol all the memories
13. roger - 20 bucks and a few movies on his usb which I have to return later, I am legend, forest gump, watchmen, monsters vs aliens and knocked up. (:
14. yujie - juggling balls/hacky sacks and a fan =D just what I asked for tyvm <333 haul ="D">:D

mann today was fun. 2 hours was really short >< thanks to everybody who came, hope everyone had a lot of fun... a lot of people didn't come which left some people as loners-ish but everyone made a new acquaintance I guess.

will and tony are losers for playing arcade games while at ice skating. =P everyone had fun watching yj put snowballs down shirt hurhurhur. never saw it coming.... grats to harim and kenji for winning races, there were a lot of falls... but yeah all in all a pretty good day I guess. heaps of randoms, mainly jonathan's friends lol but pro. for everyone who stayed afterwards for cake you guys are awesome (: esp the losers who refused to eat cake coughrogerandarkarcough, I feel very satisfied after making you eat it.

and TIAN wooooo he went on the ice. that's accomplishment enough for him XD everyone was mixing really well lol I got confused in the beginning cuz I thought "wtf I thought they didn't know each other..." but yeah it's good that everyone talked to everyone (:

hm, only feel once today cuz will pushed me lolol. but then he caught me. but then he dropped me and i dragged down kim and we all fell 8D yuppp pretty cool. ice is slippery.

hope everyone enjoyed their day anyway... imma go watch some movies now =P

picspam & various other things

^^^ the bookmarks for DO (: theres only 4 of each right now tho I really need to photocopy. speaking of arts, I need to get some magic tape to start my painting, but I have the feeling that I'm just going to flag and start painting without magic tape >> resulting in an extremely messy painting but EHHH i'll try to be careful but I just really cbs looking for tape since it appears to be extremely elusive and rare in convience stores according to what i've heard from steph.


birthday party on sunday and I still haven't bought anything for yj/kim/shu/ej (FEBRUARY)/steph (APRIL)/bernie(APRIL). I think I'm doing rather well don't you? the above are presents from will. very sneaky of him, giving me my presents before HIS birthday so I would feel extra pressure to give him his on time. ): blahhh no time.

also I got conned into proofreading my cousin's 94 page long masters degree thesis. it went like this: "hey can you proofread some of my writing I don't think my english is entirely correct." thinking it was some little article I accepted. I feel somewhat cheated. =/ welll I'm almost halfway through it.. 40/94..

my mum bought this nescafe italian cappucino coffee powder. it tastes nice =D I think I might be addicted to coffee by now... I've eaten like half the tin >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFccgzpZL8thGFScUbM4Zmn3DRYQsw2EusWIQvkzQgZM_W-Kakj76angRbZD0xhBEQuLS7BB43hR7gA6y060qsC2xcjY6ShGa5vrTiZvNyzxdTAPZgAn926adCuvsfbxrGGug-rGyh4INs/s1600-h/orz.jpg">my last braceless photo of teeth for a few years. ): blehhh I'm not even scared of the pain but I'm pretty sure braces will be ugly on me D:

just cuz I felt like it.

"Buy some shoes."
"Yes, sir."
“I don’t think you have to call me “sir”, sir”, Lieutenant Scheisskopf pointed out. “You outrank me.”
“Yes, sir. I may outrank you, sir, but you’re still my commanding officer.”
“Yes, sir, that’s right,” Lieutenant Scheisskopf agreed. “You may outrank me, sir, but I’m still your commanding officer. So you better do what I tell you, sir, or you’ll get in trouble. Go to the hospital and tell them you’re sick, sir. Stay there until your uniform allowance catches up with you and you have some money to buy some uniforms.”
“Yes, sir.”
“And some shoes, sir. Buy some shoes the first chance you get, sir.”
“Yes, sir. I will, sir.”
“Thank you, sir.”

