I'm so tired...

For some reason I've been so tired lately >< even though I get around 9-10 hours of sleep per night, I still find myself getting really tired around the middle middle of the day why....
therefore, don't mind any mistakes, structureless paragraphs and fallen apart sentences in this entry...
The holidays are so..........
...
nice? I dunno. they're almost over. but when I think about it, being stuck in this cycle of school-holiday-school is not much fun either.

I've been ignoring kumon for a while now.
its pissing me off
it gives me headaches when i look at it.

i need to sit down and have a massive drawing session. because ive been inspired to draw more. but i never have time to anymore since I have to do all this other stuff... like normally, when school is on, I have school, then the only day when i haven't got anything after school is wednesday. even in the weekends im so busy...

in response to what bernie's said on her blog regarding fake friends, sorry but you have suck it up and bear with it. because, the way I see things, there are about 3, maybe more, groups of friends I have... fake friends, real friends and friends who i never talk to. why not group the latter with fake friends? they're not fake... I just never talk to them that much. Therefore, one of my NYR (new years resolutions) was to get to know some of my distant friends better. talking about fake friends now, I have a few of them. Well I regard them as fake friends so if they think of me as a real friend I'd be kinda guilty but right now they're not really a friend of mine, with a personality which I can't relate to at all and I'm... I dunno, using them? I sound mean but in my opinion it's useful to have people around no matter how much they piss you off. eg. if I need to translate something into some language which one of them take I can get them to help me. Also, I find that you can meet a lot of people who eventually become close friends with through friends who you don't know that well.

Actually if I think about it, it's not that they're not my friends because well I treat them exactly the same way as I treat my real friends, eg. go out with them etc, but it's just how I feel about them and their personality, and how close we are to each other that makes me classify them as a 'fake' friend. Yeah ok, misleading label. You wouldn't be able to tell in my case though, since I treat everyone the same haha. Unless I don't care about you at all and don't even bother trying to make friends with you in the first place (some days I just don't give a crap to use my energy into being nice to people with shit personalities).

Is that my rant of the month? I think so...
zzzzzz.
I'm so tired ==
go away now.

3 comments:

steph "RFWOMCIHD" said...

Structureless paragraphs my foot woman. That was a full-blown two paragraph philosophical serious discussion. Duuude. Way too heavy for the summer holidays.

I don't think I come under any of your 3 friend categories. I come in one all of my own - the retarted friend who owns me cos I'm her dog. Yeah. Or the RFWOMCIHD for short =D

Bernie said...

doG. Update your blog

Hey that rhymes!!!



So proud. XD

no regrets said...

WAHHH
AM I A FAKE FRIEND?

god I feel like such a stalker reading your blog entries, but they're realllyyy interesting hahahaha