26 February 2009

hello, this is a blog update

...of no particular interest or significance.

This week has lasted forever. I don't know why but it just seemed to drag on... especially yesterday. I was feeling so weird yesterday, sorry if I did anything stupid or strange to you, just was feeling a bit down and tired of life.

Also, what is everyone's problem with trying to think of something to blog about? You can write about anything... this is not an english class. if you want to type gibberish go ahead. nobody is marking you for this... some say their life is too boring, too insignificant, too normal to blog about. what do you think I blog about? My boring life, yeah that's it. Nobody is going to read it anyway... these things are pretty unactive. I could have run into an alien today or built a time machine, blog about it, it would ultimately be the same as blogging about my day to day life since noone really cares...

JUST LIKE THIS.

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if that's what it takes to express yourself, go right ahead. I had to tell myself to stop there, mashing keyboard is very calming and addictive...

It can be as short or as long as you want. for example, does anyone else remember my "I'm so happy." entry? compared to one of my long ass random rants... have to have some variation in here...

stop worrying :) blogging is blogging; there is nothing serious about it. type in chatspeak if you want, type gibberish, rant, put down feelings, nobody in the world can tell you the correct way to blog, because blogging is expressing yourself, and if there is a 'correct' way of expressing yourself, well what kind of a monochromatic world would that be?

20 February 2009

la la la...

ignoring how this is an obvious paradox, it's still cool :3

I realised that I am much better at expressing myself in writing than verbally. Maybe it's because in writing I have time to organise my thoughts before I 'say' them. Wow my brain must be so slow, can't even keep up with my mouth... Also I guess I've been too reliant on things like msn for too long, that I can't speak a proper coherent sentence in real life without taking a long time to organise the words, and even then my mouth manages to stutter or screw it up somehow... am I not used to speaking?

I guess, since I was young I've been pretty reclusive and introvertive. I was never good at talking to strangers. Surprising as it may seem it's true... I know now I seem pretty outgoing, don't have a problem with approaching new people etc and like making new friends, but it's taken a lot of growth to break out of my shell. And so even now I'm not used to speaking properly. Maybe it's because my English skills are going out the window. What am I supposed to do? English is my 1st language now, and if I can't even speak this fluently and effortlessly... @_@

So, I must practise speaking. Because it's not only english I fail at speaking, also chinese and french, the words just never seem to come out right, even though I have it all sorted in my head... just goes blank when I want to say something.

Am I a naturally introverted person trying too hard to be extroverted? Aaaa, who knows anymore >>

...RUN MUDKIP RUN

16 February 2009

avoiding homework, respect.

I seem like a person who doesn't have a lot of things that she hates... and it's true. The one thing that can piss me off a lot, very fast is lack of respect. Lack of respect for anyone else's feelings, opinions, privacy...
goddamn. especially after being told you're crossing the line, and you continue to disrespect others. what is the world's problems? is it that parents are failing to teach their children properly? or society just doesn't give a damn about respecting itself anymore?

If you just go ahead and do something I don't like, that's okay if you don't know. But if after the first time I specifically tell you seriously that I don't like it, and you continue... that is disrespect. And if you continue 100+ times for the rest of your life, laughing at me every time I tell you not to, and then pin the blame on someone else, that is lack of disrespect, a want for a death sentence from me and just plain idiocy.

I will acknowledge if I disrespect anyone. Eventually, anyway. And if I don't, I will at least respect their opinion that I am disrespecting them, even if I don't think I am. Do unto others? whatever happened to this rule of society? I respect you, you come back and go through all my things, bother me when I have important things to do, continually do stupid things hazardous to my health, and in the end you laugh about it? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? not to mention noone else does anything about it either! You are not a little kid anymore, get over yourself! It's time to start taking responsibility for yourself, not just blaming everyone else around you!

sometimes I wonder how long it will be until you get this idea into your head. It's the real world here, if you don't take responsibility for your own actions noone else will. And if you try to shift the blame onto someone else, chances are there will be at least one person (I would hope) with morals around and then you will get your ass handed to you like it should have been a long time ago.

It's ok if you didn't understand this. I don't expect anyone to. I just can't sit around anymore, it's driving me crazy. If I wasn't so nice I would have taken you and smashed your head through a window already. You're lucky that someone else respects people around here.

Also, my internet is failing hard... 3kps internet? really? @__@ I blame my dad and his stupid movie downloads...

I should really do be doing art homework =.= so boring though. shells... really... siiiiigh.

metaphors and coincidences

Funny metaphors used in high school essays
Just in case you need some writing inspiration. Every year, English teachers from across the USA can submit their collections of actual analogies and metaphors found in high school essays. These excerpts are published each year to the amusement of teachers across the country. Here are last year's winners:

1. Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had its two sides gently compressed by a Thigh Master.

2. His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free.

3. He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from experience, like a guy who went blind because he looked at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it.

4. She grew on him like she was a colony of E. coli, and he was room temperature Canadian beef.

5. She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.

6. Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.

7. He was as tall as a six-foot, three-inch tree.

8. The revelation that his marriage of 30 years had disintegrated because of his wife's infidelity came as a rude shock, like a surcharge at a formerly surcharge-free ATM machine.

9. The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't.

10. McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.

11. From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another
city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p.m. instead of 7:30

12. Her hair glistened in the rain like a nose hair after a sneeze.

13. The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.

14. Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph.

15. They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth.

16. John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.

17. He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant, and she was the East River.

18. Even in his last years, Granddad had a mind like a steel trap, only one that had been left out so long, it had rusted shut.