----

wellllll I was extremely bored today as steph would know. I missed the bus but for some reason I decided to walk home. it was cold. rolling around on art tables and being annoying in general is amusing. yeah, I'm still bored

the girl meme & questionable sanity

♥GIRLS ONLY:♥

♥Do you sleep in your bra?
no
♥Do you enjoy drama?
asian dramas yes~ real life drama, depends what kind =P
♥Are you a girly girl?
I don't think I am...
♥Last person you hugged?
stebby? ♥Small or big purses?
big purses messenger bags... how other girls can fit all their stuff into one of those tiny purses is beyond me.
♥Do you think you’re conceited?
yes =P very much so
♥Do you dress up on Halloween?
never have probably never will =/ unless I move to united states or something
♥Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I dreamt that I slept at school overnight in one of the toilet cubicles
♥Has anyone touched/smacked your butt?
Yes
♥Last person who walked you somewhere?
I can't remember ):
♥Do you call anybody by their last name?
With the exception of adults with titles, I don't think so =/ but joy calls me by my last name.
♥Do you wear makeup?
nope, too much of a hassle to put on, not to mention expensive... oh wait, sometimes nail polish. but it flakes off real fast >< ♥Ever cried at a movie theater?
nope, the presence of other people kills the mood
♥Can you put mascara on without opening your mouth?
o_o yes
♥Have you ever been called a bad influence?
hahahahahahha tbh, yes, once. XD
♥THIS OR THAT:♥
♥Eyeliner or Mascara?
no preference =/ I guess if I had to choose, eyeliner, since you can always get fake eyelashes =P
♥Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Burke?
...whaa?
♥American Eagle or Hollister?
american eagle. (:
♥Heels or flats?
honestly I think heels look better than flats.
♥Skirts or pants?
'pends. some skirts are real pretty (:
♥Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies ftw
♥Heels or sneakers?
yeah, chucks. =P although some heels are real pretty, so I guess I'd choose those over the ugly sneakers >< ♥Straight or curly hair?
straight, or maybe slightly wavy would be interesting if I had longer hair, just to experience it.
♥RANDOM:♥
♥What color is your bra that your wearing?
getting ready for bed so no bra lol
♥Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
depends on the guy. I tend to go for dark haired guys more though
♥Are you currently frustrated with a guy?
maybe =/
♥Do you have a best friend?
nope (:
♥Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
lol, yes. as part of my murder plans (ask steph.)
♥Do you like your life?
right now, yeah I guess. overall I am happy even though I like to find things to complain about since it's more fun with conflict.
♥Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yes lol, not very pleasant
♥Would you ever tell someone you loved them even though you didn't?
depends how much I could get out of it. =P
♥Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
lol yes, lightly
♥Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes
♥Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
yes
♥Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yeah, but once again life killed my dreams ):
♥Are you currently missing someone?
yes D:
♥IN A BOY:♥
♥Preppy or Punk/Goth?
to the preppy side tbh lol
♥Well-educated or Dropout?
hah, is this really a question you are asking me XD
♥Anything Cute or Abercrombie?
wha...
♥Contacts or Glasses?
don't care, but it's a plus if he looks good with and without 8D
♥Funny or Serious?
funny~~
♥Long Hair or Short Hair?
depends what suits him (:
♥Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
probably straight... but that also depends if he looks good with curly hair...
♥Good Dancer or Good Singer?
singer lol
♥Basketball Player or Football Player?
basketball player~
♥Smoker or Non-smoker?
man if you're a smoker don't even try get near me.
♥Drinker or Non-drinker?
non-drinker ==

welll I had a little emotional breakdown on friday night that nobody knows about but yeah that turned out okay after I wagged chinese to go down to viaduct for 2 hours and spend some time alone. alone time is very important for sanity. even though humans are social creatures we still need our hermit time... sigh, who knows how much I cried between friday and saturday...

spent this weekend at steph's house cuz my parents randomly decided to pull a rotorua trip out of their ass, since one of their friends came to visit nz from hong kong this week. I didn't want to go, since it's boring and I had a bad feeling about it, so I had to stay at steph's. intuition never lies, they ended up inviting the family friends with the creeper son. although, I still had to sit through dinner with him last night. siigh =.=

in terms of orthodontics, I'm getting my braces on july 7th (: today I got a retainer for top teeth so they don't move before then. it feels weird >< but I guess at least you can't notice it's there. very similar to invisalign, except instead of aligning my teeth its aim is to keep them as crooked as they are now. 8D

k-on! is so cute... but 200mb an episode.. my poar internet. ):

How to talk about women while retaining political correctness

Enjoy:

She is not a BABE or a CHICK - She is a BREASTED-AMERICAN.

She is not a BLEACHED BLONDE - She is PEROXIDE DEPENDENT.

She is not a BAD COOK - She is MICROWAVE COMPATIBLE.

