erghhh mediocre days

past few days have been mediocre.

exams are...
...exams.

nothing much to say. english exam = major failage ): just put down some random stuff that sounded like it might possibly be right, definitely not E standard my goal is ...down the drain T_T

sst and french tomorrow. don't ask me why I'm not studying. PARCE QUE. JE SUIS. /excuses

..blahhhh stresssss ><; I wish information would diffuse into my brain. but noooo God created the world to be difficult for winnie ): I realised tonight that I dislike meat in asian soup. I guess I already knew this but tasting it today really made it sink in. IT HAS NO TASTE. what good is meat without taste? and the texture is so dry next to the soup. ewwww meat in soup. >>;

yeah that's all the important stuff I had to say. nothing much... my brain is blocked up I'm not in the mood to do anythingggg..

guitar...

my guitar arrived today (got it off trademe). it's extremely cheap and low quality, the sound quality is crap and the material feels so light. but then again it was $67 so can't really expect much.

I miss my uncle's guitar |: it was beautiful. Something like 3000rmb, yamaha. I can't upload it cuz its on my phone's memory. (not on the memory card)

siiigh. this will give me motivation to quickly become better so then I can get a better guitar.

my blog is lonely because steph and bernie are both hardcore studying for exams ): when you come back comment on ALL THE ENTRIES YOU MISSED, OK? D:

time to study.......

a nice day.. PARTYYYY.

today was a reallyyyy nice day. I overcame my extreme fear of deep water (with flippers, but still) and was pretty much on a high for the rest of the day... I even decided to walk alll the way home even though I could've taken the bus, because the weather was so nice. I got wasted at badminton and pulled a muscle but no matter it was fun and I was high, so I actually enjoyed it. I'm so tired now but... it's a happy kind of tired. For no reason I'm happy. Maybe it's really the small things that matter. Happiness is strange but I'm not going to complain...

I wanted to organise a fireworks thing for everyone but I found out that it's illegal to set them off anywhere when it's not guy fawkes and guy fawkes is this wednesday and next week is exams so we don't have time. ):

but Laina decided to throw a party for her birthday with alcohol. =P sleepover time... I don't even know why I'm so happy about this. usually I'd be against this type of thing but I really can't remember what it tastes like even though I know it tasted bad the last time I tasted it lolol I can't help but be curious about what it tastes like really (what kind of bad is it...) dw everyone there will be soft drinks =P i hope anyway. time to get hammered and then have hangover the next day. good thing it's a sleepover otherwise I think my parents will really kill me. right now the date is 19-20 december. we'll talk about it more as it comes I guess. AND. just to make me happy, she said that we'll have sparklers (: yaay kiddy fireworks~

uuuuuuuuuggghhhh. exams. why am I procrastinating study again. must be because it was such a good day that I didn't want to ruin it by studying.

...maybe tomorrow.

(winnae's willpower is so weak)

nostalgia

It's fun when you go back to your old days eh. (: I hope that one day I can be like these guys and have heaps of random stuff to whip out and read and laugh about. (dw steph no swearing in this vid) wongfu productions are the best |: subscribe to them. nao.

ok i had a weird dream last night again (it's becoming so common one could regard it as normal now?).

went to one tree hill to study this afternoon after art cuz house has too many distractions. I memorised my french speech which is presented on wednesday, but I cbs doing vocab and I got distracted by the playground. wow I'm such a kid. got a few weird looks when I started balancing on the rails (getting better ><)... xmas pig list getting bigger, will start after exams. thinking about getting a sewing machine for xmas this year (thinking about starting fashion design |: just see if it suits me.) im going to be y11 next year, so i figured that I should try everything so that I can make the best choices for me and my future >< style="font-style: italic;">"Graduation dinner was really good. I got a silly award for that back-scatterball throwing thingie. ---- from my lcass also got one for bumping into Mrs ----- while walking in a line. y'kno, at the end I nearly cried ... nearly ... I caught myself just in time. I saw ----'s parents, his mum, who I've never seen before (wtf did I write this it makes no sense), ---- told me his parents were divorced so I've only seen his dad before. And now he's asking if he can have my runescape account ... I'll prolly give it to him, I'm going to be in intermediate next year, don't really have enough time for this kind of thing anymore."

