Adults are human too

As we grow up, we start to realise that everybody is human, everybody is equal. People who we thought were all-knowing, the teachers, our parents, the adults of the world, seem so much less significant. We understand that they are nothing special anymore, that they are just as uncertain as we are, that there was never any safety net for us to fall onto even though we felt so secure with their decisions before.

When we were younger, their word was law. If a grown up told us that 2+2=5, then it must be true. We never resisted, they knew more than us. We succumbed, because we thought everything they said was correct.

As we grow up, we realise that the world is not painted in black and white. There is no right or wrong. A million shades of grey flash before our confused eyes every day, and nobody knows what to do about it. There are people who try to make sense of it all, to perhaps categorise the greys into darker and lighter, and eventually into black and white. But others, like me, believe that it just can't be done. grey is grey, no matter how you look at it...

But that's a scary thought. Adults aren't all knowing. So where does that leave us? We don't have anything to fall back on anymore. It's up to us to create our own morals, decisions. We can't turn to them to make our decisions for us anymore. They know as much as we do and, in certain cases, perhaps less. It certainly makes me feel extremely insecure in my decision making to know that even my parents aren't sure about what they want for me, about what I should have for myself.

Or sometimes, the flipside occurs and they make decisions for you that you don't want. You know that they've made a mistake, a common human error, since they're as human as you are... but they are adults. We are merely teenagers; they still hold power over us in this world. What then?

I always thought that my parents were pretty perfect. I always thought they had the perfect morals, their word was law, everything in the world was exactly as they said. But lately I think I'm realising that they are human too, and the corruptions of humanity affects them as well. ...Adults are no saints. Lately I realised just how much some of my parents ideals and morals go against my own. But what can I do? I'm just a kid in their eyes.

I won't complain about them. Whenever I do, people agree with me and I get pissed off because I think, what right do you have to critisize my parents? But then again I brought it upon myself I suppose. It seems like a lot of parents are this way though. Humans eh? I still love my parents. But that's why it bothers me so much... something that I can't control. Aaah I feel so useless.

It's a paradox, they want me to do something, but for all the wrong reasons... so do I do it? I want to do it too, but for myself, not for them. I don't want to do it so they can fulfill their reasons for wanting me to do it... but why would I sacrifice myself for them? Yet, if I do succeed, I'll be happy but at the same time it's cancelled out because they won as well. ...Looks like it's always gonna be lose-lose for us kids.

I guess we just have to wait our turn.

yujie made me.

THREE WAYS I AM STILL A KID:
1. I play pokemon (yeah play as in present tense)
2. I love lego :D
3. I still watch cartoons and animated pixar disney films.

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:
1. I'm 16. Old enough.
2. EXAMS IN 14 DAYS
3. I'm old enough to not be able to get childs fares and kids packs when I go on flights ):

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO:
1. Be young forever (I think 17 or 18 seems like an optimal age) and be IMMORTAL HAHAHAHA.
2. Make pancakes
3. GO TO MIT. omg.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "BOY"
1. My room is so messy that my parents refer to me as a boy =_=
2. I know the lyrics to taylor swift songs. Yes, this is in the right section
3. I like having short hair.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL "GIRL"
1. I have two X alleles
2. I like pretty things and cute things (:
3. Taylor Lautner is hot.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Driving by myself >> maybe if I get my restricted...
2. Calc schol. Yes I am going to die.
3. STUDYING :D

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I suck so much at certain things that it's actually entertaining to other people to see my fail. Whatever makes your day (:
2. I'm not stupid. Sometimes.
3. I am extremely, extremely lucky. Well I think so. (:

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I tend to be arrogant haha
2. I'm stupid. A lot of the time.
3. I don't work hard enough ><

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Born in GZ, like 234092843 other people
2. came to NZ when I was 3
3. - ...i have a boring heritage

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Being alone
2. Dying
3. Solar powered lamps at night