She is not HALF NAKED - She is WARDROBE IMPAIRED.

She does not wear TOO MUCH JEWELRY - She is METALLICALLY OVERBURDENED.

She is not CONCEITED - She is INTIMATELY AWARE OF HER BEST QUALITIES.

She does not want to be MARRIED - She wants to lock you in DOMESTIC INCARCERATION.

She does not GAIN WEIGHT - She is a METABOLIC UNDERACHIEVER.

She is not a SCREAMER or MOANER - She is VOCALLY APPRECIATIVE.

She is not EASY - She is HORIZONTALLY ACCESSIBLE.

She does not TEASE or FLIRT - She engages in ARTIFICIAL STIMULATION.

She is not DUMB - She is a DETOUR OFF THE INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY.

She is not TOO SKINNY - She is SKELETALLY PROMINENT.

She does not HAVE A MUSTACHE - She is IN TOUCH WITH HER MASCULINE SIDE.

She does not HATE TELEVISED SPORTS - She is ATHLETICALLY IGNORANT.

She has not BEEN AROUND - She is a PREVIOUSLY ENJOYED COMPANION.

She does not WEAR TOO MUCH PERFUME - She commits FRAGRANCE ABUSE.

She does not GET YOU EXCITED - She causes TEMPORARY BLOOD DISPLACEMENT.

She is not KINKY - She is a NON-INHIBITED SEXUAL COMPANION.

She does not have a KILLER BODY - She is TERMINALLY ATTRACTIVE.

She does not GO SHOPPING - She is MALL FLUENT.

She is not an AIRHEAD - She is REALITY IMPAIRED.

She does not get DRUNK or TIPSY - She gets CHEMICALLY INCONVENIENCED.

She does not get FAT or CHUBBY - She achieves MAXIMUM DENSITY.

She is not COLD or FRIGID - She is THERMALLY INACCESSIBLE.

She is not HORNY - She is SEXUALLY FOCUSED.

She does not WEAR TOO MUCH MAKEUP - She has reached COSMETIC SATURATION.

She does not have BREAST IMPLANTS - She is GRAVITY RESISTANT.

She does not NAG YOU - She becomes VERBALLY REPETITIVE

She is not a SLUT - She is SEXUALLY EXTROVERTED.

She is not LOOSE - She is MORALLY IMPAIRED.

She does not have MAJOR LEAGUE HOOTERS - She is PECTORALLY SUPERIOR.

She does not have THIN LIPS - She is COLLAGEN DEPENDENT.

oh, the things she does to waste time

and with that I go to bed.

lack of updates

^by laina.

so yeah, it's been a while, i'm not sure if it's because I am mentally stable right now or if I just cbs updating but either way here's an update just because I feel guilty for not updating.

exam results are back, yet I feel more stress than ever lol... lucy's moving to aus, so I have to prepare a goodbye present... also a lot of internals coming up, and the like... and I need to tidy my desk. must also prepare stuffs for DO ><><>>

and also, @laina, since you keep pestering about ncea/ib I think I'm probably going to take ib. but even now I have no idea wtf I am taking within that. also I don't like making final decisions so I might change my mind again later but right now it's pretty sure. ugh, I feel so inadequate lately though. seems like everyone else is trying so hard at school and I feel like I'm actually trying less. I feel like my standards have dropped or something >> admittedly it could be a good thing to avoid stressing out about results but still, aim high = higher results right? sigh... I find that I'm affected very easily by outside factors when it should really be what I want and what's best for me, but what if those are conflicting? and what if I don't even know what I want...

well, I suppose a coin flip could be used, but even I'm not that carefree when it comes to life changing decisions.

getting late, grandma wants to go to fleamarket real early tomorrow, I think we're meant to be out the door by 8am tomorrow or something (ridiculous I know) so eh, night for now >< really wish I actually had something interesting to say, but I don't.

arithmancy anyone? &an update

Read this first

here's the calculator if you're lazy: link
and the results page: link

my results were, general personality,

1 - This is the number of the individual, the solitary unit. Ones are independent, focused, and determined. They set a goal and stick to it. They are leaders and inventors. Ones find it difficult to work with others and don't like to take orders. They can be self-centered, egotistical, and domineering. They are often loners.