(names are censored in case you can't notice haha. and LOL runescape, good times.)

entry 2 - 9th dec 2004
"Hi! today we packed everything to home, and --- gave me this cool pen! (I was writing with it at the time) My swedish penpal got her letter and sent it back to me. Anyways, as we were packing, ---- gave me his stamp thing, (it was this art project we did, we used pastels and designed a stamp A3 size) that kiwi in a suit, now it's hanging in room. it's nearly as cute as he is! (OMFG DYING OF EMBARRASSMENT HERE). LOL. Tomorrow's the big assembly. I have a feeling I'm gonna get something... (psh wow winnie, real modest)

Yes, I was a tard. I'm sorry friends. I have let you down )):

entry 3 - 19th dec 2004

"This has no doubt been the worst summer this century. It has been hailing, raining, there was even a thunder and lightning storm last night. anyway, I have found a few peeps for my aisha to RP with, and they are really cool. Just wondering for the war -- should I kill my money on codestones for training or just give up the whole thing. ANDD, do you like this flashy new ink that I'm writing with, and do you approve my new handwriting? It's neater... easier to fit things in."

This entry will make no sense to anyone who didn't play neopets. And my handwriting was ugly ):

entry 4 - 19th jan 2005

"I made a quiz on quizurfriends, and ----'s like "I can't believe ---- knows most about you" (the ---- mentioned in this quote is the same guy who gave me his stamp) noone except ---- got my best friend question right... whomever is orthy enough to be called my friend is worthy enough to be called my best friend~"

I was a loser. a loserloserloserloserloserloserlsoer gah shoot me now.

SKIPPING FORWARD A FEW MONTHS/YEARS.... -flip flip flip-

HAHAH OMFG I HAVE TO SHOW THIS. MY DREAMS WERE RANDOM WHEN I WAS A KID TOO!

entry 6 - 13th july 2006
"*yawn* just woke up.. had another weird dream with ---- in it dreamt that we were back in MRPS or something, but it was y8s as well lol. And this y3 girl argued with me, saying that a pizza's crust was made from bacteria... and I was high. Then it switched from that to me going on camp and I forgot my togs and my dad gave me $50. Started out on the bus and then we ended up walking with kings boys who were wearing st kents uniforms. and then we got lost in the forest, --- commited suicide cuz she was angry and then I woke up."

PAHAHAHA. don't even ask.

-headdesk- I just found out that karl is looking up runescape fanfics on ff.net. omfg we really haven't gotten any more mature have we.

I think that's enough for now.. errrr don't want to expose me TOO much |: maybe next time.

I know, I'll let you guys request lolol pick a random number in ur comment and ill put that entry in each blog haha.

general update

general update...

I spilt my milk on the carpet today cuz my brother jumped out at me from behind the door while I was carrying it. so annoying. especially since he doesn't even say sorry all he says is 'it's your fault!!!' of course it's never his fault. he always finds some way or another to blame someone else for things he did. even when he doesn't do his homework, he blames it on me saying that i didn't stop him from watching tv. wtf? geez. one day he'll understand and i won't have to deal with this.

armageddon was quite fun, although i didn't say for very long. spent less than last year, bought 4 more markers, a haruhi figure (less than half price $15 - $6 i only bought it cuz it was cheap lolol), 3 mangas (slam dunk vol1, eureka seven vol1 and the complete samurai champloo) and a $10 bleach wallscroll for dirt cheap imported from asia (crap quality, you can see fingerprints probably from some poor sweatshop worker on it but oh well it's a nice wallscroll) and a $10 death note poster for lex.

yesterday mufti day was interesting as well... camera hoar jimin rofl
can you see it? the M O L L Y <3 lol. and of course it's steph behind the camera.

hm exams soon. should really get to work sometime soon.... need to do french speech by tomorrow and theory uggghhhhhhh. why couldn't i have been educated in china and come to nz when im like 16 and be all smart and engrish like.

not in the mood for a big philosophical talk atm.
WE ARE IN THE MATRIX

ok that's all cya. dunno if i'll update before exams again.

normality

nor⋅mal /ˈnɔrməl/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [nawr-muhl]

–adjective

1.	conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.

The world male:female population ratio is 3,360,742,758 males to 3,310,483,706 females, approximately 50 million more males than females.

In this case, the more 'common type' would be male. Therefore, using definition of 'normal', being male is normal and being female is... abnormal?

This just begins to show how retarded the concept of normality is.