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Food and water
2. Oxygen
3. Clothing

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Lick my elbow
2. Read people's minds
3. Like fruits

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Science/engineering
2. Architecture
3. Assassin/ninja

TEN things you wish you could say to ten people right now: (no specific order)
this section got deleted when my post failed and i cbs doing it again

EIGHT ways to win my heart
1. Understand
2. Accept things as they are
3. Be honest
4. Make me laugh
5. Teach me things
6. Intelligence
7. Being goodlooking and tall never hurt anyone
8. Or rich... -gold digger-

ELEVEN people who mean a lot to you (In no order):
1. Family
2. Mollies
3. Friends who are not mollies
4. People I have heard of
5. Strangers I see on the street
7. Everybody else in the world
8. Aliens
9. Extra-universal aliens
10. The creator of the universe
11. Max and mariel. (they made me)

FIVE things that cross your mind a lot
1. That ____ is _____
2. I'm bored. what should I be doing...
3. When's lunch
4. I'm tired
5. I wonder ______ (insert random thought here. I solved the mule cloning thing btw.)

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Charge my phone
2. Turn off the lights
3. Take off my glasses
4. Mental check list of everything that I need to do the next day when I wake up.

THREE songs that mean something to you:
1. I'm yours, Jason Mraz
2. Light Surrounding You, Evermore
3. Bai se feng che, Jay Chou

TWO confessions:
1. I am actually a man.
2. That was a lie.

ONE thing you're thinking about right now:
1. What did Mr. Chemistry just say? (totally studying atm)

Do you have a busy weekend coming up?
studystudystudystudy...

Does it make you mad when people stare?
Nope. A bit unnerving though.

How did you get your last bruise?
I walked into an iron bar

What are you doing Thursday?:
Going to school and then I have a dentist's appointment (:

Who is your last text message from?:
Billy

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Nah it's alllg (: I say hi back. maybe we can be friends.

What do you find most beautiful?
Life is beautiful, if you appreciate it.

I am manly.

cosplaying morinozuka takashi from ouran high school host club, armageddon 09 sunday. I have glasses in this photo cuz im blind, but I think during the day I took them off for photos and stuff (: IM MANLIER THAN YOU. overall it was an awesome experience. A lot of people just came up to me and asked for hugs or photos. I felt very approachable ^^ But... I got mistaken for Sherry 3 times during the day.. it was quite flattering hahaha she's way prettier than me @_@

most frequently said phrases said during the day include 1) "This is not my real hair" 2) "I'm not Sherry" and 3) "I'm not really this tall!!!" Tammy made me wear her 10cm high platforms cuz the real mori is supposed to be like 6 foot hahaha

Watched the cosplay chess, ran into ming and jaever, then went to have photoshoot in the stands (: got blinded by the huge light reflector.. gahhh it was so hot. Then I left the cosplay group to walk around and went to hang out with allan and tony and their friends. Will walked past me 3 times looking for me. Apparently he couldn't recognise me. TOO MANLY. Watched allan's friends play magic.. went to buy slushies which sufficed for lunch, and then left them to rejoin the ouran group and hold panel.

Totally had to wing the panel cuz nobody told me I would be doing it... but it's okay, mori is silent so all I had to do was sit there being silent. quiet characters ftw!!

After panel, Tony'd left and I thought everyone else had left too... so I walked around for a while and went around with some Y8s from st cuths and kelly, who spilt ketchup over my blazer hahaha thank god that was AFTER panel :D she wouldn't stop apologising but oh well.. accidents happen. Then I left them and walked around cuz I wanted to look around cuz I had no idea where anything was (new layout is confusing...) and saw ming (kim's brother's friend) at the pokemon stand. I asked if I could have a poster. He said no. ):

Then allan and his friends ran into me while I was watching pokemon game... and basically spent the whole afternoon playing rockband/band hero and running around trying to find free stuff and getting tired, collapsing in chair and watching them play magic the gathering and finally going home.