my 'heart personality' ie. what I'm like alone

8 - Eight indicates the possibility of great success in business, finance, and politics. Eights are practical, ambitious, committed, and hard working. They can also be jealous, greedy, domineering, and power-hungry. Eight is said to be the most unpredictable of numbers and can indicate the pinnacle of success or the depths of failure; the potential to go either way is present from the beginning.

and my 'social personality' ie. what I'm like to others

2 - Two represents interaction, two-way communication, cooperation, and balance. Twos are imaginative, creative, and sweet natured. Peace, harmony, commitment, loyalty, and fairness are characteristic. But two also introduces the idea of conflict, opposing forces, and the contrasting sides of things: night and day, good and evil. Twos can be withdrawn, moody, self-conscious and indecisive.

it's.. interesting haha. try it. :)

since everyone else's blog entries seem to mention A&D somewhere, I guess I'll just bandwagon. Well, I was expecting it to be better. It was still good, but I guess my expectations were a bit high. after all the book is a hard act to follow up. poor vicky was shielding her face from the corpse of the first cardinal. the music was so epic though, made everything so much tenser... surprisingly it was only rated M for all those violent scenes... i demand that other movies be brought down also so that I can watch them. D<>>

well other than that life is back to how it was. exams are over, etc etc. worst set of exams so far... and they came and went so fast. didn't even see them coming.

also I'm having a few issues with myself right now. so sorry if I seem like I'm acting strange (eg that other day at art steph lol) I have no idea who I am or how I should act anymore, or if the things I do are for myself or for others, and which they should be for. I don't even know what I want anymore or if it's better that I do something that's going to be better for me than something that I want. I finished 1/2 a tub of ice cream to take my mind off this and it's not getting better. I'm trying to stop thinking about it though. hopefully it will work itself out.

well, once again I find myself bored and unproductive with nothing to do even though there is PLENTY to do. oh well, might as well let the tradition continue.

and thus I leave you with a rhyme

Johnny is a chemist's son
But Johnny is no more
What Johnny thought was H20
Was H2SO4
- Tourniquet

sedation and local injections...

wooo my tooth is so ugly. got my 4 teeth extracted today, 2 premolars up top and 2 wisdom teeth down the bottom. unfortunately it was too hard to get them out so they just cut my wisdom teeth ): so I only got to keep 2 whole teeth.

the nurse was sarah batkin's mum. she said that sedation would make me feel drunk and i could still feel the operation (if they didn't give me enough local injection i was meant to tell them) and hear them talking and stuff. WELL, she lied. as soon as I felt that sharp stab and she told me not to look at what the surgeon was doing i felt woozy and like, fell asleep or something. I have no recollection of it at all. T_T I only really vaguely remember getting told to stand up and being helped over to the other chair where they gave me a blanket and I napped (cuz well, I dunno, I have no idea what was going on at the time due to drugs.) I brought evermore 'dreams' album to play as bg music. (: unfortunately I was so knocked out that I only got to listen to it when she was explaining the procedure to me, and even then I had to concentrate more on what she was saying.

I think I've already torn some of my stitches ): and I can see the hole where my wisdom teeth were. siiigh... and grandma insists on no solid food for 2 days at least so I think I'm getting congee for lunch tomorrow. hopefully it doesn't spill in my bag...

must.. study..

tagged.

yeah, newest youtube video, I got bored. and lol, I spelt lacrosse wrong.

THIS IS HOW I PROCRASTINATE. HEAR ME ROAR.

EDIT: almost forgot the questions hahaha

Voice posts are fun, right? You get to hear funny accents if your friends are from far, far away. All we really want is to hear your voice, we don't care what you're saying. So here's a list of typical meme questions that would otherwise be boring, but when communicated aloud - well, it's entertaining. Answer these questions in your post, and encourage others with voice-posting abilities to do the same.

1) What's your name?
2) How old are you?
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now?
4) Is it cold where you are?
5) What's the time?
6) What are you wearing?
7) What was the last thing you listened to?
8) What was the last thing you ate?
9) What was the last thing you watched on tv?
10) What's your favorite tv show? Why?
11) Quick! Find a book, or something with text on it! Flip to a random page and read some of it! GO!
12) What was the last movie you saw? How was it?
13) Do YOU think you have an accent? Talk about that.

problems and other junk

=/ is anyone else having a problem with commenting on other peoples blogs? it says "please choose a profile" but in the profil drop down list there is nothing. also when I try to check my email my inbox doesn't let me read my emails, I have to go to the main page and click the emails to view them, which only works for the top 3 emails at my list. I think my computer has a java coding problem. also my taskbar won't autohide. T_T I'm gonna do a full virus scan. even then I don't know if it'll turn up, what if its some super leet virus that hasn't been detected yet... or my computer just randomly mutated D:

I love salsa corn chips. I can feel the fat forming already, but OHH IT TASTES SO GOOD.