If a guy says 'Step out of the norm, be your own person, be unique,' using what I have just worked out above, could be translated to 'Be a girl.'

I'm not just twisting definitions here, if you think about it it actually makes a lot of sense. Normality is a stupid concept, people who look down on people because they're not 'normal' have no argument at all.

If a guy tells you that you're not normal, you can say 'that's right, I'm a girl. =P'
If a girl tells you that you're not normal, you can say 'Just like you, right?'

heh. I thought of this randomly today, but you have to admit that it raises discussion on 'normality'. If normality gives us the right to prevent gay marriage, it also gives us the right to put down females and humans (humans are a minority in terms of animals on earth, eg. ants would be superior in terms of normality).

The funny thing is, in the past when the whole world was sexist towards females, I'm sure that the female:male ratio was something like 52:48. backwards reasoning much?

So to anyone who opposes 'abnormal' people, gay marriage, certain races, animals, certain gender, your logic is completely flawed. Why can't anyone else see this ==;

discuss.

XMAS PIGS

XMAS PIGS

Larger picture of above can be found HERE

For christmas, I'm making my friends xmas pigs. That's why, you need to choose a patter from the above so I can make a pig that you like =D

If you don't, I'll take a random one and make one for you lolol. (only applies for friends who I see regularly or very very close friends who I was going to give pigs anyway. this means that if we're not close and you want a pig this xmas you have to actually come and ask for one specifically >>)

Choose a pattern from the above and either COMMENT ON THIS BLOG ENTRY, MSN, EMAIL, dA or BEBO me.

unclear colours cuz of crap camera so...
A: light purple, lilac
B: yellow
C: brown and white
D: brown and yellow
E: grey black and red
F: green red and black/white
G: brown and pink/red
H: brown and darker brown
I: marroon and white
J: marroon and white
K: green and white
L: red and blue
M: red and green, white, brown.

If you want to see any of these patterns up close ask me and I'll take photos for you

each pig will look like a crap version of this :and will have your name stitched into its ass.

may or may not come with a ribbon tied around the waist, depending on if I go and get some.

The earlier you order the better cuz then I can start making them haha...

as of now G is unavailable unless u want a munted pig because I'm not sure if the fabric is thick enough kk thx, sorry for inconveniences. and IM SORRY IF YOU DON'T LIKE ANY OF THE PATTERNS LOL these were the cheap ones |:

names stitched on asses must be 8 letters or under, if your name is longer than this be prepared to give me a nickname or something

FIRST COME FIRST SERVE. if too many people order the same material the people who ordered first will have priority. please state 2nd or 3rd choice when ordering if you can

Orders: (~ = being made, hasn't been stuffed or otherwise. small text = FINISHED)
Jee: A
YJ: red&white felt
Laina: red felt
Steph: B
Kim: B
Sharon: C or B
Bernie: in order G,B
Roger: G
Karl: white felt
Lucee: black felt
Tonto (aka William): black felt

EunJi: A
Neeshah: orange felt
Shuhua: orange felt

:D PART... 3?!?!?!!?

oh yeah look at this cute pen rui got me from japan. i know you're jealous. especially steph. (see, theres my inner ass). although, the pencil part of it doesnt work lol sad ):

ok, what to blog about.. currently everyone is bored. I know this because currently there are 51 people online on msn. and i know I said that I wouldn't say I was bored anymore but...

GAHHHH IM BORED.

this is probably obvious cuz I've updated THREE times today. I'm not crazy lololol. I should really edit instead, but Iono, they are 3 dif sections after all. maybe today was such a good day that right now just pales in comparison.

ok you know what, I admit it, I just updated to show my pen. LOL. Honestly, I'll edit this later if I get even more bored. but right now I really have nothing else to talk about hahahaha k bye.

:D part 2

The sky was beautiful today.