OMG WHAT A TIRING DAY. but it was fun. way better than last year (: looking forward to next year.

this blog entry

...is a good indication of how I am (not) studying for exams. nonetheless, I can't resist showing this kumon english answer that my dear brother has crafted:

note how he started writing 'hardcore' but then stopped for a better word... 'godmode'. I loled so hard when I was marking this.

other than the small things in life that make me oh-so-entertained, exams start tomorrow @__@ and I have PSATs on saturday. SATurday, as steph wisely noticed. I will never look at saturdays in the same way again ):

now that the bus lockout/strike is over, I am slightly happier (: but, the weather compensated and it poured down today. The weather report says that it will be sunny tomorrow, which is good. I will be happy when doing my french exam (: I really should study the vocab and structures for it but alas, I am tired and it feels like friday...

ms binedell wants me to do that uni maths thing that kim had today )))): IM GOING TO FAIL AND DIE. it's like no matter what I do maths is going to come and eat me. if I do ncea, I have to do this uni thing. and if I do ib, HL maths is going to tear me apart T__T AAAAAA

okay seriously I'm going to get off now. because I totally need to study >>;
-goes on msn-

2 weeks in the past...

Hm. Well, as many of you know, I got back from the USA this morning (ie. the past, 20 hours behind us). Kinda sucks though, we missed the mid-autumn festival and went straight from friday --> sunday. no mooncake ):

All in all it was a pretty fun trip. We moved around every 2 days or so cuz my parents were resolute that we would visit as many of their friends and famous universities as possible. Thus, this is a very broad overview of what happened:
Saturday: flew to Los Angeles. Arrived Saturday (US) around midday.
Saturday (in US): flew to Chicago. Arrived at night
Sunday: Went to see university of chicago, went around the city, had sushi for dinner. :D
Monday: Northwestern university, flew to Boston in the afternoon.
Tuesday: Harvard in the morning, MIT in the afternoon (I'm in love with this place, will expand later. xP)
Wednesday: My crazy father decided that he could rent a car and drive to New York (traffic laws in USA are VERY different). Stopped off at Brown and Yale on the way.
Thursday: Walked around NYC like the whole day without a purpose
Friday: Ditto.
Saturday: flew to San Francisco. Visited Stanford. Didn't get much out of it because it's closed on weekends and it was 103 degrees (38-39 celcius) so I didn't really care for walking around campus as much as finding a room with air con.
Sunday: Took one of those double decker open top tour buses around SF, went across golden gate bridge woooooooo it's so windy it feels like a theme park ride.
Monday: Flew to Las Vegas. Even hotter than San Francisco was that day. Stayed in hotel for remainder of the afternoon and went out on the strip at night.
Tuesday: Tour trip to grand canyon. Was carsick and disappointed after 5 hours drive.
Wednesday: Dad drove down to Los Angeles. Hotel had free internet :D
Thursday: Universal studios! It was very hot that day as well. not sure on actual numbers but I recall it was 90s-100 (30 degrees upwards) I have a very prominent sock tan to prove it.
Friday: Caltech and UCLA during the day, and then flew back to NZ~ and now I'm here.

Hm, in terms of schools, as mentioned above, I really liked MIT. it's mainly encased in a huge mazelike building but ehhh, the nerd culture that seems to radiate off the walls of that place is like a magnet to me ): It will be a sad day when I get rejected because it's too elite for me. 3500 international students applying ---> 100 accepted. gahhhh no chance at all.

Apart from that, Caltech also has a similar nerd culture (dipping pumpkins in liquid nitrogen at halloween and throwing them off their 10 storey high library to try to reenact the oil drip experiment, etc etc..), and I liked UCLA/Northwestern as well. The ivy leagues didn't really make much of an impression on me. Maybe it was because I joined the wrong tour on Yale and ended up following a college art history class around the campus =__= I kept wondering why he kept going on about the 'neo-gothic architecture in contrast to the neo-classical and modernist styles of other buildings' but ehhhh it was educational I suppose. Til he kicked me out hahaha :D well he could've told me earlier.

now most of these universities have an average of 700-800 in each part of the SAT. (the max is 800) I tried to do a practice exam on the plane (I know, very cool) and I got 710 in writing, 670 in math and 580 in critical reading DDD: THERE ARE SUCH LONG WORDS! I don't know what most of them mean. my vocabulary is so bad =__= I must utilise roxy's word of the day from now on.

I have gotten used to the american accent! in fact, when I got on the plane last night (er, or 2 nights ago, however you want to look at it) and the pilot had such a strong NZ accent it actually sounded strange to me D: blehh I don't like the NZ accent.

My parents. We come out to a different country and you know what we have for dinner every night? chinese. Yuppp... =__= and when there were no good chinese restaurants around, no worries! instead of going to have nice food at an italian or japanese etc restaurant (both of which they do eat), we'll just go to a bad chinese takeaway with white people rice! D:

One night in a restaurant the swan lake theme (composed by tchaikovsky) started playing. I could hear the 20-somethings on the table next to us...
"omg what's this song? I've heard it somewhere"
"it sounds like harry potter"
"I think it's star wars."
"WHAT? hahahaha that's not star wars."
....
I think they should make a star wars musical. It would be cool. Luuuu-u-u-u-ke~ I am your faaaaaaa... aaaaaaaaaa.. THEEERRRRRRR!! (doo doo)

Let's talk about fancy hotels!! I guess the one that takes the cake here is the Trump that we stayed in in Las Vegas. It's so posh and 5-star that it doesn't have rooms with 2 beds. So, my brother dibbed the bed that was several 10 times bigger than him and instead I got to slept on the sofa bed. Even that was quite comfortable. If that's not enough, the bathroom there was about the size of my garage, and it had a TV SCREEN IN THE MIRROR. Heck, yes. there was also a hot tub that I never had time to take full advantage of but gahhhh so posh!! I wouldn't mind living there =P I wonder what their penthouse suite looks like...

hmmm we also did a lot of shopping because stuff is a lot cheaper and nicer in USA. At one stage my mum bought so many pairs of shoes and made me carry them that a lady came up to me and asked me a question assuming that I worked at the shop @___@


sigh, tbh it's kinda boring to be back. The weather here is so cloudy. It didn't rain any of the days I was there. NOT ONCE. Then I come back here and hear about some tsunami and earthquake and how it's been hailing and raining for the last 2 weeks. ):

OH YEAH. I managed to get my craft knife on internation flight from auckland to LA, from LA to Chicago, Chicago to Boston, New York to San Francisco just fine, and have it confiscated when we were flying LA back to Auckland. WHAT? Lapse in continuity of austerity of procedures much?

ugh. I guess that's it. 6 plane rides, 6 cities, 8 universities, a broken camera, many hours lost and gained overcoming jetlag later, I'm back home and I guess that's what matters =P
happy studying for exams everyone~

might somehow get some photos up after I get the memory card of that broken camera @_@

UGH

Why am I so arrogant?
Why is it so hard to say a simple 'sorry'?!

life is full of colour

Life can't be divided into black and white... it's a blend of infinite shades of grey and infinite hues of colour...
Sometimes you get a strange mixture of colours that you may not like
Or sometimes you can choose what colours you want in your life
but unlike if it was black and white, if you chose white then black could be tossed aside, when you choose your colour in life, the other colours are still there, co-existing.

I cried tonight. It was a mixture of sadness, or happiness, I don't know. Sometimes laughing made me cry, but in a sad way. Why do choices always mean that we can only choose to go one way? We will never know what would have happened if we walked the other path, if things would have turned out better, or worse, or made no difference in the long run. And just because we choose A over B, doesn't mean that B is not important at all... it's as if you are made to choose between losing your foot or losing your hand. Either way it's gonna be painful for you, right?

But I think that this is one of things that makes life beautiful as well... It could be 'better', more 'happy' if we didn't have to make choices like these... but it's good to experience a little pain as well. it's useless to tell somebody to 'stop crying, just be happy' when they are crying. just let everyone cry a little. cry away all the bad things, so you are left happy. it's bad to hold things in. what is happiness if we have never experienced sadness? it's not bad to feel sad. It may feel awful, but I think it's important to relish the feeling one gets when they are sad, to fully experience life and all that it offers. Why fight something natural? There is nothing wrong about crying... why does it make people so uncomfortable? Holding it in is going to be more painful in the long run...

Keep track of the not so distant future. Things that you are sad about now may sometime in the near future make you happy again. It's important to look forward to these times and fully enjoy them as much as you can, no holding back... Well, that's what I hope my future to turn out like anyway.

a september springtime~

winter of 2009 is over at last~ I have to say, today I had a really good day, it was pretty much one of those perfect days where nothing that happens can make you sad. Spring actually came pretty early this year, the picture above was taken about 2 weeks ago, beautiful spring bloom~ but now all those flowers have actually fallen and now all that's there are weird looking green leaves but ANYWAY, I am totally not a loser for taking a picture and saving it for 2 weeks, waiting for the right occasion...

Springtime represents a lot of things, including new beginnings and the end of some arduous months. I hope that my springtime can be like this too (: Well, I think I experience some mild form of SAD anyway (seasonal affectedness disorder, when you don't get enough seratonin from the sun so the brain itself its not stimulated enough, causing a dreary, depressed feeling) and I find that every winter I get wayyy more depressed than I do in the summer. So, for another half a year hopefully that doesn't happen and I can enjoy life~

This year has actually gone pretty fast. You know, this time last year I was down at Kahunui in 2nd week of hell (2nd week is the week where our house had all the emotional breakdowns due to food)... mannnn it feels like yesterday... kinda miss it but don't at the same time. Certainly an unforgettable experience in any case D: wonder how Maria's doing down there right now... but T___T I MISS CHINA.. almost been a year now wahhh time goes by so fast. Have I really changed that much in this year? I feel like I've matured a lot and yet not at all. Sigh == why must growing up be so hard... no other species has a teenager stage of their life cycle. (yes I was reading new scientist again, so sue me.)

Oh yeah, today after dinner I felt like eating fried eggs. So, I fried some eggs. It turned out to be a success I suppose... well, I ate them and they were delicious and I'm still all right, but I somewhat fail at flipping them over =/ it was originally gonna be one huge fried egg with 3 eggs so it looks like 2 eyes and a mouth, BUTTT since I'm fail and cooking it all disintegrated ): oh well, still tasty. Now that I think about it I should've made them sunny side up, if only to also have some kind of obscure hidden message about the coming of more days of sunlight 8D -totally not a nerd for bringing in hidden messages to fried eggs-

My mood today was pretty much all due to the sun being so nice and out, and the clouds not really covering it up... The sun really does bring about a lot of cheeriness doesn't it? let's all enjoy the coming of the summer sun together :D

English is a crazy language

English is a crazy language
by Charlie Indelicato

Let's face it -- English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant
nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins
weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are
candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is
neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't
groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the
plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index,
2 indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend, that you
comb through annals of history but not a single annal? If you have a bunch
of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preacher praught? If a vegetarian eats
vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps
you bote your tongue?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum
for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and
play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that
run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and
wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while
quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be hot as hell
one day and cold as hell another.

Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are
absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a
sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who
was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those
people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house
can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out
and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the
creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a race at all). That
is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are
out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but
when I wind up this essay, I end it.

jamie / yb/ tians party

it was a fun day c:
sucks that its monday tomorrow

im so tired D:

as I begin this blog...

...I have nothing in mind to write about whatsoever. well... I'm feeling somewhat melancholy. had a pretty good dmc on msn a few minutes ago... Life is going really fast. Next year we will be 6th formers already. It's been over a decade since we started school as 5 year olds. I feel like a big chunk of my childhood is already missing somehow. When we look back to our childhoods and we feel the nostalgia, I somehow feel like I thought it would last forever. but it didn't; it's over now. I thought I told myself to stop thinking about the past and look to the future instead, but it's too hard because every minute that I spend thinking about the future becomes the past and it's another 60 seconds disappeared that I will never have again... even if it's something little, it makes me feel so, so sad. After all the future is full of uncertainties. If we spend our time thinking about what could be, we would never stop thinking, since there are too many possibilities. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life away... but yet at the same time I have nothing else I want to be doing instead of this life I feel like I'm wasting... maybe I just don't want to grow up, don't want to move forward? I want to be able to enjoy myself forever like this. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind freezing time, if it means I would stay forever in this world. I don't think I could ever get bored of life. My biggest regret when I die will be not being able to live to see the world move on... I'm going to feel like I'm missing so much. Like a movie that you leave in the middle of and never watch again, you will never stop wondering what happened. But we'll be dead, you say... we'll never know what became of the world we departed. But that doesn't change my feelings about how I would feel after my death if I was still conscious before I die... (did that make sense? I think I will have lost everybody by now...)

human emotions are so complex. the above sounds so emotional, so depressed but it's the truth about what I feel. It will never change. Yet I can still live on my life and not think about it, remaining rather content, but when it comes up, my mood changes immediately. but should I ignore what makes me sad even if it's part of who I am? is it better to be ignorant after all? there seems to be pros and cons for everything... making choices is getting harder and harder.

but in spite of all this some things are just heartwarming no matter what. (:

boredom = makeup?

some things I learnt today in my boredom...
a) one should not try to wash off eye makeup without makeup remover, especially with soap. yes I am obviously a genius
b) mascara and eyeliner sucks to wash off
c) weenie fails at makeup

tbh I think i look better with my glasses on =.= notice dark rings around eyes less.. but you can hardly see the dif if I uploaded one with glasses since I'm still too scared to play around with blue/green eyeshadow lol so I stick to browns/reds/pinks

in addition to that >>; I'd like to ask peoples opinion about this dress:
it's a paula ryan long skirt that strunk in the wash so my mum gave it to me and I somehow got enough creativity to make it into this dress.. tbh I haven't done anything to it lol just pulled it up and added a belt. I'd have to add some padding for boobs (lmao) if I was going to make this and stretch it a bit cuz the lining is coming out the bottom (which you can't really tell in this picture) but I dunno... i kinda like how it hangs out but it's not really a good look if you know it's lining lol. if you don't know it's lining it just looks like 2 layer dress? what do you guys think =/ I might replace the belt with ribbon or whatever, something nice. the belt I'm using the photo above is a brown leather buckle one.

also my laptop battery is nearing the end of its life ): so I'm taking this opportunity to build a new computer. well, I hope so at least. this will also make me keep my desk tidy so all attention will be directed towards the shiny sexy looking new computer that I'm gonna build =P it'll be leet if I actually end up doing it. my dad agreed to help fund it for me IF I keep my room tidy lmao... talk about motivation

I'm not gonna think about ib or ncea til the summer holdiays I think. I need to get through my ncea exams without distractions so I can use the summer holidays to think things through clearly. right now I'll just go with the flow with doing ib and if I change my mind later I hope I'll still be able to at the beginning of next year when everyone's switching subjects and stuff.

I guess life's going okay actually =/ other than the huge amounts of homework lately (there hasn't been a single evening this term when I haven't had homework. it's insane.) sigh, term 3 sure is hectic.

my life is boring so I have nothing else to say hahahahahahaah.
zzz
=.=

DOUJIN OVERLOAD 2009

above: angela and the band, performing "god knows" from melancholy of haruhi suzumiya, although it's not like you can tell the dif between songs in a photo but still. she's really good at singing~~ i had it stuck in my head all day lolol

it was even more epic than last year. probably because I was actually exhibiting this year =D it was so much fun, thanks to everyone who stopped by to look at my stuff or buy it ^^~ I was next to kera-doll (nicole) who was really nice and simply awesome to be beside (: her keychains were so cute~~ anyway, so I got there at 7.30am, almost got lost but then a worker took us there by elevator (fancyyyy) and I set up, halfway through I realised that I didn't have enough table space for my A3 posters... so I went to ask them if I could use the other half and to my surprise it was actually mine for use since rocky couldn't make it... but o well thanks to her not being there I had enough table space har har har =D actually I didn't take any pictures of my own table LOL, I hope someone else has pictures.

I saw a lot of people who came to support, eg. steph and tash, julia and her 'little brother' LMAO, rui, will & terry, and yj and jamie. thanks so much (: I also met a lot of new people eg. sam, rex, tyler, annaleisa and her brother jeffery who has an awesome signature that looks like pi because his initials are JT =D thanks for the drawing~ it was awesome to meet you guys (: also met rebecca and michelle who were awesome too~ I want those pictures guys lolol. also of course saw fellow artists eg. rebecca, kaylee and amanda~

I think what made it really awesome for me was just the people and the atmosphere, everyone was so great, esp in the afternoon after lunch when rui, yj, will, terry and jamie were pretty much manning my store with me (yes, 6 people on 3 chairs). when yj and jamie brought me lunch I went outside and sat on the ground like a hobo eating bk. yes I did get a lot of stares but shhhh >> i'm cool

also it's interesting from the vendors point of view because you notice things like the sorts of buyers.. some people stop to look, linger and then carry on, some strike up conversation, and some give you money and take the item without saying anything at all haha. there were 2 girls who fought over the vongola guardians original lineart I had for sale and I didn't know whos money to take @__@ in the end I just took the one with the $10 cuz it meant I didn't have to give change.. aaa I feel bad for the other girl tho.

also there was a guy who wanted to know about DO and similar events and how I knew about them. I dunno why he asked me of all people but I gave him the animenz website address lol XD tbh I hear about it from word of mouth mainly so I wasn't really sure what to tell him...

in terms of profit, I made $6.80. (man that sucks, you say). well I also spent over 100 bucks on pretty things (below) AND I treated terry/will/jamie/yj/rui to dinner afterwards because I'm so nice. it was an EPIC experience so that's all I needed, money wasn't really my aim. I thought I made a deficit actually so it's nice that I actually come out with some extra money hahahaha

well yeah, we had sushi for dinner in a food court, then I treated everyone to dessert lmao. then we went to yifans and did sticker photos and watched terry and will fail at ddr, watch will and terry die from exhaustion and then catch the bus home. yay~

and ofc sometime during this time yj became very happy, but that's not my story to tell =P congrats~

EYECANDIES YOU ASK?


above: new posters: reborn boys by amanda, hitsugaya by pauline, k-on's ritsu and mio by bane (came free with a sketchbook), 2 magnets by pauline, orange original char print by pauline (came free with poster), chrome by yuna
above: clockwise from top left, "The Scrap Book 2009" by bane, "Worlds Apart" by hiyaku studio, "Paper Birds" by kaylee, "Radio On 88.69" by matsuo-lenn (I bought an extra copy for rocky's birthday since she can't be there...), "Superscenic" by collateral damage x tera (beautiful music + beautiful art makes this the most expensive thing I bought.. but it was so, so worth it D:), "Bubble Tea" by rebecca and michelle and "Adolescence" by aiki-ame and marxwyn. in addition to this there is also a byakuya pin that was given free with kaylee and amanda's business card and 5 CUTE PHONE CHARM things from nicole DD: they are seriously adorable, I got luke, klavier, seychelles, trucy and apollo 8D