I should really start studying for exams. but I don't want to. =.= actually I don't even know how. UGHFKSD. -sucks at studying- maybe the first step is to tidy my desk, lol. D: and maybe my couch as well. oh man my room looks like a pigsty D:

also should be getting going on doujin.. I keep getting these dreams where it's the day and I realise I haven't got anything to sell because I haven't FINISHED anything orz

here are some things I learnt this week:
a. when you cut a worm in half it DOESN'T turn into 2 worms.
b. i should never play lacrosse.
c. doctors do not know anything. I taught a doctor something~
d. mrs l's office can fit at least 15 people in it. still wasn't crammed though, we need to try harder.
e. my hair has grown.
f. i am really, really good at procrastinating. or at least, being oblivious to exams.

parents have a wedding to attend today. they showed me the invite, it was extremely shiny and looked so expensive. I guess people like to splurge on things like wedding invitations even though they're not that important. "but its an important day" I suppose... but hey, shouldn't we try to make all our days important? (:

doujinexamsdoujinexamsdoujinexamsdoujinexamsdoujinexams.
D:
-goes to read manga-

bored

Yes or No,
Only two rules-- and you MUST follow them:
1. You can only say Yes or No.
2. You aren't allowed to explain anything unless they message you,

1. Taken a picture fully naked?
No
2. Painted your room?
No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex?
No
4. Drove a car?
Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror?
Yes
6. Have a crush?
No
7. Been dumped?
No
8. Stolen money from a friend?
Yes
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
Yes
10. Been in a fist fight?
No
11. Snuck out of your house?
No
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
Yes
13. Been arrested?
No
14. Made Out With A Stranger?
No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?
Yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents?
Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbour?
No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun?
No
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex?
Yes
20. Seen someone die?
Yes
21. Been on a plane?
Yes
22. Kissed a picture?
Yes
23. Slept in until 3?
No
24. Love someone or miss someone right now?
Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
Yes
26. Made a snow angel?
No
27. Played dress up?
Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game?
Yes
29. Been lonely?
Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school?
Yes
31. Yelled at a friend?
Yes
32. Felt an earthquake?
No
33. Touched a snake?
Yes
34. Ran a red light?
No
35. Been suspended from school?
No
36. Had detention?
No
37. Been in a car accident?
Yes
38. Hated the way you look?
Yes
39. Witnessed a crime?
Yes
40. Pole danced?
No
41. Been lost?
Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country?
Yes
43. Felt like dying?
Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
No
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
No
50. Kissed in the rain?
No
51. Sang in the shower?
Yes
52. Made love in a park?
No
53. Had a dream that you married someone?
Yes
54. Glued your hand to something?
Yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a pole?
No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked?
No
57. Been a cheerleader?
No
58. Sat on a roof top?
No
59. Didn't take a shower for a week?
No
60. Too scared to watch scary movies alone?
No
61. Played chicken?
No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
No
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
Yes
65. Been easily amused?
Yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone?
No
68. Cheated on a test?
Yes
69. Forgotten someone's name?
Yes
70. Slept naked?
Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping?
No
73. Blacked out from drinking?
No
74. Played a prank on someone?
Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie?
Yes
76. Made love to anything not human?
No
77. Failed a class?
Yes
78. Choked on something ur not supposed to eat?
Yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend?
No
82. Thrown strange objects?
Yes
83. Felt like killing someone?
Yes
84. Felt like running away?
Yes
85. Have you ever ran away?
No
89. Made a parent cry?
Yes
90. Cried over someone?
Yes
91. Had sex more than 3 times in one day?
No
92. Dated someone more than once?
No
93. Had/Have a dog?
No
95. Own an instrument?
Yes
96. Been in a band?
No
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day?
No
98. Broken a CD?
Yes
99. Shot a gun?
Yes
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends?
Yes

THE END.

I'm getting into dance music D: