I feel so depressed -.-

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I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break, break, break, break, break, break, break...

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up...

I’m about to break...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break


One Step Closer-Linkin Park

YOU KNOW WHY IM EMO? WELL YEAH, LOOK AT MY GUY HAIR. NOW YOU KNOW WHY.


Eric, Death and Beautiful People

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(: look how sexy eric is now.

Hm not much to say after all this time... our lives are so boring, nothing ever happens (with the exception of yujie really lol and her secretive txting)...

I was in art today and I had this sudden revelation that I'm gonna die one day. And I'll never be able to see the world we have now, and I'll be brain dead. After everything happens... graduation from high school, graduation from uni, entering the adult work force, retirement... nothing after that. I can barely imagine closing my eyes and having no thoughts, and not knowing that I have no thoughts. Death is like a paradox I guess... people say that whatever you believe in, you will get it after death. But after death, if it's only all science and there is no heaven, it won't matter what you believe in because you're.. well, your brain is no longer processing so how can you possibly think? Gosh how morbid. Left me depressed all lesson.

And UGHHHH KIDSSSSS. At badminton:
'I think -name- likes -name2-... -giggle giggle-" Okay this I can understand, since it's so obvious... but then they had the nerve to add
"-name2- is ugly though... well that's what I think. Ew."
What a sad, superficial world we live in. You should not like someone because they are pretty or hot. You should not hate someone because they are 'ugly'. In addition to this, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Even if the rest of the world thinks you're hideous, but one person sees you as perfect and beautiful, you will always be beautiful to them, no matter what anyone else thinks. What that person said pissed me off because it's so shallow. If you only like someone because you think they're goodlooking, or you only hate someone because you think they're ugly, it's not you liking/hating them at all, it's just you being judgmental and stupid. It's not like we can control what we look like; don't you think everyone would look perfect if we could? If you hate someone because you think they're ugly, then you're basically hating on them for no reason apart from their looks. It's no difference from sexism or racism: the person cannot control that part of themself. IT'S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE. Imagine a scenario: You've found your life partner, you're in love. Would it make a difference if they were the hottest thing on earth or if they were the ugliest? Love is blind; we should not judge others and make decisions about our feelings about them based solely on their appearance. In the same way, it is not fair to laugh at someone or condemn them because of their natural genetic looks. One day some smarter, more educated person will realise this and you will be sorry. It'll be known as something like beautism: Having favour for the beautiful, on the same scale as sexism and racism. In other words, it's bullshit.

Ok rant over I am calm -breathes-
cyu bloggers =.=

the best and worst things

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Do you know what the best feeling is? When you're angry, or frustrated, or just hyper and have too much energy, and you go and do something with it. It feels great, endlessly smashing the shuttle over the net and hearing the satisfying crack of the floor colliding with the cork. Or sprinting in a straight line feeling the rhythm of your feet pushing off the solid ground... And then using all that energy so that you're completely numb afterwards. It's the best feeling.

And do you know what the worst feeling is? Getting up the next morning when you have school. I really shouldn't have vented my frustration like that, I was so tired this morning...

So anyway 5/6 of exam results are back
4xE for French
2xE for Science
1xE+ for Art (:
2xE for Social Studies
3xE for Maths

hopefully my english results don't screw me over again. but we won't get them til next week so I have other stuff to worry about until then.

hm yeah well I hope everyone's having fun and stuff. My boring life just doesn't compare.... btw added a jukebox on the side, not sure if it works and it's 2xasian songs and an instrumental.
cya bloggers.

hm random stuff

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well this week has been boring. nothing much happened, only exams T.T

hm well on wednesday I had my gender questioned. I was waiting for my brother to get out of swimming and this lil boy asked his sister (who was still quite young) "is that a guy or a girl?" and then the girl looked at me and said "I think it's a guy." =.=

and on saturday I performed at a piano concert and I just have to say that I've never seen so many blatantly gay guys gather in one place. Even the mum of another pianist said that 'they all look very handsome, but they also look.... you know what I'm talking about eh? -suggestive nudge-'

hm I bought a necklace today. It was $23 I got it on sale for $10 not bad not bad. its pretty ^^

going through my wardrobe, found an extremely short skirt lol: yay for stripes.

ah yeah cbs thinking about more to type, thats all for this week i guess lol. i'll post my exam results up when I get them all back ^^