Went to bernie's house this afternoon and did nothing, saw steph come online and ignored her while playing speed lololol.

later on we went sylvia park and met yj, and she forced us to eat ice cream. I wanted a single scoop vanilla ice cream but apparently it was too 'boring' so she forced me to get a strawberry cream soda which I died over because it was huge and I couldn't finish it and gave the remainder to her to drink. I bet she gave me a size large on purpose so that she could have some. LOL jk.

basically ran around the whole time cuz she was being spastic and trying to hide from terence and tess. then, we walked allllll the way to paknsave and bought moro gold. and walked allllllll the way back to the warehouse. on opposite sides of the mall hahahaha.

the guy who works at crystal mountain ice cream is cute. |: -shot- didn't either of you notice that. his smile is so cute~

ok um... so we went warehouse and yj was trying to find felt (the material, not the pen) and we couldn't find any except for a make a monkey thingie diy craft kit and yj was like omfg someone buy this for steph. except none of us had money hahahah. btw I remember a few years ago bernie was always like omfg stpeh ur so hard to buy a present for!!! except today when we went we were always seeing these random things and being like OMFG PERFECT FOR STEPH!! I think that sometimes when you're looking too hard you blind yourself to what's already there...

remind me to stitch a pig for karl for xmas. in fact, remind me to go and get materials >>;

we started reading those horoscope books in the warehouse and apparently I was supposed to take matters into my own hand, but in certain cases would be better to go with the flow and let others influence my decision. just like how yj forced that cream soda on me ): then after we finished reading that we just read world records. we misread 'longest living dog' as LONGEST LIVING dog instead of LONGEST living dog. we were like wtf it doesn't say how old he is. why are there so many measurements?

hm then bernies mum called and we went back to her house, she hacked my bebo and msn, the end. and I came home and had dinner.

yeah that's all. nothing exciting happened today, really. but it was also one of the best days I've had in a long time. maybe the simple things in life really are the best.

art was good though. yj will know what I mean ;D

:D

I'm so happy.

hm.. late night blog.

hahaha I love being a dork. (: ty laina and yujie~

anyway im not sure what I'm doing updating right now since its like 11.42pm and i updated yesterday already... hm.

just seems like im my worse enemy or something. like the hardest things i have to overcome is because of something i did in the first place... eh.

btw shut up laina&steph i finally got out of my denial about me liking that guy from art ok it's true I admit it now I like him and theres nothing I can do about it. T_T once again, setting myself up for failure. I'm not going to try pull anything on him. But after seeing how he can express himself on paper... I don't know. I'm really touched by the way he writes. This is so corny. Before, I told myself that I would go for him with everything that I've got, but now that I can see who he really is, I'm beginning to go back to how I was before, scared of rejection. I thought that it didn't matter, I was only interested in him, so even if he rejected me I wouldn't be losing that much. but I can see now that every person is more than just a flat screen. I think that now I'll try and be friends first. >>; I HATE HORMONES. WHY DO MINE ALWAYS MAKE ME GO FOR THE MOST UNATTAINABLE GUYS EVER.

I got told I was annoying the other day. not doing too well with my self-esteem here you know.

I figured out what I meant when I said that I have low self-confidence on solo at kahu. I realised that I always try to be the nice girl who everyone likes, and basically I always have to fit the expectations of everyone and be how they expect me to be. I feel dejected and sad, embarrassed even, when I fail to do this or I make someone unhappy. I'm always so cautious about people and how they feel, esp. religion wise, I always feel kind of upset when I slip out something that may be offensive to them. Without their approval of me filling their expectation, I have low self confidence. I feel like I'm nothing if noone likes me. what am I going to do about it? I have no idea. maybe in a month I'll know. Maybe a year, maybe it will take my whole life... but I know that I'll have to change. Even though making everyone happy makes me happy too, sometimes I end up doing things that I don't want to, just to make someone else happy. It's one huge paradox of confusions but maybe one day I'll figure it out.

And I realise that I've been acting like an ass towards certain people at certain times including steph so I'm sorry steph ok. I realised this a long time ago haha and i've been trying to stop but I still notice my inner ass coming out sometimes (OK, THAT SOUNDED REALLY REALLY WRONG AND GROSS LOL BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) so i'm realllyyyy sorry >_<

ok i think that will be all for tonight. I do need my sleep you know, unlike eunji haha ^^; good night bloggers

things i learnt in china

things I learnt in china and things I started thinking about:

1) omfg my relatives are so damn rich. my uncle owns 3 apartments, one of which is a penthouse. in addition to this he drives a $500 000 and his daughter aka my cousin monica is one of the top dancers of her age in the country D: shes 10 btw. my other uncle just bought an apartment (cuz he's younger) and he stays up til 1am every night playing world of warcraft (im not kidding, the guy's like 40 and he still plays WoW like a kid. He even showed me lolll.) they're both so immature haha.

2) taxis in china are all volkswagon. every single one of them, except for 1 i saw in shenzhen but im sure that was an imposter anyway.

3) being an east-west immigrant. perceptions of things are distorted. chicken feet are delicacy in china, gross in nz. why is this? I notice that everyone was spazzing over how much I tanned in china because in the east, the paler you are, the more beautiful. Probably because it means you don't do a hard labour job in the sun all day. However, in the west it's the opposite. The tanner the better, cuz it means you have time to go on holiday. could apply in east as well? no chance, they get like no holiday time a year so... eh. this cultural difference is really annoying for me. I actually quite like being pale but living in nz somehow makes this socially unacceptable, or not unfashionable, or something. well screw your fashions ok I'll go in the sun and tan whenever i want to. which is probably... never!

4) why asian guys are so useless at asking girls out. I did some research and it is blatantly obvious to me that caucasian guys have more testosterone than asian ones. I thought that, maybe in nz, where there are more caucasian guys, the asians are more low in terms of masculinity and therefore act more like girls, which is uncertain about love and relationships and always waiting for the other person to make the first move. I also thought about if this is why there are so many metro guys and why the asian guy's fashion sense is better than a white guy's, having the whole 'asian fashion' thing going on recently.

5) couples that look alike. studies have shown that you are attracted to people like your parents. eg, if you're a girl you're attracted to people who are like your dad and if you're a guy you're attracted to people like your mum. since they're your parents you have the same genes, and if you're attracted to people like your parents, they may end up looking like your parents and therefore like you as well. that is how i explan couples that look alike. (:

6) the one child policy in china is completely defunct if you have octuplets.

7) school in china is actually really cool. I dunno why but I can't help but wonder what I would've turned out like if i was in china since I was born. know the workload is huge, but I think that since you do it regularly you will eventually become used to it...

8) the reason why people think the years go by faster when they're older may be because their brain is aging, but I don't see how this is so because when you're 15 your brain is still developing yet you feel like the years are flying by compared to when you were 5. I have a theory that it's because a year takes up a smaller part of your life each year. think about it, when you were 5, a year is 1/5, 20% of your life. However, by the time you're 15, a year is only 1/15, 6.7% of your life. Because it is smaller, it seems like it is a shorter time and it passes by much faster. A year is nothing to a 60 year old, as they have lived through 60 of them already, but it is the world to a 2 year old. Maybe this has some educational basis, probably not, but I just found it interesting...

ok i think there was more but thats all i can think of at this late hour.

Being there made me think a lot actually. I decided that I was gonna give everything a good go and try to enjoy life as much as I can. Even when I feel bored or life is boring, or something isn't going right, I'm going to try and do something about it. Instead of saying 'I'm bored' I realised that it would be much more productive and logical to actually do something that isn't boring (wow, I can't believe it took me 15 years to come to this conclusion).

Also, I can't help but wonder what's happened to everyone I've ever met. What they're doing now, what kind of life they lead. Even people you see for just an instant, or people you talk to once. From now on I'll always think of what other people are feeling, or think about where they might be, what they might be doing and what they might be thinking. Because, even if it's the cute guy on the subway who made eye contact with me for 2 seconds or the waiter at the restaurant who complimented my art and I'll never see again, or even that creepy shopkeeper (PEDO) at the mall who kept trying to flirt with me, they've all made an impression on my life, no matter how tiny. Even the people I walk past on the street and never take notice of, if they hadn't been there, my life would have been different at that very moment. There will always be people who, you realise, would never have been in your life if not for one moment, one coincidence. It's a scary thought. What would my life have turned out like if ___ had not happened, etc. I think that i'm starting to appreciate others and how they have shaped me now. Without them, I'm nothing. Without you, I'm nothing.

china china china

hm well I'm in china now (obviously). rather than bore you with recollections of the past 2 weeks I'll just write whats on my mind.

I had a surprisingly good day today. I was expecting to be bored all day cuz we were going to visit my great aunt and my parents' university where I was born and grew up for 3 years. But, it turned out to be a worthwhile visit cuz it's quite interesting to see and hear all the weird stuff you did when you were little. I took a few photos in the exact same places where I took photos 12 years ago, and I saw the place where I learnt to walk haha. Man I was such a cute kid, wtf happened in these 12 years @_@

Afterwards, we went to my mum's friend's place and basically I got lectured on how her daughter (who's like 2 years older than me) just sat her SATs and is studying upstairs, so hardworking etcetc and talented cuz she's got grade 8 piano already (PRO.) so I decided that I'll have to try my hardest as well. (: she seems to have everything organised and knows exactly what she wants to do and where she wants to go for uni (even had arguments with her mum about which state has the best universities in america).

We had dinner in a restaurant across the road. I was mindlessly drawing since my brother used all the battery in my ds. One of the waiters saw me and was all like 'hey your art is pretty good...' I was actually really touched cuz he told me how he used to be really into art as well but he was always too messy so he used pencil and eraser instead of straight on pen (which is what I was doing, because I like the feel of pen rofl). My mum showed him a picture of yujie's cat which she took with her phone camera and he was impressed, started going on about my future hahaha and how I should eat at the restaurant again so that they can be famous and say 'we served this famous person here' when I'm famous. Thinking about that future made me think about what I really want to do with my life. I started wondering why he became a waiter if he liked drawing so much...

anyway, I still haven't thought it through completely yet, but hopefully I can continue to use my ugly, hairy and stubby-pinkied hands to create more and more beautiful things (:

wood or lino is better than carpet

Wood or lino > carpet.

this is because of several reasons:

1) wood or lino does not require a vacuum cleaner to clean. not only does this mean less electricity use and is thus better for the environment but it also means that you don't have to invest in an expensive vacuum cleaner and use your money elsewhere.
2) wood or lino gives you a bruise if you skid along it whereas carpet gives you a flesh wound which will hurt in the shower
3) wood or lino does not stain from food etc
4) wood or lino looks more modern
5) wood or lino does not have risk of ticks or fleas
6) wood or lino doesn't catch dust etc and trigger allergic reactions
7) if you want carpet because it's more comfortable to walk on or something you can purchase a rug. there is no such thing as a lino or wooden rug. if you have wood or lino floors you also have the option of purchasing a carpet rug but not the other way around!
8) wood or lino is easy to mop and clean. you need to purchase a carpet cleaner or hire a professional to wash your carpet.
9) wood or lino will not get dust tan lines over the years (you'll know what I mean if you have a carpet floor and have had a sofa sitting on it for a long time. when you move the sofa you see a 'dust tan line' where the carpet that was covered by the sofa is lighter than the carpet that wasn't.
10) wood or lino does not dent when you put something heavy on it and leave an unattractive mark for the next person using your room
11) wood or lino is less expensive to install

For these above reasons I don't see why anyone would want to have carpet floors in their house. In addition to being more practical and cheap, it is also better for the environment and our health. Of course there will be controversy over which is more aesthetically pleasing but the fact remains that in the other areas wood or lino flooring is a much better choice for your home as opposed to carpet.

And no, I'm not just saying this because I had to vacuum the whole house this morning, whatever gave you that idea?

On a side note, I have a flight tonight at 11pm to shanghai so I won't be around for a while. enjoy your lives without me haha~

kahuwut.

Standing on Old Girls' porch
We thought that it would last forever
And if we had a choice
Yeah, you know we'd all wanna stay here
This was the best month of my life

50 mosquito bites
7 sisters
5 lost socks
1 pair of lost long johns
2 guitars
1 river
2 tramps
1 freezing night in the bush
1 sea kayak
23 girls
8 instructors
28 days

There's my recount of my camp. It was life-changing and unforgettable. I don't think I can recount about it will do it justice, so I won't even try.

I don't think I've cried so much in my life. I don't know what it was, after hugging Mr W and him telling me 'Good luck with your future'... I had this sudden revelation that in my future, for the rest of my life, I would never again see any of these people who had changed it. They'd never see the results of their work and inspiration for me. I just broke down. As I walked back to the house to get my last few belongings I wasn't sure if I was crying or laughing. I was choking, kept getting air stuck in my windpipe. I hugged Gina and left. Because I was crying and I couldn't see straight I went to the right down the driveway and into the car instead of going straight and receiving my steph hug so I'm sorry steph. Seems like I'll never get one. Just bad coincidences. it's not meant to be ): I'll never get a steph hug.

I also forgot to pick up my confiscated goods worth $11 in cash. Thankfully kim got it for me. I'm glad someone remembered me.

I know everyone will forget me. That's ok. I think from now on I'm just going to try my best for myself.

Thank you and goodnight. Maybe I will do a recount later, maybe not. I don't feel like it right now.