19. Shots rang out, as shots are wont to do.

20. The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work.

21. The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.

22. He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame, maybe from stepping on a land mine or something.

23. The ballerina rose gracefully en Pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.

24. It was an American tradition, like fathers chasing kids around with power tools.

25. He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up.

I love them. They made me lol, and not many things can. Call me an english nerd, (w/e I suck) but I love these. ahh american high school students...

Today I experienced an inordinate amount of crazy coincidences. It was like 4 hit combo!! Such bad luck, it went like this...

We ended early cuz of swimming sports. (2.30) I was going to walk home, so I was about to enter the robertson building when yujie txts me going "Wait! Come back! Will's coming!" So I'm like, ok, since I don't have anything better to do, I'll go back.. so we sit down in the quad and wait for like half an hour while he gets from his school to newmarket to bus to our school. After a while we get a txt "If you see someone who looks like me, it's not me" which made us think that he fucked around with us and didn't actually come. >> which turned out to be a misunderstanding but whatever. Then he goes something like "kk I'm on ranfurly now." So we walk down the front gate way to ranfurly. When we get there, he's not there. We see an ags guy but it's not him. We think he screwed around with us and assumed that he never even came. So I walked home.

The other side of this: He ends early cuz of third formers (apparently, wtf I dunno, 2.30) and goes to newmarket, buses to our school. Gets off at the wrong stop. Walks up ranfurly. Txts us, and then his phone battery dies. Sticks around waiting for us. At this time we are still walking towards him. He waits for a while, figures we didn't turn up (I txted him to come towards our school, obviously didn't get the txt since his phone died), assumes we stood him up and starts walking home up wapiti. The ags guy we saw was walking right behind him.

He got home 5 minutes before I did. We live like 200-300m away from each other. I walked home the same way he did.

ok
a) his phone battery died
b) we went out the front gate way, when we would've ran into him if we went the wapiti way (my fault...)
c) he didn't stick around for that long, gave up right before we arrived
d) I WAS RIGHT BEHIND HIM THE WHOLE TIME I WAS WALKING HOME. OMFG WTF?!

4 hit combo right there. what the hell, there's only so much crap you can get in a day, let alone in the space of 20 minutes.

Friday 13th has come a little late for us all...

15 February 2009

Tattoo...

one of those itunes memes:

IF SOMEONE ASKS YOU, "ARE YOU OKAY?" YOU SAY:
Thriller
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Misery Business (....im emo...?)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Welcome To The Black Parade (LOL)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Vega
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Because of You
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Leave Out All The Rest
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Fly High
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Unforgettable
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Knights of Cydonia (hahahahaaha wtf)
WHAT IS 2+2?
Chaos (my brain just can't stand the complexity..)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Love is... (I love you best friend. whoever you are =/)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Forever (=D)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Better (ahahhaaha)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Life (awww <33) style="font-weight: bold;"> WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Alumnia (what.. how depressing..)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Wilds Of My Heart
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Acrobatics And Genius (.....o_o)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Dance, Dance (hahaha)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Fresh Leaves (...I eat them. >> errr...)
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Epilogue
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Forever (this is a different Forever from before =.= so many songs called 'Forever'..)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Tattoo

Also, happy valentines day everyone. I think everyone who reads my blog already knows what I got (before me, even >>) so this is for the sake of bernie only:
<3333>> well bad choice of words there, obviously normality is all the bs we have going on atm. Economic crash (america is def going down in the next 2-3 years...), global warming THEREFORE all those bush fires, etcetcetc, overpopulation, environmental problems, extinction of species, wars.......... yes, it was a rather big discussion...

no I have nothing else to talk about. Oh yeah I took the aic test yesterday. It was ok, easier than expected, my writing was complete fail. I don't think I'll go after all =/
went to chinese, was so surprised when I came up and saw tian and jamie sitting there, like wtf. then after class, came downstairs, saw ella and tony and was like wtf again. everyone is now in the same building for chinese. pretty cool actually :3 and lol, my class only has 2 people now T_T

ok actually im getting real distracted by msn atm. >> will probably do an actual rant later. I forgot what I was going to rant about anyway.

05 February 2009

IM SO EMO. + y11

I don't know what's wrong with me. I saw the knife on the table, and I couldn't resist this time...



























...

LOL. GOT YOU. NICE PHOTOSHOP JOB RIGHT =D

It has also come to my attention that Tuesday dinner is the best. This is because grocery is bought on sunday, and we spend sunday and monday eating all the leftovers from the previous week. Then on tuesday we cook the new stuff and have a grand dinner =P I like tuesdays now.

except next tuesday is... @___@ swim/run duathlon... wonder if my period will still be going.

Y11 is so... ugh no words to describe it. I can already feel the stress... art + double science + year 12 maths.... GAHHHH. I'm going to take the aic test next saturday. Yey, what a nice valentines day. Ily, education. T_T;

I'm a bit worried about what will come after... if I get accepted... that means I'll have to decide if im going. and if I decide to go, that means I'll have to cram the rest of the year's stuff into half a year, so that means art + chemisty +physics + ALL of year 12 maths + extra french + ALL OF Y11 ENGLISH in 6 months, not to mention cocurriculars since they made us sign up for that DEBATING + PEER MEDIATION (?) and badminton throughout the week....

and I don't even want to think about what happens after I get there. >>

also, my brother is an idiot and tried to cram egg shells down the sink. He failed and clogged it up for me -cry-