well theres the conclusion of DO2009. ROLL ON 2010!! It's going to be twice as epic =D

july 12th

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1. will, bear and piggy soft toys (:
2. carmen, a cuteee bear basket filled with lollies~~ can't see it in this photo since it's still unwrapped but it's cute =D
3. eunji - a pair of socks lolol, a hairtie and a wizard of oz notebook (:
4.vicky, a box of roses and a cute eraser and pencil~
5. neeshah, a basket drawer thing EDIT--- found out it's from jacky THANKS (:
10. julia - a little build it yourself cake sculptures X3 I got the chessboard haha it's really cute but I can't work out how to melt the glue to stick on the pieces haha
11. jimin - a piece of brownie wrapped in tinfoil and a palm tree necklace =D
12. steph - 20 bucks and an awesome card TYVM lololol all the memories
13. roger - 20 bucks and a few movies on his usb which I have to return later, I am legend, forest gump, watchmen, monsters vs aliens and knocked up. (:
14. yujie - juggling balls/hacky sacks and a fan =D just what I asked for tyvm <333 haul ="D">:D

mann today was fun. 2 hours was really short >< thanks to everybody who came, hope everyone had a lot of fun... a lot of people didn't come which left some people as loners-ish but everyone made a new acquaintance I guess.

will and tony are losers for playing arcade games while at ice skating. =P everyone had fun watching yj put snowballs down shirt hurhurhur. never saw it coming.... grats to harim and kenji for winning races, there were a lot of falls... but yeah all in all a pretty good day I guess. heaps of randoms, mainly jonathan's friends lol but pro. for everyone who stayed afterwards for cake you guys are awesome (: esp the losers who refused to eat cake coughrogerandarkarcough, I feel very satisfied after making you eat it.

and TIAN wooooo he went on the ice. that's accomplishment enough for him XD everyone was mixing really well lol I got confused in the beginning cuz I thought "wtf I thought they didn't know each other..." but yeah it's good that everyone talked to everyone (:

hm, only feel once today cuz will pushed me lolol. but then he caught me. but then he dropped me and i dragged down kim and we all fell 8D yuppp pretty cool. ice is slippery.

hope everyone enjoyed their day anyway... imma go watch some movies now =P

picspam & various other things

^^^ the bookmarks for DO (: theres only 4 of each right now tho I really need to photocopy. speaking of arts, I need to get some magic tape to start my painting, but I have the feeling that I'm just going to flag and start painting without magic tape >> resulting in an extremely messy painting but EHHH i'll try to be careful but I just really cbs looking for tape since it appears to be extremely elusive and rare in convience stores according to what i've heard from steph.


birthday party on sunday and I still haven't bought anything for yj/kim/shu/ej (FEBRUARY)/steph (APRIL)/bernie(APRIL). I think I'm doing rather well don't you? the above are presents from will. very sneaky of him, giving me my presents before HIS birthday so I would feel extra pressure to give him his on time. ): blahhh no time.

also I got conned into proofreading my cousin's 94 page long masters degree thesis. it went like this: "hey can you proofread some of my writing I don't think my english is entirely correct." thinking it was some little article I accepted. I feel somewhat cheated. =/ welll I'm almost halfway through it.. 40/94..

my mum bought this nescafe italian cappucino coffee powder. it tastes nice =D I think I might be addicted to coffee by now... I've eaten like half the tin >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFccgzpZL8thGFScUbM4Zmn3DRYQsw2EusWIQvkzQgZM_W-Kakj76angRbZD0xhBEQuLS7BB43hR7gA6y060qsC2xcjY6ShGa5vrTiZvNyzxdTAPZgAn926adCuvsfbxrGGug-rGyh4INs/s1600-h/orz.jpg">my last braceless photo of teeth for a few years. ): blehhh I'm not even scared of the pain but I'm pretty sure braces will be ugly on me D: