UGH

Why am I so arrogant?
Why is it so hard to say a simple 'sorry'?!

life is full of colour

Life can't be divided into black and white... it's a blend of infinite shades of grey and infinite hues of colour...
Sometimes you get a strange mixture of colours that you may not like
Or sometimes you can choose what colours you want in your life
but unlike if it was black and white, if you chose white then black could be tossed aside, when you choose your colour in life, the other colours are still there, co-existing.

I cried tonight. It was a mixture of sadness, or happiness, I don't know. Sometimes laughing made me cry, but in a sad way. Why do choices always mean that we can only choose to go one way? We will never know what would have happened if we walked the other path, if things would have turned out better, or worse, or made no difference in the long run. And just because we choose A over B, doesn't mean that B is not important at all... it's as if you are made to choose between losing your foot or losing your hand. Either way it's gonna be painful for you, right?

But I think that this is one of things that makes life beautiful as well... It could be 'better', more 'happy' if we didn't have to make choices like these... but it's good to experience a little pain as well. it's useless to tell somebody to 'stop crying, just be happy' when they are crying. just let everyone cry a little. cry away all the bad things, so you are left happy. it's bad to hold things in. what is happiness if we have never experienced sadness? it's not bad to feel sad. It may feel awful, but I think it's important to relish the feeling one gets when they are sad, to fully experience life and all that it offers. Why fight something natural? There is nothing wrong about crying... why does it make people so uncomfortable? Holding it in is going to be more painful in the long run...

Keep track of the not so distant future. Things that you are sad about now may sometime in the near future make you happy again. It's important to look forward to these times and fully enjoy them as much as you can, no holding back... Well, that's what I hope my future to turn out like anyway.

a september springtime~

winter of 2009 is over at last~ I have to say, today I had a really good day, it was pretty much one of those perfect days where nothing that happens can make you sad. Spring actually came pretty early this year, the picture above was taken about 2 weeks ago, beautiful spring bloom~ but now all those flowers have actually fallen and now all that's there are weird looking green leaves but ANYWAY, I am totally not a loser for taking a picture and saving it for 2 weeks, waiting for the right occasion...

Springtime represents a lot of things, including new beginnings and the end of some arduous months. I hope that my springtime can be like this too (: Well, I think I experience some mild form of SAD anyway (seasonal affectedness disorder, when you don't get enough seratonin from the sun so the brain itself its not stimulated enough, causing a dreary, depressed feeling) and I find that every winter I get wayyy more depressed than I do in the summer. So, for another half a year hopefully that doesn't happen and I can enjoy life~

This year has actually gone pretty fast. You know, this time last year I was down at Kahunui in 2nd week of hell (2nd week is the week where our house had all the emotional breakdowns due to food)... mannnn it feels like yesterday... kinda miss it but don't at the same time. Certainly an unforgettable experience in any case D: wonder how Maria's doing down there right now... but T___T I MISS CHINA.. almost been a year now wahhh time goes by so fast. Have I really changed that much in this year? I feel like I've matured a lot and yet not at all. Sigh == why must growing up be so hard... no other species has a teenager stage of their life cycle. (yes I was reading new scientist again, so sue me.)

Oh yeah, today after dinner I felt like eating fried eggs. So, I fried some eggs. It turned out to be a success I suppose... well, I ate them and they were delicious and I'm still all right, but I somewhat fail at flipping them over =/ it was originally gonna be one huge fried egg with 3 eggs so it looks like 2 eyes and a mouth, BUTTT since I'm fail and cooking it all disintegrated ): oh well, still tasty. Now that I think about it I should've made them sunny side up, if only to also have some kind of obscure hidden message about the coming of more days of sunlight 8D -totally not a nerd for bringing in hidden messages to fried eggs-

My mood today was pretty much all due to the sun being so nice and out, and the clouds not really covering it up... The sun really does bring about a lot of cheeriness doesn't it? let's all enjoy the coming of the summer sun together :D

English is a crazy language

English is a crazy language
by Charlie Indelicato

Let's face it -- English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant
nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins
weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are
candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that
quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is
neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't
groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the
plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index,
2 indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend, that you
comb through annals of history but not a single annal? If you have a bunch
of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preacher praught? If a vegetarian eats
vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps
you bote your tongue?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum
for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and
play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that
run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and
wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while
quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be hot as hell
one day and cold as hell another.

Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are
absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a
sung hero or experienced requited love? Have you ever run into someone who
was combobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those
people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house
can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out
and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the
creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a race at all). That
is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are
out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but
when I wind up this essay, I end it.

jamie / yb/ tians party

it was a fun day c:
sucks that its monday tomorrow

im so tired D:

as I begin this blog...

...I have nothing in mind to write about whatsoever. well... I'm feeling somewhat melancholy. had a pretty good dmc on msn a few minutes ago... Life is going really fast. Next year we will be 6th formers already. It's been over a decade since we started school as 5 year olds. I feel like a big chunk of my childhood is already missing somehow. When we look back to our childhoods and we feel the nostalgia, I somehow feel like I thought it would last forever. but it didn't; it's over now. I thought I told myself to stop thinking about the past and look to the future instead, but it's too hard because every minute that I spend thinking about the future becomes the past and it's another 60 seconds disappeared that I will never have again... even if it's something little, it makes me feel so, so sad. After all the future is full of uncertainties. If we spend our time thinking about what could be, we would never stop thinking, since there are too many possibilities. Sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life away... but yet at the same time I have nothing else I want to be doing instead of this life I feel like I'm wasting... maybe I just don't want to grow up, don't want to move forward? I want to be able to enjoy myself forever like this. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind freezing time, if it means I would stay forever in this world. I don't think I could ever get bored of life. My biggest regret when I die will be not being able to live to see the world move on... I'm going to feel like I'm missing so much. Like a movie that you leave in the middle of and never watch again, you will never stop wondering what happened. But we'll be dead, you say... we'll never know what became of the world we departed. But that doesn't change my feelings about how I would feel after my death if I was still conscious before I die... (did that make sense? I think I will have lost everybody by now...)

human emotions are so complex. the above sounds so emotional, so depressed but it's the truth about what I feel. It will never change. Yet I can still live on my life and not think about it, remaining rather content, but when it comes up, my mood changes immediately. but should I ignore what makes me sad even if it's part of who I am? is it better to be ignorant after all? there seems to be pros and cons for everything... making choices is getting harder and harder.

but in spite of all this some things are just heartwarming no matter what. (:

boredom = makeup?

some things I learnt today in my boredom...
a) one should not try to wash off eye makeup without makeup remover, especially with soap. yes I am obviously a genius
b) mascara and eyeliner sucks to wash off
c) weenie fails at makeup

tbh I think i look better with my glasses on =.= notice dark rings around eyes less.. but you can hardly see the dif if I uploaded one with glasses since I'm still too scared to play around with blue/green eyeshadow lol so I stick to browns/reds/pinks

in addition to that >>; I'd like to ask peoples opinion about this dress:
it's a paula ryan long skirt that strunk in the wash so my mum gave it to me and I somehow got enough creativity to make it into this dress.. tbh I haven't done anything to it lol just pulled it up and added a belt. I'd have to add some padding for boobs (lmao) if I was going to make this and stretch it a bit cuz the lining is coming out the bottom (which you can't really tell in this picture) but I dunno... i kinda like how it hangs out but it's not really a good look if you know it's lining lol. if you don't know it's lining it just looks like 2 layer dress? what do you guys think =/ I might replace the belt with ribbon or whatever, something nice. the belt I'm using the photo above is a brown leather buckle one.

also my laptop battery is nearing the end of its life ): so I'm taking this opportunity to build a new computer. well, I hope so at least. this will also make me keep my desk tidy so all attention will be directed towards the shiny sexy looking new computer that I'm gonna build =P it'll be leet if I actually end up doing it. my dad agreed to help fund it for me IF I keep my room tidy lmao... talk about motivation

I'm not gonna think about ib or ncea til the summer holdiays I think. I need to get through my ncea exams without distractions so I can use the summer holidays to think things through clearly. right now I'll just go with the flow with doing ib and if I change my mind later I hope I'll still be able to at the beginning of next year when everyone's switching subjects and stuff.

I guess life's going okay actually =/ other than the huge amounts of homework lately (there hasn't been a single evening this term when I haven't had homework. it's insane.) sigh, term 3 sure is hectic.

my life is boring so I have nothing else to say hahahahahahaah.
zzz
=.=

DOUJIN OVERLOAD 2009

above: angela and the band, performing "god knows" from melancholy of haruhi suzumiya, although it's not like you can tell the dif between songs in a photo but still. she's really good at singing~~ i had it stuck in my head all day lolol

it was even more epic than last year. probably because I was actually exhibiting this year =D it was so much fun, thanks to everyone who stopped by to look at my stuff or buy it ^^~ I was next to kera-doll (nicole) who was really nice and simply awesome to be beside (: her keychains were so cute~~ anyway, so I got there at 7.30am, almost got lost but then a worker took us there by elevator (fancyyyy) and I set up, halfway through I realised that I didn't have enough table space for my A3 posters... so I went to ask them if I could use the other half and to my surprise it was actually mine for use since rocky couldn't make it... but o well thanks to her not being there I had enough table space har har har =D actually I didn't take any pictures of my own table LOL, I hope someone else has pictures.

I saw a lot of people who came to support, eg. steph and tash, julia and her 'little brother' LMAO, rui, will & terry, and yj and jamie. thanks so much (: I also met a lot of new people eg. sam, rex, tyler, annaleisa and her brother jeffery who has an awesome signature that looks like pi because his initials are JT =D thanks for the drawing~ it was awesome to meet you guys (: also met rebecca and michelle who were awesome too~ I want those pictures guys lolol. also of course saw fellow artists eg. rebecca, kaylee and amanda~

I think what made it really awesome for me was just the people and the atmosphere, everyone was so great, esp in the afternoon after lunch when rui, yj, will, terry and jamie were pretty much manning my store with me (yes, 6 people on 3 chairs). when yj and jamie brought me lunch I went outside and sat on the ground like a hobo eating bk. yes I did get a lot of stares but shhhh >> i'm cool

also it's interesting from the vendors point of view because you notice things like the sorts of buyers.. some people stop to look, linger and then carry on, some strike up conversation, and some give you money and take the item without saying anything at all haha. there were 2 girls who fought over the vongola guardians original lineart I had for sale and I didn't know whos money to take @__@ in the end I just took the one with the $10 cuz it meant I didn't have to give change.. aaa I feel bad for the other girl tho.

also there was a guy who wanted to know about DO and similar events and how I knew about them. I dunno why he asked me of all people but I gave him the animenz website address lol XD tbh I hear about it from word of mouth mainly so I wasn't really sure what to tell him...

in terms of profit, I made $6.80. (man that sucks, you say). well I also spent over 100 bucks on pretty things (below) AND I treated terry/will/jamie/yj/rui to dinner afterwards because I'm so nice. it was an EPIC experience so that's all I needed, money wasn't really my aim. I thought I made a deficit actually so it's nice that I actually come out with some extra money hahahaha

well yeah, we had sushi for dinner in a food court, then I treated everyone to dessert lmao. then we went to yifans and did sticker photos and watched terry and will fail at ddr, watch will and terry die from exhaustion and then catch the bus home. yay~

and ofc sometime during this time yj became very happy, but that's not my story to tell =P congrats~

EYECANDIES YOU ASK?


above: new posters: reborn boys by amanda, hitsugaya by pauline, k-on's ritsu and mio by bane (came free with a sketchbook), 2 magnets by pauline, orange original char print by pauline (came free with poster), chrome by yuna
above: clockwise from top left, "The Scrap Book 2009" by bane, "Worlds Apart" by hiyaku studio, "Paper Birds" by kaylee, "Radio On 88.69" by matsuo-lenn (I bought an extra copy for rocky's birthday since she can't be there...), "Superscenic" by collateral damage x tera (beautiful music + beautiful art makes this the most expensive thing I bought.. but it was so, so worth it D:), "Bubble Tea" by rebecca and michelle and "Adolescence" by aiki-ame and marxwyn. in addition to this there is also a byakuya pin that was given free with kaylee and amanda's business card and 5 CUTE PHONE CHARM things from nicole DD: they are seriously adorable, I got luke, klavier, seychelles, trucy and apollo 8D

well theres the conclusion of DO2009. ROLL ON 2010!! It's going to be twice as epic =D

july 12th

=D click to enlarge.
1. will, bear and piggy soft toys (:
2. carmen, a cuteee bear basket filled with lollies~~ can't see it in this photo since it's still unwrapped but it's cute =D
3. eunji - a pair of socks lolol, a hairtie and a wizard of oz notebook (:
4.vicky, a box of roses and a cute eraser and pencil~
5. neeshah, a basket drawer thing EDIT--- found out it's from jacky THANKS (:
10. julia - a little build it yourself cake sculptures X3 I got the chessboard haha it's really cute but I can't work out how to melt the glue to stick on the pieces haha
11. jimin - a piece of brownie wrapped in tinfoil and a palm tree necklace =D
12. steph - 20 bucks and an awesome card TYVM lololol all the memories
13. roger - 20 bucks and a few movies on his usb which I have to return later, I am legend, forest gump, watchmen, monsters vs aliens and knocked up. (:
14. yujie - juggling balls/hacky sacks and a fan =D just what I asked for tyvm <333 haul ="D">:D

mann today was fun. 2 hours was really short >< thanks to everybody who came, hope everyone had a lot of fun... a lot of people didn't come which left some people as loners-ish but everyone made a new acquaintance I guess.

will and tony are losers for playing arcade games while at ice skating. =P everyone had fun watching yj put snowballs down shirt hurhurhur. never saw it coming.... grats to harim and kenji for winning races, there were a lot of falls... but yeah all in all a pretty good day I guess. heaps of randoms, mainly jonathan's friends lol but pro. for everyone who stayed afterwards for cake you guys are awesome (: esp the losers who refused to eat cake coughrogerandarkarcough, I feel very satisfied after making you eat it.

and TIAN wooooo he went on the ice. that's accomplishment enough for him XD everyone was mixing really well lol I got confused in the beginning cuz I thought "wtf I thought they didn't know each other..." but yeah it's good that everyone talked to everyone (:

hm, only feel once today cuz will pushed me lolol. but then he caught me. but then he dropped me and i dragged down kim and we all fell 8D yuppp pretty cool. ice is slippery.

hope everyone enjoyed their day anyway... imma go watch some movies now =P

picspam & various other things

^^^ the bookmarks for DO (: theres only 4 of each right now tho I really need to photocopy. speaking of arts, I need to get some magic tape to start my painting, but I have the feeling that I'm just going to flag and start painting without magic tape >> resulting in an extremely messy painting but EHHH i'll try to be careful but I just really cbs looking for tape since it appears to be extremely elusive and rare in convience stores according to what i've heard from steph.


birthday party on sunday and I still haven't bought anything for yj/kim/shu/ej (FEBRUARY)/steph (APRIL)/bernie(APRIL). I think I'm doing rather well don't you? the above are presents from will. very sneaky of him, giving me my presents before HIS birthday so I would feel extra pressure to give him his on time. ): blahhh no time.

also I got conned into proofreading my cousin's 94 page long masters degree thesis. it went like this: "hey can you proofread some of my writing I don't think my english is entirely correct." thinking it was some little article I accepted. I feel somewhat cheated. =/ welll I'm almost halfway through it.. 40/94..

my mum bought this nescafe italian cappucino coffee powder. it tastes nice =D I think I might be addicted to coffee by now... I've eaten like half the tin >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFccgzpZL8thGFScUbM4Zmn3DRYQsw2EusWIQvkzQgZM_W-Kakj76angRbZD0xhBEQuLS7BB43hR7gA6y060qsC2xcjY6ShGa5vrTiZvNyzxdTAPZgAn926adCuvsfbxrGGug-rGyh4INs/s1600-h/orz.jpg">my last braceless photo of teeth for a few years. ): blehhh I'm not even scared of the pain but I'm pretty sure braces will be ugly on me D:

just cuz I felt like it.

"Buy some shoes."
"Yes, sir."
“I don’t think you have to call me “sir”, sir”, Lieutenant Scheisskopf pointed out. “You outrank me.”
“Yes, sir. I may outrank you, sir, but you’re still my commanding officer.”
“Yes, sir, that’s right,” Lieutenant Scheisskopf agreed. “You may outrank me, sir, but I’m still your commanding officer. So you better do what I tell you, sir, or you’ll get in trouble. Go to the hospital and tell them you’re sick, sir. Stay there until your uniform allowance catches up with you and you have some money to buy some uniforms.”
“Yes, sir.”
“And some shoes, sir. Buy some shoes the first chance you get, sir.”
“Yes, sir. I will, sir.”
“Thank you, sir.”

----

wellllll I was extremely bored today as steph would know. I missed the bus but for some reason I decided to walk home. it was cold. rolling around on art tables and being annoying in general is amusing. yeah, I'm still bored

the girl meme & questionable sanity

♥GIRLS ONLY:♥

♥Do you sleep in your bra?
no
♥Do you enjoy drama?
asian dramas yes~ real life drama, depends what kind =P
♥Are you a girly girl?
I don't think I am...
♥Last person you hugged?
stebby? ♥Small or big purses?
big purses messenger bags... how other girls can fit all their stuff into one of those tiny purses is beyond me.
♥Do you think you’re conceited?
yes =P very much so
♥Do you dress up on Halloween?
never have probably never will =/ unless I move to united states or something
♥Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I dreamt that I slept at school overnight in one of the toilet cubicles
♥Has anyone touched/smacked your butt?
Yes
♥Last person who walked you somewhere?
I can't remember ):
♥Do you call anybody by their last name?
With the exception of adults with titles, I don't think so =/ but joy calls me by my last name.
♥Do you wear makeup?
nope, too much of a hassle to put on, not to mention expensive... oh wait, sometimes nail polish. but it flakes off real fast >< ♥Ever cried at a movie theater?
nope, the presence of other people kills the mood
♥Can you put mascara on without opening your mouth?
o_o yes
♥Have you ever been called a bad influence?
hahahahahahha tbh, yes, once. XD
♥THIS OR THAT:♥
♥Eyeliner or Mascara?
no preference =/ I guess if I had to choose, eyeliner, since you can always get fake eyelashes =P
♥Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Burke?
...whaa?
♥American Eagle or Hollister?
american eagle. (:
♥Heels or flats?
honestly I think heels look better than flats.
♥Skirts or pants?
'pends. some skirts are real pretty (:
♥Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies ftw
♥Heels or sneakers?
yeah, chucks. =P although some heels are real pretty, so I guess I'd choose those over the ugly sneakers >< ♥Straight or curly hair?
straight, or maybe slightly wavy would be interesting if I had longer hair, just to experience it.
♥RANDOM:♥
♥What color is your bra that your wearing?
getting ready for bed so no bra lol
♥Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
depends on the guy. I tend to go for dark haired guys more though
♥Are you currently frustrated with a guy?
maybe =/
♥Do you have a best friend?
nope (:
♥Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
lol, yes. as part of my murder plans (ask steph.)
♥Do you like your life?
right now, yeah I guess. overall I am happy even though I like to find things to complain about since it's more fun with conflict.
♥Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yes lol, not very pleasant
♥Would you ever tell someone you loved them even though you didn't?
depends how much I could get out of it. =P
♥Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
lol yes, lightly
♥Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes
♥Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
yes
♥Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yeah, but once again life killed my dreams ):
♥Are you currently missing someone?
yes D:
♥IN A BOY:♥
♥Preppy or Punk/Goth?
to the preppy side tbh lol
♥Well-educated or Dropout?
hah, is this really a question you are asking me XD
♥Anything Cute or Abercrombie?
wha...
♥Contacts or Glasses?
don't care, but it's a plus if he looks good with and without 8D
♥Funny or Serious?
funny~~
♥Long Hair or Short Hair?
depends what suits him (:
♥Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
probably straight... but that also depends if he looks good with curly hair...
♥Good Dancer or Good Singer?
singer lol
♥Basketball Player or Football Player?
basketball player~
♥Smoker or Non-smoker?
man if you're a smoker don't even try get near me.
♥Drinker or Non-drinker?
non-drinker ==

welll I had a little emotional breakdown on friday night that nobody knows about but yeah that turned out okay after I wagged chinese to go down to viaduct for 2 hours and spend some time alone. alone time is very important for sanity. even though humans are social creatures we still need our hermit time... sigh, who knows how much I cried between friday and saturday...

spent this weekend at steph's house cuz my parents randomly decided to pull a rotorua trip out of their ass, since one of their friends came to visit nz from hong kong this week. I didn't want to go, since it's boring and I had a bad feeling about it, so I had to stay at steph's. intuition never lies, they ended up inviting the family friends with the creeper son. although, I still had to sit through dinner with him last night. siigh =.=

in terms of orthodontics, I'm getting my braces on july 7th (: today I got a retainer for top teeth so they don't move before then. it feels weird >< but I guess at least you can't notice it's there. very similar to invisalign, except instead of aligning my teeth its aim is to keep them as crooked as they are now. 8D

k-on! is so cute... but 200mb an episode.. my poar internet. ):

How to talk about women while retaining political correctness

Enjoy:

She is not a BABE or a CHICK - She is a BREASTED-AMERICAN.

She is not a BLEACHED BLONDE - She is PEROXIDE DEPENDENT.

She is not a BAD COOK - She is MICROWAVE COMPATIBLE.

She is not HALF NAKED - She is WARDROBE IMPAIRED.

She does not wear TOO MUCH JEWELRY - She is METALLICALLY OVERBURDENED.

She is not CONCEITED - She is INTIMATELY AWARE OF HER BEST QUALITIES.

She does not want to be MARRIED - She wants to lock you in DOMESTIC INCARCERATION.

She does not GAIN WEIGHT - She is a METABOLIC UNDERACHIEVER.

She is not a SCREAMER or MOANER - She is VOCALLY APPRECIATIVE.

She is not EASY - She is HORIZONTALLY ACCESSIBLE.

She does not TEASE or FLIRT - She engages in ARTIFICIAL STIMULATION.

She is not DUMB - She is a DETOUR OFF THE INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY.

She is not TOO SKINNY - She is SKELETALLY PROMINENT.

She does not HAVE A MUSTACHE - She is IN TOUCH WITH HER MASCULINE SIDE.

She does not HATE TELEVISED SPORTS - She is ATHLETICALLY IGNORANT.

She has not BEEN AROUND - She is a PREVIOUSLY ENJOYED COMPANION.

She does not WEAR TOO MUCH PERFUME - She commits FRAGRANCE ABUSE.

She does not GET YOU EXCITED - She causes TEMPORARY BLOOD DISPLACEMENT.

She is not KINKY - She is a NON-INHIBITED SEXUAL COMPANION.

She does not have a KILLER BODY - She is TERMINALLY ATTRACTIVE.

She does not GO SHOPPING - She is MALL FLUENT.

She is not an AIRHEAD - She is REALITY IMPAIRED.

She does not get DRUNK or TIPSY - She gets CHEMICALLY INCONVENIENCED.

She does not get FAT or CHUBBY - She achieves MAXIMUM DENSITY.

She is not COLD or FRIGID - She is THERMALLY INACCESSIBLE.

She is not HORNY - She is SEXUALLY FOCUSED.

She does not WEAR TOO MUCH MAKEUP - She has reached COSMETIC SATURATION.

She does not have BREAST IMPLANTS - She is GRAVITY RESISTANT.

She does not NAG YOU - She becomes VERBALLY REPETITIVE

She is not a SLUT - She is SEXUALLY EXTROVERTED.

She is not LOOSE - She is MORALLY IMPAIRED.

She does not have MAJOR LEAGUE HOOTERS - She is PECTORALLY SUPERIOR.

She does not have THIN LIPS - She is COLLAGEN DEPENDENT.

oh, the things she does to waste time

and with that I go to bed.

lack of updates

^by laina.

so yeah, it's been a while, i'm not sure if it's because I am mentally stable right now or if I just cbs updating but either way here's an update just because I feel guilty for not updating.

exam results are back, yet I feel more stress than ever lol... lucy's moving to aus, so I have to prepare a goodbye present... also a lot of internals coming up, and the like... and I need to tidy my desk. must also prepare stuffs for DO ><><>>

and also, @laina, since you keep pestering about ncea/ib I think I'm probably going to take ib. but even now I have no idea wtf I am taking within that. also I don't like making final decisions so I might change my mind again later but right now it's pretty sure. ugh, I feel so inadequate lately though. seems like everyone else is trying so hard at school and I feel like I'm actually trying less. I feel like my standards have dropped or something >> admittedly it could be a good thing to avoid stressing out about results but still, aim high = higher results right? sigh... I find that I'm affected very easily by outside factors when it should really be what I want and what's best for me, but what if those are conflicting? and what if I don't even know what I want...

well, I suppose a coin flip could be used, but even I'm not that carefree when it comes to life changing decisions.

getting late, grandma wants to go to fleamarket real early tomorrow, I think we're meant to be out the door by 8am tomorrow or something (ridiculous I know) so eh, night for now >< really wish I actually had something interesting to say, but I don't.